i just feel so upset. i feel paranoid, i feel crap, i think i hurt someone just being me as usual, didn't mean to, now i can't settle. why do i always have to do this, why can't i just shrug stuff off and not bother like other people do. i don't want to care if people are off with me but i do. i'm confused actually. if someone pms you to say they will be there for you, you ask that person for a hug, they don't reply, you've had a receipt saying they've read it, am i being selfish and paranoid? am i asking too much? why is the person saying they will be there and then ignoring me?

i give up......

jin

don't give up kerry.......alot of folks are in a bad way right now..........lots of people adore you.......

thanks julia, guess I'll just have to toughen up, I know when people are being off with me. I wont think about it, I have too much going on in my head without being made to feel paranoid.

Jinny xoxo

[sabby]

I know its not from the individual you were speaking of....but I hope they will suffice

It's hard to know exactly what is going on in other people's minds and lives hon. Sometimes all we have is time to read and have to respond later as life gets in the way of doing what we want to do at times. I also understand that it's so easy to think the worst when something we expect will happen doesn't happen in our perceived time frame.

Like Julia said....there are many people here who love you kiddo.....try to remind yourself of that. (I'm one of 'em)


sabby

thanks sabby, I love you too. I just think at the moment I am 15 in my head and feelings of being ignored at school and home are raw, my therapist says this is normal. I have a hard time dealing with people sometimes, I expect too much maybe, or read too much into things, I'm confused right now. I feel like I'm staqnding on a sharp point with nothing to hold onto and could fall any minute.

thankyou for caring

Kerry xoxoxoxxo

[TYMBERWOLV]

Jin,

In my opinion I think you might be suffering from some unrealisitic expectations. As sabby eluded to sometimes your request is read / heard but the timing isn't correct.

It seems to me that if u ask for a hug from this person and you didnt feel it came within your time frame u became paranoid...

i would hate to be the bearer of bad news but you own this one..... The other person had no fault in this bcos yourself id making u feel this way....

Other than that have a blessed day

T

[tsha]

(((jin)))
Try to remember that there are so many people who love you.
I find that at times I am just ultra-sensitive and it seems no one can do enough to meet my unrealistic expectations during those times. But that's my problem, not their's.
I love you, jin.

[sabby]

It doesn't surprise me at all that while going through your therapy and reliving all your difficulties that you would feel like a child/teen. It's hard to blend those past feelings that are so present right now with the adult knowledge that you have. It's like those feelings need time to grow up and learn before they can catch up to your adult logic and thoughts.

I'm sure it must be difficult and unnerving at the same time to feel that way. Know that we understand and will always support you and love you as you are going through this transition.

xoxoxoxo
sabby

[therealme]

((((((((((((jinny)))))))))))
im sorry you are feeling this way, i hope you start to feel better soon, sometimes i too cant handle people, but we must try to see things their way sometimes

hey heres another hug from me
((((((((((((((((((((jinny))))))))))))))))))))

thankyou everyone, yes you're all so right. I do expect things there and then sometimes, I'm sorry. I have no right to be that way with other people.

Jin xoxoxoxo

[Fuzzybear]

"I think i hurt someone just being me as usual"

Exactly how I feel.

(sigh)

xoxoxxo
fuzzy

[katheryn]

another step in the right direction when you can see your mistakes if you made a mistake and learn from it
(((((((((((((((((jinny)))))))))))))))))))