[mizzbosslady]

Hello to everyone. My name is Tina and im 28 years old. This is my first time coming to a support forum for this. I am very angry for days and then I am okay, then I cry for no apparent reason at all for a good couple hours then it stops. I am scared at times to go to sleep because i do not want to wake up angry again. I have left my husband and children several times for no reason at all but my own enjoyment and felt no remorse in doing so. I am back home now and everything that I have done is tumbling down on me hard. I have this impulsive behavior to go and do whatever I want to do and not worry about my family. I hate this feeling and I want to get better. I really love my family and I do not want to leave again when I have an episode. Im scared because I sometimes get thoughts that no one wants me around. I do not hurt myself but in the back of my mind I think to myself maybe if I do, people will notice me more. I need advice and lots of it. If anyone is going through anything similar to this please feel free to chat with me, I need people who understand. Thanks in advance.

[Ryask]

My name is Tina and i am 28 also...so thats a bit weird. Anyways are you currently seeing a counselor or taking any medications?

[blueoctober]

Welcome Tina. When were you diagnosed and how long have you been on your current med regime? If you haven't already I suggest making an appointment to discuss with your Psychiatrist. I hope you find this site supportive.

[CesarioRose]

Hey there, Tina. I'm a 24 male, and while I cant relate to you for the husband/wife/significant other, and child thing, I can relate to your impulses and thoughts while depressed. I feel very similar things when I'm depressed; including the self harm ideas. I have even thought and came close to am attempt on my life.

Anyhoo. You should seek professional help if you have not yet already. Medication, if you're patient in finding the right combo, is, and can be, a huge weight lift in your daily life. I encourage you to seek professional help in the form of a Therapist and a Psychiatrist.

So, in short, welcome to the forum.

[kitty004567]

Welcome... That's really it. Everyone else covered it with the suggestions of talking to your doctor and therapy. Remember you're not alone, many of us have gone through similar things. Good luck!

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by mizzbosslady

Hello to everyone. My name is Tina and im 28 years old. This is my first time coming to a support forum for this. I am very angry for days and then I am okay, then I cry for no apparent reason at all for a good couple hours then it stops. I am scared at times to go to sleep because i do not want to wake up angry again. I have left my husband and children several times for no reason at all but my own enjoyment and felt no remorse in doing so. I am back home now and everything that I have done is tumbling down on me hard. I have this impulsive behavior to go and do whatever I want to do and not worry about my family. I hate this feeling and I want to get better. I really love my family and I do not want to leave again when I have an episode. Im scared because I sometimes get thoughts that no one wants me around. I do not hurt myself but in the back of my mind I think to myself maybe if I do, people will notice me more. I need advice and lots of it. If anyone is going through anything similar to this please feel free to chat with me, I need people who understand. Thanks in advance.

Awww sorry you are going through this I have issues with anger also and Iam 28 also .When I get too angry I go Im a room by myself and call my t who told me to call if I need to talk .I get so angry for no apparent reason .I write In my journal and do deep breathing and I take st john wort for mood and since Iam taking that I dont be as much angry.

[Trippin2.0]

Hey Tina, please know that you are NOT alone♥

I also have issues with anger, self harm and suicidal ideation, since I've been medicated, my anger has all but disappeared and my moods are not as extreme...

I hope you get the help you need soon. XOXO

[sugahorse1]

Hi and welcome!
It sounds like you are having a really hard time; I've been there too and I know it's painful. Therapy and the right meds helped me tremendously. Also, this forum has been my form of 'group therapy', and helped me understand and accept my diagnosis, as well as learning some great coping skills.
I hope you feel comfortable enough to jump right into the forums!
When you feel angry and depressed, can you play a mind-numbing computer game? Or watch movies to distract yourself? I know you'll be tempted to just curl up in bed, but interacting will really help

[PT52]

Hi, Tina, welcome to PC. Lots of good advice here and this is a great place to get support, advice, and lots of understanding. It's important to know if you've been diagnosed, if you're getting therapy and if you're on any meds (all things already said). It's difficult for any of us here to really give you any advice without knowing those things. I hope you hang around and benefit from a great group of people!

[sanityseeker]

Hi Tina. Welcome to PC. I am sorry you are having such a difficult time right now. I hope you have access to professional help. If things get worse you may want to consider going to the hospital to get immediate help. If you feel that close to an episode and fear acting out in a way that you don't want to then the hospital may be a wise option.

You showed courage to come here and post and ask for help. You love your family and your children especially need you very much. You know that and the desire of your heart is to not miss another day in their lives.

I so hope you can be encouraged now to not try to figure this out on your own. I hope you find the help you need very soon. Meanwhile PC is a safe and supportive community to lean on. Wishing you well.