so afraid

I woke up so terrified last nite at 2 in the morning. I woke up in a sweat and my heart was beating fast and I thought "oh no please don't be a panic attack"! I had one other before 6 months ago and I thought I was getting better..I have been feeling so good then all of a sudden I had to take a Ativan. I never felt so afraid and alone..I reluctantly went to my hubby who is not to understansing on this....he told me forget about and go to sleep...then he starts to give me a lecture on what I did wrong that's why I'm having "problems"! I'm like I can't help this, you think I make this happen. He woudn't even give me a hug....I was so hurt and on the verge of wanting to just get up and run. We got up this morning and we had an arguement before he went to work.
He gets frusterated when he can't fix things but I tell him when I go to you I am not looking for you to fix anything, I just want a ear to hear me and that things will be ok..and that this will pass....but no he tells me to get over it already I have my own worries.
Now I am really upset by what he said! I try to tell him I just need to tell you, it helps to just talk to someone and get what I have to say...so I came here.. I guess I just need some assurance dammit! I can't help my anxiety and panic attacks I woud not wish that on anyone

Chichi,
I'm sorry your husband was not there for you. [[[ hugs ]]]

I'm glad you had several months of feeling good. I hope you can look at this as just another occurrance, and not an indication you're not getting better (sorry for all the double negatives). I say any day you feel good is good progress.

(((((((((((((((chichi)))))))))))))))

I completely understand how scary it is to have those attacks. I suffer from them occasionally too.

Hold on tight and know that they are temporary and they will pass. I'm sorry you are going through this.

*Gentle Hugs*
J

((((((((((((chichi))))))))))))))
take care
self
PS partners are annoying arent they?...

thank-you for all your kind words! That is all I wanted to hear from my hubby was that "it was alright" and that "it was going to be ok" like how hard is that to say!!!
I think next time I will just come here like I always do....especially when I feel like I am going over the edge..it was weird it was 2 a.m and I just wanted to run, the feeling made me want to just jump and go! I hate that feeling of being very afraid...something is wrong with my mind!

This may sound crazy, but my ex-husband was a "fixer" too. I bought the "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" on cassette (yes, it's been about ten years ago) and we listened to it driving on vacation. It really helped for a long time. We split up due to other problems, but he was actually referencing it more than I was, and he has never been in therapy, etc. Just a thought.

It talks about how women just want someone to listen and empathize with their problems, but men want to fix everything. If they cannot fix it, they feel like they are of no good to you.

you know I still have a high level of anxiety today because of my conversation with my hubby. He does try to fix everything but....he can't fix someone whose been dignosed with G.A.D but yet he thinks it's all in your head.....he's right it is but you just can't fix it by telling me "get over it, think of something else " he says. He scoffs at books but I looked at that book ...it makes sense to me but yet he's refusing to understand. I think sometimes maybe he is not good for me at this time...we worked well togeather before until my mind got sick.

I know the feeling of being afraid, especially at 2AM - my first attack was then, and I had to call the ambulance. I try to explain to my family and friends, but I honestly don't think anyone can know how scary they are until they have had one - that is also why I came here. It's frustrating when people don't understand and are unsympathetic - I'm really sorry you are going through this too!

bebu.....I to called the ambulance when I had my first one...it woke me from a deep sleep and well you know how scary it is especially if it's your first panic attack. Years ago about 10 I had a mini one and only for a moment it was shear terror. This other one lasted about half n hour.
I take zoloft 50 mg since February and had been feeling good...no eisodes until a few days ago. Is this going to happen all over again. I was watching T.v tonite and all of sudden for a moment I was scared just like that than it went away. I am scared to go to sleep, what happens now I hate that feeling of losing your mind. I need reassurance

I wish I could say they do go away, and stay away, chichi, I have a few friends that have experienced them and they say that they eventually just stop. That's what my doc and psych say too. It's been 2 years for me and they are getting more frequent. Have tried several anti-depressants but nothing has worked so far, I had bad side effects with zoloft so had to stop taking it. I am on clonazepam (1mg) per day and if the attacks get really bad I take ativan. Other than that I am not on anything else. I'm just getting so tired of all this. For awhile, I was taking sleeping pills to fall asleep, but wouldn't recommend that on a long term basis. Really wish I could help more - I could try singing you to sleep - oh probably not a good idea - my voice is kinda yuk (lol) Hope you get your peace of mind soon!!

Chichi.....if people lost their minds from having a panic attack - I would have lost mine years ago. You do not lose your mind, go insane, etc from panic attacks ! Heck yeah, they are scarey as all get out, but once you know what they are , and that they really are benign, and BELIEVE that, they are not as bad . I am very sorry your husband is not sympathetic, mine wasnt either. I dont think anyone can understand what we are going through with an attack unless they have felt the same terror we feel during an attack. I hope you soon feel better ! There IS life after panic !