Anxiety Daily Check-In point #8

I'm ok right now.

My anxiety is the worst right now. Again. And I’m kind of at a loss on what to do. I think I need to eat an actual meal but my stomach hurts too much. I’ve had all my Valium. I can’t take any of my other meds for another 45 minutes at the least. My therapist can’t help me out. Honestly at this point I’m wondering if I need IP. Although I’ve thought many times since March 2020 that I needed IP and I’ve always been able to push through. Except when forced to go for an assessment for going too far late last year.

I personally think at this exact moment it was the protein peanut butter cups I ate. They are technically a dietary supplement and I have no idea if they interfere with anything I take or are just supposed to make me feel crappy since I’m not eating them after working out. But I think my stomach legit does hurt.

Ok so I just took a couple of my non benzo meds and now as long as I don’t think of food my anxiety is ok.

I am slightly anxious about a call I am meant to be getting tomorrow from, well, someone who I don't really like talking to

that being said, last time we spoke, I reminded her that I know more about my life than she does, and she should let me finish before spouting ****

not sure how much of that she listened to (even if any of it), but I guess I'll find out tomorrow

I'm doing pretty good at the moment.

My 2nd post here. Usually I'm in the depression forums. Persistent depressive disorder is what I identify with. Currently, though, I think anxiety better describes my state of mind.

Music is soothing my anxiety this morning.

My anxiety has been off and on all day. But it’s been better then usual. I went to Target which made me a bit nervous. And I’ve had all 3 of my Valium but I haven’t had to double up at all. My therapist was able to fit me in for tomorrow which I’m really grateful for. Then I got a gynecologist this afternoon and an appointment on Wednesday so I can deal with this hysterectomy issue that according to other ftm people saved their mental health. I had my weighted vest on earlier for about an hour. Then I took it off for a few hours and now I’m wearing it and using my burrito blanket and I feel better. I also had half my night meds including my 3rd Valium.

So I guess the therapy session, the Valium, the weighted vest, and getting the doctors set up made my anxiety more manageable then it normally is. Also the increase in Geodon and lamictal were really ****ing with me. Especially the increase in lamictal. I’m glad I went down on it. I should be PMSing right now but this is the most mild PMS I’ve had all year.

I also just now got a new primary who can prescribe my injections. I see him on Thursday. Now I feel like I have an actual support team.

I had a medical procedure today. I was calm before I left the house, so that is progress. I am calm now.

I think I overshared information again

something I am good at it seems..

I'm doing ok right now.

Still plagued with anxiety.

I'm sleepy and going back to sleep. That will give me an escape for a while.

I think I’ve only taken 2 Valium today. But I’m not sure. I’m gonna have to start cutting them in half and hope that helps because I’m about 5 or 6 days short now.

My anxiety is sucky but I’d be concerned if it weren’t.

No major anxiety as of late, but I still can't go out in public without feeling contaminated by everything surrounding me. My goal is to be able to go out and not have that fear surrounding me constantly.

I feel calm this morning.

I'm feeling so uneasy.

I think I just took 3 Valium today. My anxiety was kinda sucky but a lot of it is the PMS I’m dealing with. I took a Geodon early. Then I took half of my other meds about 2 hours ago. I’m about to take my melatonin now and go lie down. Then take my Geodon awhile after that. I hope I don’t have another night like last night. I think I’ll be ok though. I don’t typically have 2 very bad nights in a row anymore.

my anxiety has been sliding up and down today.

pretty annoying really

Since waking up this morning I've had anxiety. I had it last evening too. It feels pretty bad.

I'm used to depressive bouts, but I'm not accustomed to getting this anxious. I hate this.

Things were going great with my anxiety until it escalated suddenly and I took one Valium and then doubled up on the last 2. The nurse asked me how often I take it. Why does everyone lose their **** over Valium? I’ve been asked about it a few times by both medical and mental health professionals.

Went to the doctor. It seems I still may need to go back to the hospital, depending what the bloodwork shows.

I explained how anxiety is making me nuts. MD ordered me some Ativan. I'm not really feeling it.

It's very, maybe dangerously, addictive.

I'm doing better than I was. I took my PRN and I colored in my new coloring book. I feel pretty calm.

The anxiety is much better today. Just occasional moments of stress & then I'm ok again.

“I been wanting to tweet this for a few days now...

If EVERYONE needs therapy, then the problems EVERYONE is dealing with are systemic, cultural... too big to be confronted alone between two people. It's actually a grave injustice to make individuals responsible for this.” @peoplesOracle (Twitter)


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I haven’t taken any Valium yet. I have some bathroom and food anxiety right now because people are over. By people I mean my family. I have a bag of carrot Goldfish that I’ve just been grazing at for an hour. But my overall anxiety is ok. I’m just a bit self conscious about things.