Anxiety Daily Check-In Point #3

Quiet day today. Took a walk, did Web page stuff, did two loads of laundry and making pot roast for dinner. Anxiety was there for a while. Took a nap so that helped.

I slept most of the time since 24 hours ago. It wasn't my best idea. I wish I had made a second mug of coffee instead of falling asleep again.

I'm not sure how I'll get to the appointment on Tuesday since I'm set to sleep during the days again. 🤔🙄😥

Rough day today. Freaked out in T and cut session short. Been out of it all day. Didn't even make dinner; my husband did it instead. Didn't nap because of racing thoughts. Just been a bad day.

Tonight was tough. Chris was the manager tonight....we finally sat down and talked. He took off his boss hat, and we talked like friends. We're...we have a bond. Anyway. I think he was trying to apologize. He sat very close to me. He is the sweetest thing. But my anxiety around him is now gone. I can talk to him without blushing.

Having a panic attack about the election and the Trump fanatical, frenzied people. Really can hardly contain my feelings of safety - they are so violent and aggressive. I am so worried that woman will be abused after he loses, and that riots and fighting will break out. It is causing a psychotic break, where I think I am directly responsible for not creating enough love in the world, and we need Michael Jackson and Woodstock, and Heal the World kind of movement to fight it. I am so scared, and no holding will help. It is hard to be connected to any moment except this one where I see doom and the road to armageddon being paved by christian beliefs ruling our government. I am not calling the crisis line because it isn't life or death, and it is near 2am - that would be rude. I took a prn, but am feeling a hairs breath away from a delusion brought on from this extreme fear.

Somewhat busy day. Got my hair and nails done, and h had his dental appt. Now to pick up daughter and get dinner. Anxiety wasn't too bad because I kept busy.

I feel happy and anxious at the same time. Lol.

Woke up anxious. My teeth were chattering. It took a Xanax and a Propranolol to get me calm and through my morning college class. My professor called on me even though he's not supposed to. I've contacted disability services, awaiting reply. Feeling okay, good actually, now that I'm home.

Weird day. Didn't sleep well last night so was tired and wired all day. Tried to take a nap but couldn't. Will probably eat and go to bed early again.

I'm having a panic attack right now. I took a PRN but it isn't helping yet.

I don't know what to do with myself. All I want to do is lay down to relieve the stress.

A mess of stress.

Called the bank today without any trouble. I have major phone anxiety so I'm kinda super proud of myself. Just called right away when it was necessary, been noticing that it helps me to do scary things as soon as possible and not allowing the anxiety to build up.

A slow day. Took a long nap. Been doing Web page stuff again. Trying to keep my mind active.

had rough week at work, a few errors here and there because my head was tense and i couldnt think straight

i need to start meditating on a regular basis.... and STICK WITH IT THIS TIME !!!

Finally, Saturday! Been devoting a lot of time to self-care Thursday night and last night, so I'm more or less unwound from this past work week, which was relatively stressful. Made it to a gathering at a family friend's house to watch college football. I was a little nervous beforehand, but I socialized what I feel is an appropriate amount and am comfortable now. No need to medicate today. I'm relieved as I'm trying not to depend on them too heavily and only for making a living, which is necessary.

It was a fun but hectic day. Celebrated my husband's birthday. We went to a series of caves which was kind of creepy but cool. Hopefully won't have any bad dreams tonight.

I don't normally have anxiety attacks but right now i'm almost on the verge of paranoia. Last time this happened my entire body started vibrating like i was freezing and i could hardly move.

I had a quiet day. Did a load of laundry and puttered on the computer. Anxiety struck at midday, and couldn't do much about it except sit through it.

Que Sera, Sera

Processed and uploaded more photos onto my Flickr site. it was still nice to see roses this time of year.

Today was the first day of taking Artane. The anxiety seemed to have died down a little bit.

I took an Ativan for the first time today. It might have helped me get out of here but I'm not sure i could still take the stairs on my feet.

All I really felt capable of is crawling under my blanket to go to sleep again. I'm sleeping so much it's really alarming.

Today was rough. Have grumpy family members to deal with. Puttered on computer the rest of the day. Hopefully I'll get some sleep tonight.

Yesterday was a really good day. Today I can't stop thinking and worrying and I'm really just about to give up.

Haven't been on here for a bit, but I'm doing OK. Tried a new supplement for a few weeks for depression, seems to be working. 😊