[cantstopcrying]

It's stupid I know, but since I haven't been sleeping, I am so tired but now I'm scared to even try to sleep! Not scared like terried scared, more like worried or anxious. Ok, I was crying about it on the way home. I just hate waking up and not being able to go back to sleep and now that's all that's on my mind. Dumb, I know.

[anxietygirl]

Originally Posted by cantstopcrying

It's stupid I know, but since I haven't been sleeping, I am so tired but now I'm scared to even try to sleep! Not scared like terried scared, more like worried or anxious. Ok, I was crying about it on the way home. I just hate waking up and not being able to go back to sleep and now that's all that's on my mind. Dumb, I know.

No, that is not dumb. I have the same problem. It just hit me out of nowhere and it is pure hell because you are exhausted and you just want to relax and go to sleep. I even started to resent people around me that could sleep. I tried Benadryl and that just made me drugged and extremely anxious. Finally I went to my doctor and he put me on klonopin and lexapro, but now he wants me to just take the lexapro. I tried that and it doesnt work so I am going to beg him to help me and let me take the klonopin because if I dont sleep I cant function at all, not one bit and the more sleep I miss, the more anxious I become. I even feel dissociated from everything when I miss sleep. Its like I hear people talking around me but I feel removed from it all. Does that make sense? That is what sleep deprivation does to me. I would go to your doctor so you can get some relief. There is no reason to suffer. I hope you get some sleep tonight.

[cantstopcrying]

Thank you so much for validating that I'm not the only one. I totally know what you mean about not really here when you are sleep deprived. I have some lunesta but i hate taking it--I never wake up refreshed. I used to get like this when I'd have nightmares, but nightmares now. ***sigh**** need sleep but can't bring myself to do it....theres nothing to be scared or woory of.

[thunderbear]

Your not the only one Cantstopcrying. It sucks don't it? I hope it gets better

[Junerain]

I feel removed from many things when I cannot sleep, and that is tonight.

[cantstopcrying]

Well, I finally fell asleep around midnight and woke up promptly at 2:58. Cried out of total frustration and lack of sleep and then, since my brain was already going down that path, I cried because of mistakes I have made in the past, because I'm lonely, because I'm worried....I'm sure I probably even cried because my legs need shaved! (ok, not that reason, but just showing I was crying for reasons that don't even make sense). Didn't get back to sleep this time before the alarm goes off. Friday the girls are going to a sleep over, I may take something early and go to bed, as much as I don't want to. When I do all the things you are supposed to do--or not do all the things you aren't supposed to, it's so very frustrating.

[romanjames2004]

I know what your going through. I havn't really gotten much sleep latley either lol. (If you read the last few posts by me). I hate that feeling. Try taking some melatonin or some non hurtful sleep aide. I usually try to do it naturally but sometimes it never woorks.

[Sannah]

I'm sorry CSC , sounds like you have a lot on your mind which is probably keeping your brain too alert to sleep? Can you do some kind of ritual where you put all your worries away in a box or something before you go to sleep? (hot bath and relaxation exercises, meditation or yoga part of the routine too?)

[cantstopcrying]

Ya know, I've tried that; I had made a box for Kaity when she was younger--Kaity's Stress-less box--and it had two parts to it. One had calming things, pictures and stones and music; the other part was empty. She was to use the calming things when she got upset, so had less stress. The other side she was to put all her worries in at night. So I have tried the same thing, only in my mind. I list my worries and picture putting them in a box, closing the lid and closing my eyes. Then I lay there. Just lay there. And lay there. I don't know what I did to irritate the sand man---I tried baking him cookies, singing his favorite song, everything! He just won't come back--at night. I'm so tired right now it doesn't feel like it's my fingers typing!!!

[Sannah]

Do you do any relaxation stuff like I mentioned? When I was at the height of my anxiety when I was getting my Masters I walked across campus with headphones listening to a subliminal anxiety tape. It really helped plus I did yoga and relaxation exercises. It sounds like the box worked, though. You weren't worrying. Maybe you need to keep trying it.