Mania .... Hypo Mania

haha me too...after the car incident...i've been really good..who knew a 40,000 vehicle even when you have no license could bring so much happiness..lol

There has been alot of really great things said about abilify. It doesnt make you a zombie like seroquel...which i had also been on ...and absolutly despised. It also doesn't normally cause weight gain if that's an issue for you...and it just kinda boosts your anti depressant and stabilizes the extrem of moods. Like i said i use it as a PRN..and it actually works for me...i hope it will work for you too if you choose to give it a try.

I cannot stand seroquel, i couldnt eat, couldnt wake up for more than a few hours, couldnt make it up the stairs in one go, was sick, missed nearly a week of my life!! Basically couldnt function. my pdoc is really for it though, because otherwise i barely sleep, i'm rarely depressed in the normal way, i'm either Manic, hypo manic (as i've now realised) normal, or Manically Depressed, at my worst, i'm still right up there but suicidal. Thats why he thinks its the best drug for me.
But i read about abilify and the reviews and everything and it sounds like it would be right for me.
Before i went on seroquel i had a bad feeling about it, i dont have that about, that in itself probably means it will work better if i feel more positive about it.
What dosage of citalopram are you on may i ask? i was on 20mg, for a week then 30mg, then 40mg then 80mg for the remaining 6 months. It didnt stop my anxiety thought, i had to have Buspirone for that, thinking about it actually i might go back on Buspirone.

i started on 20mg..i am now up to 30mg...but i am only on day 6 or so of getting back on meds...since for the third time since i started i was "all better" and pretty sure i "was no longer bi-polar"...so right this second i'm on 20mg...got to ride that out till i feel down then up it back to 30mg. I realize it's a very small dose..but...i REALLY react to meds..i am really sensitive to them....like for example..i took HALF of a 25mg tablet of seroquall and got knocked out for 16 hours...before that i took 0.5mg of ativan and had hallucinations and my abilify is 2mg doses...so..while 30mg sounds like a small amount...for my body it's just the same as being on like 60mg..you know what i mean?

Yh i know what you mean. i'm the same, i only need to take one paracetemol to get rid of a head ache.
They put me on 300mg of seroquel then upped it to 600 the next day, i knew it was way too much, but i dont know why no one else sees it.
They put me on 10mg of prozac and i ended up in hospital with suicidal mania!!
But i didnt react like that to citalopram, i didnt get any affects really until i went to 80mg.

see that shocks me....seeing a dosage of 300mg when i was on half of a 25mg pill...and then upped the very next day to 600mg? That doesn't let you get accustomed to it at all..no wonder you freaked out...as for the citalopram..i mean...why take 60 or 80 if 30 would do you? I guess maybe i'm lucky my pdoc really listens to my concern about medications, she is the one who said.. "we have to be really careful with medications for you...because your really sensative to them" so she starts me very low and i update her...and she up's the doses in Small increments over qa long period to ensure that i am getting just the amount i need..not more. How fast did you work up to 80mg i wonder..because...the first 3 days on citalopram i thought i would jump out of my skin...but after that...it really started to get better..it gave me the mental clairity..and the energy to actually participate in therapy...to actually work on my issues...hell even to go back to school and i have been wanting to for 10 years.....i even got my larners licence..i'm 28 years old..and i just now got my learners permit to drive...i would have NEVER even considered it ...while i was not on the citalopram..actually i didnt even consider it..i couldn't...hell i could barely leave my house with out a panic attack. i think..thats really what medication should do...it should allow you to get to place where you can make some real changes....a place where your not so pysically sick with anxiety about every little thing that comes your way...balanced with life..not so medicated that you can live a normalish life. Sorry went off course there...right the citalopram...i didnt... "notice" right away that it had made changes ...i mean if someone asked me how i felt i would almost say i feel the same...but thats the point.. i think..that you still feel normal..only over time..on the RIGHGT dose...you get better and better....you know what i mean? If you can feel the "medication" working..i would almost be tempted to say well then maybe your on too much...Maybe you should talk to your Pdoc..and just say...look..this is unreasonable...300 then the next day 600...thats too much and i wont be doing that anymore..tell him/her you want to start on smaller doses and work your way up...because it's destroying your body...and maybe even your mind...thats not unreasonable to want to start on less...just tell them your sensative to the medications...maybe they will be able to see how bad it's really affecting you...going from a huge amount to a huger amount the next day.

actually drinking increases the effect of citalopram..and so..i can say this..while i was drinking..on citalopram..i really wanted to die..i wanted to give myself alcohol poisoning...i drank a whole bottle of tequila..hoping i would just not wake up...so for me..that tells me something..it tells me that if i was on a higher dose i would probably step over the line of a pleasant hypo-mania and well being into a place of full fledged MANIA with a side of suicide. With that being said..if i am on 30....and feel that an increase would do no good because of that whole drinking experience..i am almost certain that 80 on you..if your sensative like me would no doubt be enough to push you way too far.It's hard to find the right medication yes..but even harder if they have the possiblity of ruining the right medication by giving you a ridiculous dose.

i was fully manic on 80mg, but i was telling everyone i was fine! Because i had too much to do for them to realise i was ill. It was only when i actually attempted suicide, i had to admit what the citalopram was doing to me, it was prescribed by my GP so there was no pdoc or careworker like i have now to actually keep an eye on me.
He said that if i go on 50mg of seroquel it wont do anything at all, so the other option is to have a week of 100mg and then go up, but then i had an anxiety attack because i felt like he wasnt giving me the option and i was terrified of going to sleep. Thats calmed down now and i'm not so scared, but i still think i would be better suited to the abilify.

my first time taking the seroquel..i told you i got knocked out...but i did take it again...i took it some time later...i took it at like 3am..after not sleeping for ...well.. a long time..anyways.. i was so worried to take it...shortly after maybe 45mins...i had a panic attack and made my husband take me to the hospital...so..i think your "thoughts" about it..before you take it have a huge impact on how it works.Something to think about anyways...i told my pdoc and i told her that while i realized it was a "thought" reaction..that i would not take it..i refused...that's when she gave me the abilify.

I am in a catch 22. When I wasn't on Wellbutrin, I was always depressed and always sleeping. Now I feel a lot better and am not sleeping half as much; but I can't fall asleep!

i hear you..it's 4:20 am..and guess who hasn't had a wink of sleep....and guess who has to be up at 7am for school..followed by work....i am sure when i walk in after work at 8am i will be exhausted....but even more likely....i wont be tired at all....sooooo frustrating.

i missed college today, cause i had to be up at half 7 but fell asleep shortly after half 6... and only just woke up.. argggh!

it's nearly 8pm...i'm wide awake..i feel tonight may be another nearly all nighter.. :/

i am at 3am. i have an appt with psychologist tomorrow, so i really shud go to bed!

yeah tomorrow is school followed by work again...i know i should need the sleep...but to be honest...i really..just don't get tired..i find i can get by on 2-3hrs of sleep..and function perfectly...like...i kinda like that part..but..being up alone all night..is sometimes..lonely..

Middle of the day here and ready to sleep... but when i get home it will be eyes open until the early hours of the morning...

Well, i think I'm my own worst enemy. I force myself to bed at 10:30 PM, because I know I usually need 8 hours of sleep. Then I toss for at least an hour, and wake up all the time.
I've been OK at work the next day, and don't feel too tired, so maybe I just need to accept that I will require less sleep...?
Confusing me

it's kinda lonely though...just being up alone all night..a little bit right..

you can watch TV or play on your computer...