school... year 11 coming up - 13 days... cant stop worrying,,,

this last year ive had... has been a disaster. gone downhill from an argument with my best schoolfriend... made me lose all other friends at school, had to start again.
had my first boyfriend, screwed up our friendship when i broke it off because he was trying to push me into having sex when i wasnt ready...;/
then went and nearly slept with a best friends (not in school)'s brother.
while she and three guys were in the room
which one of them saw x(
now ive lost her
my grades have gone down
im not sure who my friends are.. 'cause sometimes i just have nothing in common and are sure they're b*tching about me behind my back
ive missed class because ive no idea who to sit with now + all my new friends are in lower classes.
always pretended everythings fine to everything else
and now my little sisters moving into the school
lifes just so much harder.
i cant cope
i cant think about anything else
im just counting the hours
324 left ;/

x.

I know this sounds so lame, but keep plugging away with life.
Do some of your favorite things, listen to some of your favorite music...
It is hard when there's so much out there going on at once - friends, boys, school, etc. - don't know if this helps or not, but maybe pick out a couple of things you want to focus on for a certain length of time - say, friends and school? You're going to hear the mother part of me come out here - don't give up on school, you've gotten this far, decide to finish it up by doing your best. Doesn't mean it's got to be the top grade, it just means doing the best you can. Boys come and go - they will still be around when schools all finished (yes, I know there are boys reading this too - it goes for you too - there will still be girls around when you're finished with school too).
Don't be too hard on yourself, ok? You are a valuable person and worth knowing - just that there are some folks who haven't figured that out yet.
Find something fun to do to get your mind off the counting down to school - easier said than done, but try and hang in there.

again i am a mother i have four children one now going into year 10 one just finished year 11

school work is inportant but if you struggle at all talk to someone a counceller your head of year

dont forget this year is the shortest for you you will be doing your gcse's soon, and then deciding if its collage or job you are going to do
also if you are doing to much you can discuss this with someone at school

dont over work to please others do it coz you want to and dont forget you need to also have some fun

the mistake you nearly made is in the past you were vunerable you stopped that speaks volumes

peer preasure sometimes is so much,first decide if you want to repair friedship with this friend if thats what you want but dont burn your self out over it, this time next year you will be a differant person your results will be out and you will be thinking about your future

good luck
and you know you can and post here

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you will find new friends, not always easy, but you can do it. and you made the right decision to break it off with the boy who was pressuring you to have sex when you weren't ready. if he truly cared about you he would have been willing to wait till you were ready. you are young, but it sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders. take care of you, and if you have to sit by yourself, it will let you concentrate more on your school work. of all the times in my life that i would not go back and re-live, the teen years were the worst. your body is changing and your mind is maturing and all is happening so fast that sometimes you just need to stop the world and get off for a few minutes. but this too shall pass, and you are almost done with school. good luck.

lost