new meds.........very depressed

de-cluttering? i've been really doing something to keep my bed straight enough, so i can crawl back in it. i am having these debilitating headaches. i know it's the meds. i have a good day and then wham! and the emotional rape concerning my property is keeping me so upset that nothing works very well..

Yes, yes, yes, I know. Clutter is the last thing on your mind. I was saying that I've done the same thing. I was doing so well and then BAM it overtook me and the house again. Depression helps cause clutter, clutter causes more depression, viscious cycle.

i'm running my errands now........p

Pat,

I too am sorry i was oblivious to your depression and pain. I get so lost in myself . I can identlify with you in that, even at my lowest I try to offer support to others to get me out of my own head. I certainly can relate.

I hope your meds are evening out. I know how difficult that can be. Hang in there and as if you didnt already know, we are here for ya.

Love,

Jen

My heart goes out to you for feeling so depressed. I know it is of no comfort right now but hopefully the meds will kick in soon. Try and hang in there until they do. Dust never killed anyone and maybe you can do just enough to get the dryer going again. If not don't worry you don't know him anyway nor will probably see him again. Keep posting if it makes you feel better. I am here for you if I can do anything.

thanks so much. i am somewhat better. having physical side effects from the med changes. trying to work those out. still a bit depressed. want to sleep a lot. not very interested in the outside world yet. xoxo pat

(((((Pat))))) I'm back on the med merry-go-round myself after my AD (Effexor XR) suddenly fizzled, as has my anti-anxiety med. You have my deepest sympathy. These sorts of situations are always bloody awful. There's just no relief. Strewth! I hate sodding med changes. Cheshire Cat

cat, what to do, what to do?

I really wish I had the answer, luv, as I'm on a wobbly tightrope myself emotionally. I keep hoping that somehow the chemicals will somehow right themselves and this depressive episode will pass. But it's so good to have people here to talk to about it. Ta. Cheshire Cat

I'm waiting to get my meds changed or adjusted too. Mostly I think I need multiple kicks in the butt to get me dealing with the past and present, and no drug is going to do that for me. But can't it at least keep me from going up and down repeatedly in the same day? If I'm going to have the downs, can't I at least have the ups too, instead of just the "not so bads"?

Sorry, I hijacked.

((((((((((((((((pat)))))))))))))))))) hugging you thru this and hoping the time is short for you to feel better.

kd

i just finished a phone conversation with my sister and she marveled at how different i sound, from last week. monday i started thinking about making jewelry or something else creative. i am scared to say it's over......but for now, i think it is.

i could NOT have gotten through this without all of the loving support that you all have given me. it was hell and you dragged me through it, inch by inch. thanks so much......love, pat

Oh, I hear you, took awhile before I finally hit on a med. with pdoc's urging to give it a try. Though many have reactions to it, well everyone can't always get lucky with the same meds., sort of like a custom made thing, trial and error. Lamictal has been the best for me so far, it's about 3 yrs. or close, since I've been on it.
Maybe the Wellbutrin is making you feel tired? Years ago when I was on it, it just made me so tired and didn't address my depression, so my gp tried several things, Prozac,Zoloft,Effexor, and none of them targeted my problem. I was successful with Celexa, but it petered out after a year and a half, long story.
Try to be patient, though frustrating, some meds take a few weeks before you notice any change. But please call your doc, tell him or her exactly how you are feeling, close communications, if possible, are necessary.
I wish you luck with this. We are here for you, so feel free to talk about stuff.
Take care now,
DE

((((((((((( fayerody ))))))))))))))

Pat, I'm so glad to see that you are starting to feel better. It is never easy going through a med change. I'm also coming off Depakote and moving to Lamictal. Just keep doing what you are doing....taking one day at a time. And remember that there are people who care about you and will be here whenever you need us.

i'm doing better. i am spray painting a wicker chair from dull sage green to vibrant purple. wow! i would not have considered picking up the paint earlier!

Whooo hoooo!! Pat's back.

Pat, I know it's been a while since I've been able to offer my support to you.

I realize that this thread began a while ago and may now no be a mute point...but on that note...I still wish to offer you what I have to give just because you hold a special place in my heart and have thought of you a million times in my absence from bp.
First of all, you're one of the strongest women I've ever had the pleasure to come in contact with you. You are acutely aware of where you're at and what's happening both inside you and the outward symptions that display themselves as a result of your cycles.
In my opinion your efforts to accomplish those things that you want done is excellent therapy. Doing what needs to be done inspite of our illness is monumental, it helps us to get back to where we need to be. And there's nothing like a good cleaning to give us the immediate gratification we as bp's so desperately desire.
Changes in meds can be a difficult obstacle to overcome. It it's now working, don't be afraid to speak up up to pdoc and say so after you've given ample oppurtunity to attemp to do its job.

I'm sure I'm not telling you anything you don't already know...but sometimes we need to hear it from an outside source as a reminder of the help we need, the progress we've made and the strength it takes to reach to others. Pat, you're a woman of great respect for me. I read what you write with hyper attention. Even though it's been a while, it still pains me to hear about your pain, your difficulties and the idea of you lieing in your bed, unable to get up and function. This is extreme for you. But as always, your inner-strength, your brilliant mind and intestinal fortitude always prevails.

God, I've missed you so much my freind. Please keep in touch with me. I miss your witty reparte. Don't deprive me for too long or I'll have to come drag it out of you, LOL.
You're an outstanding human-being and valuable resource to this site.
Keep us posted.
Love,
TgrsPurr, xo

thank you, tigergirl.....this past week just about has me under the bed, but i'm determined to get it on. i'm so glad that you're back. i've missed you a lot.

i get the gas hooked up tomorrow here and that is exciting. it is starting to get cold here.

my oldest is still grieving over my SIL going to Iraq. but, we're getting there. the austin situation is grieving me, but we'll make it work........
xoxoxo pat

hey pat, i'm sorry you're so down, but it's nice to see you on here again

keep your chin up, times will change xx

thanks, dog. i'm definitely having my troubles. the class is eating my lunch....it's so heavy on anatomy and pysciology (sp) and i wasn't expecting that. so, i'm heavy duting studying and shaking my head. i get new glasses next week and it will be helpful to be able to read the text.