[SeptemberMorn]

Anxiety is still here and won't leave! For the last two days I've needed to go out and I start to freak when I head for the shower. I'm afraid something bad is going to happen although I recognize all the thought patterns and the icy feel of adrenaline! Why can't I just be normal? Why is life such an uphill battle??

I'd crawl in a hole, but I take all my negative feelings with me! Why can I preach and expound on overcoming anxiety and I can't do it for myself?? ARRRGH!




<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[(JD)]

Sorry Sept, I think it's because there's still something within our subconscious that triggers.... (that we can spout knowledge and yet not apply it ourselves at times.)

Personally, I'd skip the shower and GO! (the idea of being done is worth it.)

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>

[inkblot]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Septembermorn}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Maybe if you go ahead and dig the hole, but don't go inside. Write down all of your anxieties on a piece of paper, and bury that in the hole instead.

[SeptemberMorn]

Sky, you're probably right. My son and I had one of our screaming matches on Tuesday. That's par for the course for us but we always wind up working things out. We got things out in the open between us and resolved them. However, the things his wife has been pulling are still there. I don't have any hope of her even making any effort to understand. She'd prefer to hold things over my head. That's probably what I perceive as a threat and as a power trip... which is a <font color=red>BIG TRIGGER</font color=red> to me. My inner child wants my son to validate me and tell his wife where to get off... which is not going to happen and I understand, I think!

Thanks for bringing that up. Things became a bit more clear for me as I responded to you.

Skip the shower and go??? eeewwwwwww The new perm made me look like Don King!! (Is that his name??) The smell wasn't too pleasant either! LOL





<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[SeptemberMorn]

Inky, thanks! That's a great idea! Seriously, I'm going to do it! A trash can will be my hole and I'm going to write down my fears of the moment and toss them in the trash! I've always heard of doing that but I've never done it. It's about time I did, eh?




<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[inkblot]

Hope it works! I thought about that idea when I read your original post about digging the hole. I was thinking about trying it myself.

[SeptemberMorn]

Ok... so how do I stop the palpitations that come from the anxiety?? It's too soon to take my beta blockers.




<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[inkblot]

A good, hard drink? Can you go shopping? In chat? Reading? Maybe a hot bubble bath in scented candlelight with soft, relaxing music? Try visualization: focus on and picture in your mind, your heart beating gently, slower and steadily, non-palpating. It can be a little hard or very hard for people, but it can be done--and it WORKS!! Have you got the patience to try that?

[SeptemberMorn]

I don't drink, especially now that I'm on Celexa, I already went shopping today. Too late now. I hate the heat in any form and I don't have a tub. LOL But hey! I did chat and it worked!! !!

If it starts up again, I'll try the visualization since I'm alone tonight. (Yipee! )

Thanks, Girl! Now do your tests and concentrate! hehe can't help but make noises like a mother. oops? LOL




<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[inkblot]

ONE TEST LEFT! ONLY ONE TEST LEFT!!! Yay!!!! Yippee!!

Thanks, mom!

[SeptemberMorn]

My dr put me on .5 mgs of Klonopin twice a day and it seems to have taken care of the anxiety. WooooHooooo! Now to get the high BP under control!

This is the first time I've taken Klonopin and I was a tiny bit leary about it but I took it anyway. (I used to have a friend that was dilussional that took it.) It's such a small dosage. Wouldn't it be nice if I don't need to increase it? We'll see....




<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[Fuzzybear]

I am taking far too much temazepam (Restoril) and diazepam these days. Uggggg I have a thing about not going out without having a shower first, and I usually end up staying in .... today it is deeper in my hole, grrrrrrrrr I am scared of talking to our neighbours. Pathetic, huh

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