Nasty Rant trigger

I am so sick of everything and I am angry about everything. I hate the cold freezing rain. I hate not having a car, a bed or a computer . I hate not having my meds because they are sitting in my mailbox and I do not have my mailbox key becausd my manager has not dropped it off as promised. I am dizzy have a headache and I am freezing. No heat can make me warm. There are shocks going off in my brain. My nex apartments promised to to come by tomorrow and bring me the mail key but they said that yesterday too. What if they don't again? This feels like torture. Sound hurts, light hurts. I can't stop drinking water. I can't sleep. my whole body hurts from sleeping on the wood floor. I have a voucher in my mailbox for a new bed that can be delivered the sane day as long as I have the voucher in my hand. I am tired of reading about abuse in threads that have no trigger warning and are not even in the abuse forum. They are all over this board and there are too many to report. I hate everything. Tired of throwing up.

I am sorry your having a horrible day, a lot of us are in the cold snowy north, where the sun doesn't shine for weeks at a time, we feel your pain. As far as your mailbox key, I would contact the post office for your city and see what they can do. They might send someone out to open your box right away. Then, call the manager and let them know you have contacted the post office, they might be violating the law by preventing you from getting your mail. As far as people posting in the wrong catagory well, we have all been guilty of that. This is just a forum for support, we are all in our own pain and we are not perfect. We all love and support you. You are a great asset to this forum and I know all of us thank you for your many kind words of support and strength. Your allowed to have a bad day. Take some deep breaths and get a cup of calming tea. Tomorrow will better for all of us...

I did not think anything could help me but your post did a little. I actually feel ashamed about just coming on here and ranting. The depressed part of me also thinks that since I am responding that people on here will see that I responded and that I will not get anymore support. I think I have finally gone over the edge because Murphy's Law seems pretty consistent today. I feel like I want to isolate until I get my meds and my bed. I feel mean and angry and selfish. Oh I do not know. Everything seems so out of control.

Do not feel ashamed, please. We are here to support each other. This is a place that you can vent, hopefully, without judgement. It is sometimes hard to deal with things when they don't go our way or in our timeframe. Nucking, you aren't giving yourself much credit. You can get past this. Try to relax and maybe get some sleep so you have the energy to make it happen tomorrow.

I am going to give it my best shot. Thanks. Wish I had something to give back.

Goodgirl is right, I am sure they cannot legally deny access to your mail, regardless of what their excuse is. And sleeping on the floor is an awful nightmare. If I were going through that without my meds, well, I'd be more messed up than I am now. I am really sorry this is going on. Do as suggested and call the post office. Like I said, there is no way your apartment mngr can keep you from your mail!

I do think that fits under the category "tampering with federal mail" which is a crime. This need s to be pointed out and as others have already said, it needs to be done as of yesterday. I think it is completely justified to set a 24 hour deadline on that and hold to it. You need those meds, and there are consequences to not following through on one's jobs. Hang in ther , Nucking Futz. And what's this with the bed? HUGGSS

I got my mailbox key. She held it until I gave the manager the letter from my pdoc stating my cats were part of my therapy so I would not have to pay a deposit of $100. Man, all those symtoms sucked. I almost barfed on the landlady! Guess she did not take the words "medication withdrawl side effects, dizzy, sick, emergency" seriously! She wanted to stay and meet Cymbalta and Jade (they knew I was in distress and were having none of her). Guess they really do look out for me like pdoc says. And all I wanted to do was get my hands on my meds. I got my meds a little over an hour ago. Brain shocks are still there but I am no longer dizzy, hurling, and my headache is fading! Oh, and about the bed...got a used couch about 6 months ago. Turns out it had bed bugs. They infested all my couches and my bed. I had a 400 dollar treatment to get rid of them that did not work. I had to pay my old apartments that money because I caused the infestation by getting that couch. When they know you are poor, they break laws.

Oh geeze, that's awful about the bedbugs! Yikes! I cannot believe they made you pay for the infestation, didn't you live in housing that was part of a government program? Sorry you got taken like that!

Now go get your new bed! You need some nice sleep.

Yeah it was housing but the landlady said anything other than normal wear and tear to the unit would have to be paid by me. My brother is checking into this with his Texas real estate atty buddy as we speak.

NOW I remember the bed bugs! Yipes indeed! I forgot all that in the ensuing mess with the homeless lady, the psycho and the crack addict and all else that was happening just then. I can't believe they were holding the key for that!!! I am pretty darned sure that was not really clean dealing! GRRRRRRRRRR Too bad your cats didn't sharpen their claws on her hose.

Yeah, last year had a lot of chaos and mayhem in it. Hoping there will not be too much this year. But I sure did learn a lot including how to avoid these types of situations and people.

Being able to learn from it is worth so much. Well, I'm glad the meds situation got better, at least. What a mess! Huggs to you!

Yes, thank you. Still spacey but all the other withdrawl stuff is gone. Never been off my meds all at once. Even when my meds were taken out of my luggage, I still had a few antidepressants left so it was not as bad as this. Thanks for asking.

{{{{{NF}}}}}}} Here's hoping things settle down for you and work out. Thinking of you.

Mary Alice

Thank you so much. I love your name Mary Alice. It is so pretty.

NF, I hope you are doing better today.

{{{{{{Nucking}}}}}}} You just made my day better. Thank you.

Mary Alice

Your welcome!

Awful, Awful what they did to you. I'm glad you finally got your meds and your bed. I hope you get many nights of good Zzzzz's in it. And thank you for all your helpful posts on this forum.
JourneyUpward

Thanks. Hope I help. One never knows everything but I sure act like I do don't I? Seriously though, we can never know what being a part of this board does. Once in a while I Will think did we save a life today, help ease a broken heart, dry a tear, make somebody ROTFLTHO? teach somebody something, learn more about ourselves and eachother? The world is our classroom for we are it's students as well as it's teachers.