Anxiety Daily Check-In point #7

Dear Friends, I wanted to ask for your help, I feel very fragile and week these days. Part due to the dynamics of my own life events/ good and bad, and partly because my own mental condition. See my friends, I have very good skills for the work I do, but when someone questions me or for some reason belittles me, I take it as sacrament and I believe then that I am not good enough and I do not do my best, then I fill up with internal fears and the person that provoked me becomes a bully to me , to which I don’t have a strong ability for confrontation and even if I did the confrontation would leave me with feeling of guilt and drained of energy.
So I am an easy target I believe.

please my dear friends I need for a helping hand as much as possible.

Kindest regards,

Eladio



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My anxiety is bad. It was bad all day. I’ve had all my meds. I may just take my melatonin and go to bed.

I guess I'm not the only one who feels like a failure. Something in the air? Probably not, but possibly? Just about anything is possible. Anyway, my anxiety led me down the wrong road today. I will watch out for that tomorrow. Here we go again. Let's all send each other supportive vibes to each other, & maybe our spirits will feel strengened by those vibes all around us?

Since I started taking medicine? I had less anxiety compared to having them every single day.

Im sorry to hear about your anxiety being bad.

My anxiety was off and on. My main issue was my moods today. But I got out of the house with no issue. I’m getting more comfortable leaving the house. Going out on a Saturday is also a huge improvement. But now I just feel kinda anxious and my 3rd Xanax just went right through me it seemed. I have my visteril but it seems to be screwing up my hunger and that is one of the last things I need now. To gain weight.

I’m taking rivotril as candies.

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I had a mug of straight up black coffee today. Plus a can of Mountain Dew and a 16oz Pepsi. I’ve only taken one Xanax and often I’ll be on at least my 3rd by now. I also doubled up on my Geodon last night and I didn’t take any this morning so I didn’t have any Geodon until an hour ago. I also haven’t taken any visteril. What is up with this massive amount of caffeine equals lower anxiety thing.

I feel calm. It's probably the meds doing it. Otherwise, I'm very disappointed in things.

My anxiety has been super bad for a few hours now! Waiting for it to wind down, but this keeps happening!

I actually no longer take any psychotropic medications. I was mis-diagnosed and I was so hurt. I had so many records to have amendments added to.

Laws protect healthcare providers and mental illness providers with little regard to the outcome of their mistakes and mis-diagnoses.

Myself and my adult daughter always experienced adverse reactions to depression, anxiety and mood stabilizers. We think the reaction from the mood stabilizers is because of being mis-diagnosed.

I actually have Hashimoto and if I could get rid of one of my chronic illnesses....hands down it would be Hashimoto. My teenager also has Hashimoto. Hashimoto impacts several systems in the human body including moods.

My teenager and adult son are diagnosed with ADHD. Both were taking Focalin XR. My son was rushed from his college to a local hospital in Tennessee. His primary care recommended he no longer take Focalin XR.
About six months later my teenager began experiencing horrible adverse reactions to Focalin XR. Both my kids had been taking Focalin XR for several years.

Fast forward me and my children don’t believe in any psychotropic medications FOR US. We’re also not interested in the medication merry go round.

I treat my depression, anxiety and PTSD with self care. I created a list of things that I pick from to do when I feel depression, anxiety or PTSD.

When I tried tapering off Lithium it was a bih. Doctors are not as knowledgeable as society would paint the picture. I actually contacted the pharmaceutical manufacturer. They gave me all the steps and explained it to my psychiatrist. This all happened in early 2019.

Mood stabilizers made my personality horrible. I was on edge all the time, had little self control and my moods were all over the place. I actually get pissed thinking about it. I broke many bridges that I’d never try to repair. I don’t mind people that walked out my life because of my depression and chronic illnesses.

I’ve been dealing with a lot of grief. My primary care recommended a place and my immunologist. I’m not going to either and providers don’t listen. I’m not going to any therapist that is clueless about my culture based on lived experiences vs textbook reading. I also don’t care for therapists that follow organized religions...not my cup of tea. And they can never leave their dogma outside.

Working out and running was really helping but I’ve been placed on bed rest so much. I’m back on bed rest again. I have a nurse coming out next week. I made sure she was aware I require masks to enter my residence.

I’d definitely like to find or start a thread about being mi-diagnosed with the wrong mental illness. I have so much anxiety and distrust regarding the mental sector.

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Dear @Cocosurviving, thank you very much for writing this previous post. And I think your idea about having your own thread for this topic is a good one. I don't have a therapist currently & worry about the meds.

I told myself today I was just feeling my usual anxiety. But my carpets were not spared and then in the bathroom it sounded and looked like the split pea soup scene from the exorcist

Just be careful when assuming it’s just your anxiety like I always think.

I feel a bit more calm these past few days.

I’ve been distracted. That’s what gives me anxiety. Bury, bury, bury. Eventually, it will rear its head.

My anxiety is bad today. I only had a little bit of Mountain Dew to drink. I just feel hot and sticky but it’s not very hot outside. I felt like this last night and I needed to turn my table fan on. I have a feeling my Xanax won’t be working the best today.

Sounds like hormonal changes?

It could be. But my PMS was already supposed to be over unless I’m now having post PMS. But it could be the other hormone changes too.

More tired than usual .a 6 out of 10 anxiety level

I'm a little stressed. I can take a PRN, which I think I will do.

Oh, yes. anxiety, to put it mildly. But what can we do? Avoidance? My usual. Praying, wishing, using my imagination!

I'm going through a tough time right now with anxiety, but I think it might get better next week. Much of what is stressing me will be over by Monday and I hope I'll have days of calm after that.

I had a spell of anxiety yesterday which took hours for me to calm down from. It wasn't a 10, more like a 5 but that's still enough to make it hard to function. And I was determined not to take an Ativan, instead deal with it using DBT. I've had delusions that Dr Phil is stalking me and I was having images of him attacking me and coming after me while I was trying to draw.

I tried mindfulness and meditation, which didn't work. I tried watching a funny TV show. Nope, didn't work. But in the evening, I watched a movie comedy which did work. I really tried to get into the plot of the movie and it was a successful distraction.

Now I'm having my usual post-anxiety euphoria and am in a good mood. (that always happens after I calm down from anxiety.) Plus it's Friday and I'll be seeing family today which I always look forward too.

Hang in there today everyone.

Ceara

A 5 out of 10. Am scheduled for a MRI on thursday morning. Not claustophobic

Painful anxiety. I really need help, but waiting till the pandemic is gone.

Anxiety today a 2 out of 10. It's mostly anxiety over the possibility of getting more anxious which I'm sure people here can relate too. I've been practicing DBT all weekend (distraction) and it's worked. Hopefully the rest of today will be the same.