Anxiety Daily Check-In Point #3

My anxiety is feeling very physical lately - restless core, restless legs, arms, ankles etc. I feel horrible.

Spent the day frustrated and confused. Now trying to calm down. At least I got a load of laundry done.

A bit less of a bad day today. Still feel very alone, even here. But not as much worry this evening. Got to talk to my grandmother. She knows how to keep my mind off things.

No anxiety today. Busy, busy, which makes things better. Now to keep at it now that I'm home.

Wanted to post earlier but for some reason I couldn't. My anxiety has been terrible in the mornings lately. It's making me paranoid about being in my apartment. I'm twisting everything I hear and it's making me think my upstairs neighbor is doing something against me. She's always there, always awake. She's awake all day, I know from my boyfriend being home. She's always awake when we get up at 4am. She was awake today when we got up at 2:30am. I don't get it, and I don't know why I feel like it's directed at me, but I do.

What is the depression med called, i could use it myself!!

I am also sleeping way too much, i think its my meds, i know i'm prescribed too many. but can't function without them.

Slow day today. The Artane seems to help with the restlessness. I slept a lot this afternoon.

Horrible anxiety today. Boyfriend is out of town and I was dumb enough to watch the Walking Dead (I'm very impressionable..) Ended up having a panic attack, called my mom and she spent an hour talking me back down. I've started obsessively checking everything...closets, rooms, under the bed...to be sure I'm safe. It's a bad day.

because it's very cold outside, it is making me feel extremely agoraphobic.

earlier it almost got to me and I swear I could feel rain

i was about to freak and managed to get myself to a room where I couldn't feel the cold... all good.

but it's still bothering me

Another slow day. Want to go outside and take more pictures, but haven't been feeling well. I slept for a little bit this afternoon. Still feeling kind of anxious.

I have restless core and I want to take a couple of Ativan but I must not. I hate my life!

Have a big appointment today and my heart is in my throat. I want this over.

My anxiety is rising as the weekend starts. It's really the worst time for me. Absolutely no one to talk to and nothing to do but wait for Monday.

Went to a different park today. It was full of people. It made picture-taking rather hard. Plus neither my husband or I are in physical shape. I managed to get a couple and put them online.

Otherwise it was a dull day. I wish I could've taken a nap but my mind kept racing again.

I really want to take a couple of Ativan right now. The last time I took one was last Friday, the 11th. One is not enough. However, it's good I'm mainly not using it. I wish I'd gotten diazepam instead.

I heard a man downstairs say to the criminal neighbors that (they would get rid of me) "after Christmas". I've been worried about them starting up again in January like they did a year ago.

We had snow today so no picture-taking. Spent most of the day learning JavaScript. It's starting to get complicated so I'm going at it slowly. I'm still a bit restless but not as bad as before. Talking to my husband about going to school in the summer. We'll see how that goes, since it means lots of people moving quickly.

Didn't take a Benzo today or yesterday. The last one I had was over a week ago? I don't remember.

I want one, but by no means can I ever let myself become dependent on them.

I had a good day today even though I did feel slightly overwhelmed. I'm at about a 4/10 for anxiety which is good for me!

I'm too depressed to be anxious today, the depression is all consuming, not that the depression is any better.

Kept busy today so I didn't feel the anxiety that normally starts this time of year. Put decorations up outside and did some chores in the kitchen. Now waiting to make dinner.

I have been even worse on my feet recently. My back becomes extremely painful and I'm only ok while I'm sitting on my bed. Because I'm close enough to my blanket to be able to pull it quickly over my head.

Today was okay. I'm defrosting the storage freezer and we put up the tree. I'm thinking of putting a small tree in the home office so I can have something to look at.

My daughter was complaining about work later this afternoon and it kind of annoyed me.

I kept my anxiety in check by doing things. Not sure how the rest of the month is going to go.

Waking up with anxiety. This has been happening for the past three days. Hopefully the anxiety will be gone soon. It is very annoying and makes my body tremble.