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I have been with my boyfriend for three years now. Lately, I have this weird feeling when thinking about speaking to another male. I wasn't like this untill recently...Although I have always been a little shy around guys, its never gotten to the point of not talking to them at all. I don't mind talking to guys on forums or through emails, but when it comes to speaking face-to-face, or on the phone I feel akward. When I was younger (12 or 13 years old), I was touched very inapproprietly by a man...It was a very traumatic time in my life, and it haunts me even to this day. I used to have friends that were guys up untill recently-I just stopped talking to them as much as I used to. I feel like I am betraying my boyfriend even though Im just speaking. It feels as though there is a voice in my head saying things such as "Since your talking to him, you must like him.", "Your a dirty, little w****." "Your disgusting." The list can go on and on...I know that the voices are not true, but sometimes they really get to me...Can someone please give me a helping hand of advice on how to ignore these unwanted thoughts? Personal stories are welcome!
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I think that you should talk to your bf about this. I think that maybe you think this is bothering your bf.
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Reina, there is no ignoring them. There is only figuring them out and understanding them. You have these thoughts in your head because of what happened to you.
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I have spoken to my boyfriend about these problems...He doesn't really like the idea of me talking to other guys, but he doesn't mind it. I just personally feel like if I talk to a male, then I am somehow cheating on my boyfriend.
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Dash out, dash out From your far too sad destiny You’re not the flower of hell At such a place Don’t bloom, don’t bloom You mustn’t get caught The pieces of time flutter about ... -When The Higurashi Cry |
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can you give a better description, overall... this relationship with your boyfriend? Why doesnt he like the idea of you talking to ther guys?
I used to study in a religious school only for girls - and used to be shy around men myself. but i agree that all that happened to you...may have some weight. that being said i compeltely agree with Sannah - i don`t think exlpaining to your bf about it will do any good. you see- people never know what EXACTLY is going on inside us, your boyfriend is not objective. ususally what happenes when we are open to people about our mental issues and those people are....not therapists or havent been through simmilar things, and are not extemely deep and wise...i am not saying anything bad about your boyfriend. I just see from your post he didnt do any good (maybe not bad either...but still) Have you ever tried therapy to get over your traumatic past? accordng to what you say - you havent gotten over it yet. i know that time does it, but sometimes we need help with it (well, with traumatic stuff - almost most of the time) |
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Im sorry this got so long...I just let my feeling flow out as I was typing. Thank you all so much for you wonderful help and advice! I really appreciate it!
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I see.
I think that...we all tell small lies....to make people like us. I don`t know how you feel about it - but it seems to me that if we realize that we are good enough as we are we don`t need to tell any lies. The truth is enough.Is good as it is. But i personally dont think its that bad. like: what the heck, are you telling me that if he knew you WERE kissed b4 and had boyfriends, he wouldnt go out with you?! I think this is no big deal, i understand that for both of you it is. i think that if you, with Gods help - will stay together for more years - you will look back and laugh and this. i know now it hurts and all that. i understand much better what you are talking about right now. you cheated once and now you dont want to cheat second time. it all reminds you. anyways you got your "punishment" by being called names etc... so - now - does he forgive you? if he really loves you i think he will. ![]() Good you are in therapy. good luck with it ![]() |
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Thank you so much for all your help and advice! I really appreciate it! ![]()
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![]() I suspect you have a little obsession with being a better person and more mature?. you always mention it. I think that you should let everything be as it is. Its very sweet and romantic to grow up together. how old are you? |
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What do you call maturity? What does it mean to you? If you are mature you are - ?
I think that when you finally become mature or older you can regret that you didnt let yourself do those things, and tried or attempted to be "more" than you are. If you seek for maturity now - are you sure you dont ignore the good you have inside right now? what is there missing, that you need to try and be? what is it in YOU thats not good enough? again - this is just something i experience - so of course - take it...only if thi rings true with you When you try to "be better" - and i am talking from my won experience - you are trying hard to be..and not being natural. and a natural place is something...well...it has to do A LOT with maturity = The Truth of who you really are. without trying to be anything. being whole with THAT excepting and loving THAT = is maturity. from this place you can love otheres. fear blame....etc...acting out of trying to be mature...because you are afraid that you will regret it later..you know...life fully and truelly...thats it. I am 24 and believe me - i am still having more moments of maturity and many moments that prove i am far from that! ![]() |
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Thank you so much for all you wonderful advice!
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Dash out, dash out From your far too sad destiny You’re not the flower of hell At such a place Don’t bloom, don’t bloom You mustn’t get caught The pieces of time flutter about ... -When The Higurashi Cry |
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![]() if you are alone, and say it out lound - what will happen? If you say it to your theraposits what will happen? The whole point is BELIEVEING this thought is true. I know because untill yesterday night i unconciously beleived in a thought....it has been there for about 4 years...and first of all i needed t orealize that THIS BELIEF is all that held me back from seeing reality....from livign life..divine as it is. You never actually betrayd your boyfriend. You just told him something, when you were really yong and wanted to lok "better" - ( you see why i am so against it overall) - but you didnt do anything bad to him. Sooner or later i beieve you will let it sink in. ita a process. ![]() ![]() |
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Your right ladymacabethadmunsen! Thank you so much for all your help! Bad thoughts are going to come whether we like it or not. We just have to learn how to deal with them in the best way we can. Thoughts are just 'thoughts',nothing more. My medicine has slowed down my racing thoughts alot, compared to how I was before I was on them. Even though my medicine is helping me, I still need to find ways to learn how to deal with these thoughts when they do come. Thank you, ladymacabethadmunsen!
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