Anxiety Daily Check-In point #8

@lizzie It's nice to see you on this thread. I hope your med change works. Do you have a therapist? I think you can get some online if you can't go out. I wish you well in your e ndeavors

I’m trying to take all my Geodon at night. So I’ve had some anxiety today despite my Valium. I’m not sure all this geodon at one time is a good idea. I was going to go down to 160 instead of 180. I’m not sure how safe this is either. But I’m just going to try it. When I was 16 I was on 180 at night and at least 80 in the morning. I slept from first period until the end of second I think, in the principals office because it made me so tired. So 160 if it’s at night is not an unsafe dose I just have to get used to it.

Thank you for the welcome. I do have a therapist who I see via Zoom. I’m not severely agoraphobic so I am able to go out some. I just don’t like doing it. It’s hard for me to be around people I don’t know well, and it helps too if I know I can get out of a situation if I need to. I hope you’re having a good day!

I'm new to this thread. My main problem is depression. However, when I'm having a bad depressive episode, I sometimes get extremely anxious. Those 2 things combined can feel almost intolerable. I take amitriptyline for depression. This morning I was so severely anxious that I called a crisis line. That helped a bit, but not much. I kept breaking down crying while on the phone. Then I got a bright idea. I have some Benadryl on hand. It's for allergy symptoms, and I hardly ever use it. (Makes my mouth too dry.) Well, I took some. Amazingly, it actually helped. I felt different mentally. I even felt different physically. I was so grateful that I found something to ease up how awful I was feeling.

I’m sorry you aren’t feeling well. I hope you get well soon! ❤️

@rose welcome to the thread! I am glad your benadryl worked as a stop-gap. Maybe you and your psychiatrist can work out a more long term solution best of luck!

Hello! I struggle with depression, too. In addition to panic disorder (with moderate agoraphobia), I have bipolar 1. Anxiety is definitely a huge thing for me, too. I’m sorry things are so hard for you right now. I’m glad you reached out to the crisis line. I understand crying while talking about stuff. I do that every time I talk to my therapist. Crying can be good for us. I’m happy to hear that the Benadryl helped you. I hope the rest of your day is good.

I didn’t want to go to church this morning. I felt the beginnings of anxiety and knew church would make it worse. (I go with my cousin and her husband.) I went ahead and went though because I didn’t want to upset my cousin by not going. When I’m symptomatic with anxiety, depression, or mania, she freaks out and tries to talk me out of what I’m feeling…”suck it up, buttercup” type responses. I sat there in church with all sorts of panic-inducing thoughts like, “What if I speak out while the preacher is talking? I’ll be so embarrassed.” This was accompanied by my fear of crying. The message was on “Are Christians Immune to Suffering?” I knew I would cry eventually, and I did. It hit home because my son estranged himself from me two months ago, and the pain is unbearable. Does anyone else experience the fear of doing or saying something embarrassing? It’s terrible.

I feel calm today. I'm just relaxing and taking it easy. I spent the last few days doing a lot of housework. So I deserve a break.

I didn’t go to church today because a friend of mine just got engaged and he’s been dating his girlfriend as long as I dated my ex bf . I wasn’t feeling the “be happy for them” vibe. Church can be very hard for people who aren’t happy or trying to be happy. I too get a ride to church with a friend who’s been out of town for 2 weeks and I wasn’t feeling catching an Uber or lyft either. The truth of the matter is I have my apt to myself for a week while my daughter is at church camp and honestly I just want to enjoy the peace and quiet . My neighbors kids aren’t making noise in the common areas and I’m just happy to listen to the wind in the trees, my wind chime and color.

I just took half my night meds 20 minutes ago. And I’m a bit pissed they aren’t working yet. So I guess in another 15 minutes if they still don’t work they have crapped out on me once again?

My anxiety isn’t bad this morning. Such a relief after yesterday.

How is everyone doing?

I hope y’all have a good day.

yesterday is the first day ever I got to check "none" on my anxiety tracker. I am feeling pretty good today so far too.

Hi, Lizzie! Thank you for being here! And congratulations on your 1-year anniversary here coming up!

My anxiety has been tough all day. I’ve had 2 Valium. I think I’ll go take my 3rd. Maybe if I actually ate something I wouldn’t feel so badly. But eating lowers my self esteem.

I managed to go grocery shopping this morning. I didn’t have a long list which really helped. I was super anxious while driving, but that’s nothing new.

I hope everyone is having a good day.

@lizzie good for you especially driving! I can't drive so I'm impressed

I am experiencing anxiety. I'm nervous about going out & other things.

I’m so sorry you’re nervous. Sending warm hugs. I hope you feel better soon.

Colored for the first time in decades in an effort to calm my anxiety. It helped some. Coloring page by Sugar & Sloth.

This is the worst anxiety I’ve had in 10 years. What makes it worse is I am in another state and I don’t have access to any of my doctors or my therapist. I feel like I’m heading for a break down right now while I’m on vacation that will go until Friday afternoon.

Thanks for the smile Lizzie

I feel calm. I'm just relaxing from a busy day.

God bless you, Mountaindewed. Keep trying to hang in there. Maybe visualize being home again & remembering the good things about your vacation? I hope you have a really good day today!

I feel calm this morning.