Cant stop crying

I really can't stop crying... been crying for the 3 hours.

I have had a GREAT!!!! day out with a friend we went to another city in Scotland to visit a friend who has given birth. My friend who has given birth... her Husband has depression and hasn't been doing too good... so she asked if I could talk with him. We spoke and he and I both said GP knows best and that he is off work at the mo... but its good as it means he is spending his time with his family.

Anyways we left my city at 830am and came back to my city at 530pm. LONG GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!

At night my Dad started on me as did my Sister... they started shouting and moaning at me. I was made to feel everything is my fault. I was meant to be going out with them as a family and decided to stay home as I really can't be bothered playing "happy families" when they have made me go into a flood of tears... they don't know I am crying though been in my room in my duvet all night with no lights on.

I really got so angry tonight and trashed my room... I haven't done this in years. I wanted to S/H but I refrained myself from doing so but I really wanna hurt myself or something. I am a lot calmer now as I write this but was RAGING earlier.

My friend who I was out with today said maybe I have done too much today and its took it's toll... I barely did anything... It took over an hour to get to our destination and an hour back to my city via train. I bused it from town to my house... THAT IS IT!!!!!!!!! NOTHING MAJOR TODAY!!!!!! My friend has just said she thought something was up with me as I was overly cheery today??!!?

Last night I was out with another friend and she was upset as she is going through personal issues and that was hard to see her so upset and "helpless" in some sense. I hope she is ok though, I don't know though

I have been crying for weeks and been ignoring it. I know my work situation is playing havoc on my nerves and anxieties.... I really dont want to go back to work on Monday. DREADING IT COMES MORE TO MIND.

Worried I muck up again... I thought the crying was a blip and that I was doing ok and surviving.... Lack of sleep is maybe not helping. Tonight my body feels dead.... really exhausted and lifeless.

What is wrong with me?
Is this normal?
When will it get better?

Any words of encouragement would be great.... kinda needing something

a good nights sleep is what you need.
I'm here for you to talk to, like you have been there for me!
Seeing people upset is a definite trigger, holding things up for other people, stops you holding thing up for yourself, so while you were being strong for them, it probably stayed bottled in you till you got home, which i think shows strength.
And being quite sensitive to people shouting at you and making digs at you is completely normal, dads and sisters shouting at anyone would upset them.
I think its a case of being over tired hence making you over emotional.
Tomorrows a new day, get a good nights sleep, wake up have a refreshing shower and try and start the day with a smile, its worth a go!
i'm here! x

Thanks Widget,

I feel wired up.... not so much buzzing but wired.... angry.... worries.... anxious

Thanks.... I really thought I was doing good though so thats why I said I would speak to my mate's Husband... my other friend who is having personal problems this has been on going... Long story and its a hard story too

I have plans tomorrow so will hopefully be a good day.... just really unsure at the moment

wiget is right, sleep makes those overwraught emotions so much better. try to do some deep breaths, or take your self to a quiet happy place. find ways to soothe yourself, maybe music or quiet or being outside or curling up in a ball. Whatever works. At the moment it doesn't matter why, deal with that when you are feeling better - which you will, this will pass.

Thanks Black Pup,

Think I will go to bed soon not yet though... still a bit too wired to sleep... will put my sleep hypnosis cd on see if that works.

I think I am gonna call and see if I can see my GP this week... I am seeing her on Thursday next week though? I kinda feel like afraud going to see her as she has more serious patients to see

Your problems are just as valid and more serious than all those people coming in with the flu and other physical maladies... You need her help and een if you don't believe it, you deserve her help.

Thank You BlackPup....

I always feel like a fraud when I go to see her no idea why... sometimes I dont want to go as I feel I am taking up someone else who deserves her attention.... So I go without

I really need to take my med now... but I really want to take 2 tablets instead of just 1 I know I cant take 2 as that will be stupid... but really want to

Some self soothing may work. Hot tea, a warm bath, relaxing music. I agree that sleep may be what you need. When I don't sleep I feel horrble. Medication can help too.

Hey ayana95,

Have tried all the above on your post...

hate tea but drank calimile(sp) tea- didnt work
baths and showers- didnt work
relaxing music- kinda works
no tv/stimulants after 6pm- didnt work
herbal remedies- didnt work
sleeping tablets- didnt work
alcohol- doesnt work
dvds/tv- kinda works

Just dont know anymore.... I have stopped crying but still have that urge to cry. Sitting watchign a DVD but completely WIDE AWAKE its 2am now up in like 5 hours

(((((((((((((((Laura)))))))))))))))) Just wanted to leave you a hug and say I really hope you get some sleep

Thanks Sundog... its 2:34am so not doing good so far... STILL WIDE AWAKE!!!!!!!

Was awake til 5am I am kinda up, its just before 10am. Called GPs at 930am no apps til next wk. Said to call back and see if there is any cancellations. Wat do I do. My feeling at the mo anxieties from the pit of my stomach

Ugh...I know you are going to have a rough day since you didn't sleep and I am soooo sorry about that. Have you tried melatonin? I have tried up to 10mg of melatonin and if has helped me sleep and fast - maybe you could get some and try it tonight.

Hey LaraLynn,

Despite hardly any sleep feel ok today. Still teary had to keep holding back the tears today. Managed to get a GP app for tomorrow afternoon. I cant find melatonin anywhere. So wil ask GP tomorrow

Get Ativan ! Your emotions will be wonky without proper sleep- nevermind bipolar.

In the meantime, can you look at happy or sad movies? Or sad music? It's cathartic- it pulls the bad emotions out to cry with sad music or movies.

Today I have cried at my Great Aunt's house, cried at a pantomine I went to see at night and cried when I got home and was talking to my Mum

My Mum said I need to go back to work... no question there told me I am only working Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday then I am off until Sunday(Boxing Day).

I am due to see GP on Thursday so my Mum said I can wait until then and if I need to go off sick then to go off sick then. My Mum also said that I am making myself ill as I am worrying about Monday morning at work. I just don't know what else to do. How can I stop these thoughts all negative btw!!