[Khione]

Hi, I am diagnosed with BPD and Anxiety, and it's currently a pain in the ***.

I have this thing where I feel like I'm being watched on a constant basis. I know that I'm not, but it still feels like I am. And I can't shake the feelings. Usually it doesn't bother me, I get on with my day and it doesn't stop me from doing anything.

Now this might sounds stupid, but I want to start dancing - I used to love it as a child and I did gymnastics too, I was fairly good. But in the last 10 years (I'm 18) I haven't set foot in front of a mirror other than to do my make up. And I so badly want to dance and do dance covers to songs and stuff, but I am absolutely terrified and paranoid that I'm being watched (even though I know I'm not), the crippling fear of looking stupid is preventing me from doing something.
I've got anxiety meds (Propanalol) but it doesn't work for thoughts, only for physical symptoms.

What should I do? I don't have a doctor to see or anything.

[itspeaks]

Originally Posted by Khione

Hi, I am diagnosed with BPD and Anxiety, and it's currently a pain in the ***.


I have this thing where I feel like I'm being watched on a constant basis. I know that I'm not, but it still feels like I am. And I can't shake the feelings. Usually it doesn't bother me, I get on with my day and it doesn't stop me from doing anything.


Now this might sounds stupid, but I want to start dancing - I used to love it as a child and I did gymnastics too, I was fairly good. But in the last 10 years (I'm 18) I haven't set foot in front of a mirror other than to do my make up. And I so badly want to dance and do dance covers to songs and stuff, but I am absolutely terrified and paranoid that I'm being watched (even though I know I'm not), the crippling fear of looking stupid is preventing me from doing something.

I've got anxiety meds (Propanalol) but it doesn't work for thoughts, only for physical symptoms.


What should I do? I don't have a doctor to see or anything.

I get anxiety and paranoid in my own house too like the neighbors are spying on me or watching me etc

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[dwfieldjr]

I used to feel like that until I went on geodon. Hang in there things will get better

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[handheart]

Well its very bad that anxiety afects your dream of dancing and afects you so much .Maybe this guyde that present a natural solution at here it will teach you how to work with your mind and how to influence subconstient mind to stop your fears .It will also unlock your mind and it will revire your brain .Majority of fears and problems are blocked in subconstient mind and working there you will free yourself and mind from this problems

[Nike007]

Hello. Just a trigger warning here because I'm on my IPad and stuff. I used to get this feeling more often before. I now know it was my OCD thoughts. My room is attached to three other places: our storage room, the basement area itself, and outside. I'd get paranoid that there was a

Possible trigger:

serial killer in the storage room and is waiting kill me next. Then from outside, I thought rapist were going to come into my room and want to rape me.

I haven't had much of these thoughts anymore. Many people on here say that NAC is recommended for obsessive thoughts. You can buy it over-the-counter at your local pharmacy. I don't know dose levels or anything, so I'd talk to the pharmacist there. They would know how much and stuff. I hope you find what you're looking for

Social anxiety disorder, ASD, GAD, OCD, and panic disorder

Lexapro, 10 mg; Ativan 0.5 mg PRN

[ramonajones]

Originally Posted by Khione

Hi, I am diagnosed with BPD and Anxiety, and it's currently a pain in the ***.

I have this thing where I feel like I'm being watched on a constant basis. I know that I'm not, but it still feels like I am. And I can't shake the feelings. Usually it doesn't bother me, I get on with my day and it doesn't stop me from doing anything.

Now this might sounds stupid, but I want to start dancing - I used to love it as a child and I did gymnastics too, I was fairly good. But in the last 10 years (I'm 18) I haven't set foot in front of a mirror other than to do my make up. And I so badly want to dance and do dance covers to songs and stuff, but I am absolutely terrified and paranoid that I'm being watched (even though I know I'm not), the crippling fear of looking stupid is preventing me from doing something.
I've got anxiety meds (Propanalol) but it doesn't work for thoughts, only for physical symptoms.

What should I do? I don't have a doctor to see or anything.

There is NOTHING stupid about wanting to start dancing. I can only say DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IIIIIIIIIIITTTT!!!!

This sounds like a fantastic idea!!!! I'm a writer/actress and have found that when I don't get to engage in this activity I feel SO much sadder.

Go dance! Do whatever it takes to go dance! I wasn't sure from your post, but were you saying you just want to dance alone at home, or that you want to do it in public? If you want to dance publicly, can you take a class that's for super duper beginners so you don't feel intimidated by others in the class? Can you let the teacher know you've got anxiety about what you're going through but really want to do it? I say do whatever it takes to get dancing again.

[Khione]

Originally Posted by Nike007

Hello. Just a trigger warning here because I'm on my IPad and stuff. I used to get this feeling more often before. I now know it was my OCD thoughts. My room is attached to three other places: our storage room, the basement area itself, and outside. I'd get paranoid that there was a

Possible trigger:

serial killer in the storage room and is waiting kill me next. Then from outside, I thought rapist were going to come into my room and want to rape me.

I haven't had much of these thoughts anymore. Many people on here say that NAC is recommended for obsessive thoughts. You can buy it over-the-counter at your local pharmacy. I don't know dose levels or anything, so I'd talk to the pharmacist there. They would know how much and stuff. I hope you find what you're looking for

Social anxiety disorder, ASD, GAD, OCD, and panic disorder

Lexapro, 10 mg; Ativan 0.5 mg PRN

Do you think I should mention OCD to my doctor and see what he says? I didn't know these thoughts could be OCD related.

Originally Posted by ramonajones

There is NOTHING stupid about wanting to start dancing. I can only say DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IIIIIIIIIIITTTT!!!!

This sounds like a fantastic idea!!!! I'm a writer/actress and have found that when I don't get to engage in this activity I feel SO much sadder.

Go dance! Do whatever it takes to go dance! I wasn't sure from your post, but were you saying you just want to dance alone at home, or that you want to do it in public? If you want to dance publicly, can you take a class that's for super duper beginners so you don't feel intimidated by others in the class? Can you let the teacher know you've got anxiety about what you're going through but really want to do it? I say do whatever it takes to get dancing again.

I would love to be able to just dance, full stop. My dream is to dance in a studio with big mirrors and get lost in the music to be honest, I want nothing more than to just dance. There is a class at my local college (which I will be attending in September) so I am going to enquire there. I've tried dancing at home, alone, but I can't seem to relax and let go of the anxiety whilst I'm dancing, which completely ruins the dance itself.

[Nike007]

Originally Posted by Khione

Do you think I should mention OCD to my doctor and see what he says? I didn't know these thoughts could be OCD related.

Hello. Before doing this, I suggest you look at the Yale-Brown Obsessive Compulsive Scale (Y-BOCS). Here is a link to the test:
http://www.stlocd.org/handouts/YBOC-...-Checklist.pdf

You can print it out and give it to your doctor if you seem to have a lot of symptoms. The difference between GAD and OCD to me is how realistic it is. OCD thoughts are less likely to happen (like the examples I mentioned before) than GAD thoughts (like I'm going to fail my test as an example). It could be possible. I find it sometimes hard to draw the line between GAD and "Pure-O" OCD. But just to note, both GAD and OCD thoughts are very unrealistic. Hope this helps .


Social anxiety disorder, ASD, GAD, OCD, and panic disorder

Lexapro, 10 mg; Ativan 0.5 mg PRN