[SingDanceRunLife]

I've been really stressed lately, and tired, and generally not in a good place...And it's building up in me.

Last night, I started to break down, cry, get all worked up...you know... But then I made myself stop because I had homework to do.

Tonight, same way...I had homework to do, and no matter how bad I feel, I always try to do my homework (and try really is a key word). But gah! I'm just not feeling good at all...Stressed, tired, having way too much to do, having too much on my mind about school, about my friend who I talked to last night for the first time in like 2 months, about other stuff...And to make things worse, I'm really worried about my friend. I haven't heard from him since yesterday, and when I talked to him then, he wasn't doing well. I sent him a text message earlier, but have gotten no response.

I hate this.

[jacq10]

(((((((Hugs))))))))

I'm sorry you're feeling so anxious It's no fun at all to be feeling this way, especially when you've got things that you have to do.

I hear you on the homework thing. I've got midterms and assignments ALL over the place, and anxiety certainly makes it harder to get anything accomplished.

You said that you started to break down last night but stopped yourself? Do you think that you would be able to let yourself have a breakdown so to speak? I find that if i'm constantly reprimanding myself for having all these feelings it only makes things worse. Sometimes, if you can give yourself permission to feel overwhelmed, and you can get some of it out.. it actually really helps.

Now i'm one to speak as I seem to have a certain difficulty with that, but i think the key is to just try and not beat yourself up about how you're feeling. If you are able to acknowledge these feelings, admit to yourself that yes, you feel like %#@&#!.. but not dwell on it.. just recognize it, that can help too.

Sorry if i'm not making any sense.

As for your friend, well worrying about him isn't really going to do anything. Maybe he just needs a little space right now? There could be lots of reasons for why you haven't heard from him ... if this continues and you don't hear from him in a couple days, then that could be more grounds to allow yourself to worry.

Hope you're feeling better soon...
Jacq

[SingDanceRunLife]

I can't let myself breakdown...Not now. There are certain times when I can, and do, but this is not one of them. I have to make it until Friday night. Then, I can have a breakdown.

The reason I'm worried is that considering his track record...There might be something seriously wrong. In all likelihood, he's OK and he'll text me in the morning, but still...

[mandazzle]

(((((sing)))))
Keep being optimistic, and remember: everything will be ok in the end. If everything isn't ok, it's not the end.

[Cyran0]

You might also try to take life in smaller chunks. Do a little work, do something to calm and center yourself (something you enjoy) and then do a little more work. This is how I try to manage anxiety while still having a huge work load.

Cyran0

[SingDanceRunLife]

I'm doing so much better now!

I heard from my friend, so I'm no longer worried about him...And that was my biggest worry.

I'm still not great though...But I'll survive.

[sabby]

(((((((( Sing )))))))))) so glad you heard from your friend! YAY!!

Hopefully you will be feeling better in no time. Take good care of YOU!


sabby

[SingDanceRunLife]

Thanks.

I'm taking tonight to relax.

I did my math homework at school, wrote down some half hearted answers for my US history, am reading the Sparknotes for English, and am not doing my physics because I don't know how.

I'm going to do the dishes, take a shower, and then read until it's time for bed.

[BalishBun]

stress does "toy" with anxiety in a major way. What I found that helps when the anxiety comes on is to come here to PC. Another thing that helps me is concentrating really hard on the thing I was doing before the anxiety interrupted me. Lets say I was doing homework and the anxiety started to creep up on me. I would not stop the homework, I would put my nose in my text book and start concentrating on getting it done really hard. Now this may not work with everyone, but this is a way that Ive broken what could have been a full blown panic attack. I never lost my concentration and wow, the anxiety crawled back in its little hole and I actually started jumping up and down because I had beat it before it got me.

[SingDanceRunLife]

I try my hardest to concentrate and ward it off, but sometimes it gets to the point that I can't. That even the mere thought of doing more causes problems.

[BalishBun]

Sometimes when my anxiety comes on I will stop doing what I am doing at the moment because the anxiety just made it uninteresting. I will be house shopping and the anxiety will come on and even though I enjoy house shopping, all the sudden I will think in my head "okay anxiety you win, I'm done." I did that when I was watching one of my favorite scary movies, the anxiety hit me and I shut off the movie and once the attack was over I was like "forget the movie, i dont want to watch it anymore".

[SingDanceRunLife]

I do that sort of thing too. It's so irritating because I don't want to stop, but sometimes I just have to.

I'm probably going to start taking meds for anxiety/depression/OCD because my T thinks it would be a good idea, and so does my mom...I have a doctor's appointment Monday morning. If I do, hopefully it helps.