[girlcharm18]

ok so today I have been kinda moping around and I think its cause its gloomy but I keep having my thoughts which are bugging me more then causing the usual panic and fear which is making me kinda worry! so its kinda like im panicing about not panicing so I have been on the internet since 7am looking up to make sure im ok cause I am thinking well I must want to do this im having these thoughts with out panicing I just juat getting stupid thoug like do it or somethings along that line! but I just worry cause why am I not anxious then I start thinking back to why don't I worry and freak about about other stuff like I used to so it goes in a circle!

[gimmeice]

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It sounds like anxiety at work, you don't always have to have panic attacks to have anxiety problems. You say you are getting stupid thoughts, if those are dangerous thoughts then if you are concerned about your safety I suggest you seek help immediately, like calling your T or going to the local ER.

[girlcharm18]

see now im panicing from that I feel its just an ocd

[girlcharm18]

im not worried im gonna do anything its just these thoughts bug me cause im not the type of person do do stupid things like that not me at all im not a angry person or a violent person that gets stupid thoughts that usally would cause me panic but im not panicing like usal until now when u told me I should go to the er then I got a panic attck cause now I feel well there must be something wrong with me so maybe todays not such a good day

[thelostone]

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as long as you are safe and your kids are safe just take the fact that the anxiety is not so bad today as a blessing. you have been talking to people about your problems and that in itself can help to relieve anxiety. plus, you recognized a trigger for your anxiety the other day didn't you? that can help too.

if you are worried about your or your kid's safety then seek help immediately though.

lost

[Lenny]

When the world seeks to overwhelm us try to keep this one thought running in the background..

I will keep my head where my feet are..

IMHO.

Lenny

[Lenny]

When the world works on overwhelming me I try to keep this thought running in the background..

I will keep my head where my feet are...

IMHO.

Lenny

[girlcharm18]

yeah I know what triggers it I just hate this I wanna be normal I wish I had fears about contamination again it went from that to fears of the plauge mrsa having a tumor heart diease u name it now it like I have a fear of being one of those monster moms and being a phyco which so isn't my nature at all!! sometimes I just brake down and cry cause I don't understand why im thinking these thoughts when I don't want to I don't wanna be that person!!*crying*

[Michah]

Originally Posted by girlcharm18

ok so today I have been kinda moping around and I think its cause its gloomy but I keep having my thoughts which are bugging me more then causing the usual panic and fear which is making me kinda worry! so its kinda like im panicing about not panicing so I have been on the internet since 7am looking up to make sure im ok cause I am thinking well I must want to do this im having these thoughts with out panicing I just juat getting stupid thoug like do it or somethings along that line! but I just worry cause why am I not anxious then I start thinking back to why don't I worry and freak about about other stuff like I used to so it goes in a circle!

Anxiety is a bit like that. Self perpetuating. I have agoraphobia and generalised anxiety disorder as well as other stuff. I receive cognitive behavioral therapy from my wonderful psychologist and mindfulness helps me. Concentrating, or try to, on physical and other sensations relating to eating or housework and other tasks. If you start to think of other things, you acknowledge the thought and gently push it away and return your mind to the task. It is very difficult to do but it can calm the mind. It takes alot of practice. There is no point telling yourself not to panic. Sometimes I let the anxiety take over and not try to fight it. It will fight itself out. Do you have diazepam for the really bad times? I really feel for you. There is nothing as frightening as panic or anxiety. It is a formidable foe.

[girlcharm18]

I take nothing for anxiety I was taking something that was for heart problems and anxiety but I started to fear about the side effects I pretty much handle my anxiety and panic by myself and my friends help me as well and reading seems to help gaining knowledge about this has help a lot! but I notice everytime I feel anxious or get a spike I check and spend half the day checking my symptoms its a quick fix I should say to reasure myself im gonna be ok! or I meditate which helps a lot! breathing techniques help to! my boyfriends like into self realization and meditatation and sprital healing its kinda complecated to exsplain lol but it seems to be helping