[kj44]

Hey everyone, I've been on meds for 2 months.
Celexa and Trazodone.
My anxiety is under control, my blood pressure is normal, (always been very high!!) My migraines are minimal.
I now feel like I am a lazy, uncaring, unmotivated person.
I haven't cut myself since I was 25, now 44. I want to very badly.
If this is the real me, I hate me! I have never in my life been lazy. I have never took meds prescribed regularly either. I was in a very, very bad place a couple months ago, maybe like a zombie? Now, I really see no reason for the day to day, is this me??? Can anyone help? Any suggestions? I want to see dr. again, but for some reason, my insurance hasn't paid them yet, although I am covered 70/30. I am very, very, angry also, thanks for any suggestions!

[Shadowghost]

kj, maybe the laziness and un-motivation are side-effects of the medication you're taking. I'd talk to your doctor about this. Maybe there are other medications that'll prove to be better suited to you. It can often take a long time before you find the right combination of meds that work best for you. With me it took more than three years. For some people it takes longer than for others, and what works for one person won't necessarily work for another. Hang in there, you'll find what works best for you. It can be pretty rough, and frustrating, but it'll happen. It might not take you very long at all, though. Everyone's different. Just hang in there, and things will sort themselves out.

[blueoctober]

kj44 my experience was prior to being diagnosed I had been in a very bad place (suicidal, hospitalized etc.). I think the more severe the episode the longer it takes to recover from it. I wouldn't expect someone who was recently diagnosed with cancer to "snap" back to their normal self within 2 months, so it's strange how we expect that with a mental illness. Give the meds time, but definitely get on your insurance, so you can have a follow-up appointment. Finding the right med combo for some can take time (it did for me), but what can help you become an informed patient and become a partner with your pdoc is educate yourself on the illness, track your mood and note external triggers etc.

There are many other things that you can do to help manager the illness. For me it includes seeing a therapist, eating regularly and healthy, exercising, keeping to a routine, taking supplements etc. Hope that helps.

[kj44]

Originally Posted by blueoctober

kj44 my experience was prior to being diagnosed I had been in a very bad place (suicidal, hospitalized etc.). I think the more severe the episode the longer it takes to recover from it. I wouldn't expect someone who was recently diagnosed with cancer to "snap" back to their normal self within 2 months, so it's strange how we expect that with a mental illness. Give the meds time, but definitely get on your insurance, so you can have a follow-up appointment. Finding the right med combo for some can take time (it did for me), but what can help you become an informed patient and become a partner with your pdoc is educate yourself on the illness, track your mood and note external triggers etc.

There are many other things that you can do to help manager the illness. For me it includes seeing a therapist, eating regularly and healthy, exercising, keeping to a routine, taking supplements etc. Hope that helps.

I'm sure your right about recovery time, thanks, to all for letting me vent!
Just so darn tired, and feel as if I am missing life, very confused, that's for sure!

[blueoctober]

Originally Posted by kj44

Just so darn tired, and feel as if I am missing life, very confused, that's for sure!

I felt the same way. I had been undiagnosed for so many years that when I was initially diagnosed I had to get to know who the real Beth was. I had thought the hypomania and moodiness was me, but it wasn't, that was the bipolar. It did get better, but it takes time (I was diagnosed in 2007).

[kj44]

[quote=blueoctober;1632233]I felt the same way. I had been undiagnosed for so many years that when I was initially diagnosed I had to get to know who the real Beth was. I had thought the hypomania and moodiness was me, but it wasn't, that was the bipolar. It did get better, but it takes time (I was diagnosed in 2007).[/quote

Wow,thanks for that.

[chiggins814]

i would call the insurance company. they are real fers sometimes. ive had to call mine for weeks before. its was strange. but im sure that if you just call up and explain your situation they might have a good reason for not paying yet. just call them and it will be alright. everything works out for the good.

I called my insurance regarding a claim they hadn't paid and the reason was that they were waiting to see if I had any other policies. They paid right away after I called.

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by kj44

Hey everyone, I've been on meds for 2 months.
Celexa and Trazodone.
My anxiety is under control, my blood pressure is normal, (always been very high!!) My migraines are minimal.
I now feel like I am a lazy, uncaring, unmotivated person.
I haven't cut myself since I was 25, now 44. I want to very badly.
If this is the real me, I hate me! I have never in my life been lazy. I have never took meds prescribed regularly either. I was in a very, very bad place a couple months ago, maybe like a zombie? Now, I really see no reason for the day to day, is this me??? Can anyone help? Any suggestions? I want to see dr. again, but for some reason, my insurance hasn't paid them yet, although I am covered 70/30. I am very, very, angry also, thanks for any suggestions!

I agree the lazyiness is maybe a side effect from one of the meds.Cause with my zoloft and gabapentin and ritalin they make me very sleepy and tired and I sleep all day because of it .I want me back where I had lots of energy cause now Iam in school and need to be awake so I want get In wreaked on the road .Just look up your meds on the internet and see if it causes your lazyness.Hugs

[Falling]

I have watched my son experience the same s/e as you when it comes to wanting to do something but the energy just isn't there.... is this a s/e of the meds or of the illness or both? I guess one way to decide is to ask yourself can I get up and move or do I choose to sit idle and wait... Every now and then we all need a push..an outside person in our lives that provides that external motivation that we are lacking at different times in our lives. Just because the energy has slipped doens't mean that we can't get moving just a little and that moving may need to come from someone other than ourselves... Do you have a support person that can help you get started??? I would also caution that even the smallest step is a victory...so just thinking about it and writing about it is an excellent beginning right!
I have become my son's champion motivator and even when he says no I don't think so, I compromise with him to do something other than nothing and in the end he is happier that he did something to make a slight change.... And by the way- if the bills are not getting paid by the insurance or you have a deliquent co-pay issue- I would contact a case manager at your insurance company to obtain assistance. All insurance companies have case managers and depending on your type of insurance denial of care because of a bill could be consider illegal (if you have MA)...Reach out to them and get back to your doc...a slight change in your meds could be made and make for better roads ahead