I don't want to be on meds!

I just needed to say it.

I am on meds and I know I'll probably stay on meds but I don't want to be.

Anybody else want to yell it in here?

I actually want to be on meds now. xDDDD;

The first 2 years of my dx I constantly went off my medication despite what they told me. I hated them. Now I appreciate them because I have less severe symptoms.

I hate the bad habits I picked up from living w/bipolar and refusing to cooperate with a T.

what about being on meds don;t you like?

That I have to be on them. That they have scary side effects. And that I can't drink wine.

I love what they've done for me I just wish I didn't need them.

I totally know what you mean. I really don't want to be on meds for the rest of my life. I don't want to have to worry about filling prescriptions and making sure I have my meds when I travel. I'm going abroad next fall and will have to make arrangements to get enough meds. The idea of being on pills for the rest of my life makes me unhappy, despite the good these pills do for my mental/physical/emotional well being.

I DON'T WANT TO BE ON MEDS!!!!!!!!! (There........that felt good!

Yes! Totally.

Not altogether fond of taking meds either, but do know that it's much better for me if I do, after living with bipolar unmedicated for 25 years or so (which means since I was quite young)! I'm not sure yet what normal, even mood is, but I would like to know, so I'll stay on meds.....though the restrictions might irk me a bit....it's better than falling into progressively worse cycles of mood as I have been doing.

i HATE being reliant on meds cos half the time i dont think they do anything and the other half i just cant convince myself i need them.

i'm 27. i dont want to be on them for the rest of my life

i don't want to be on meds either!!!!

I am grateful for meds. I'll rather deal with taking them, than being unstable. And I'm also only 25

I wish I wasn't ill, and that I didn't have to be on meds, but having finally found meds that are keeping me relatively sane I am grateful for them.

I don't like being on meds, but I know what I am like when I am not on them, so being on them is better than not.

i hated how lithium made me feel; the severe cracking skin, the constant feeling of dehydrated'ness even thought i always drank half my weight in ounces of water daily. i couldn't exercise at all on it. i am mostly adamant in not taking meds, and trying to regulate my moods with a proper diet/sleep. it's hard though not to fall into the old routine of bad habits. i should probably start meds again, but i really don't want to.

Totally agree!!!!
I don't want to take my meds, I know I have to, I love what they do and how they let me live, but I HATE having to take them. I HATE knowing that I'll be on them forever..... sometimes it is so hard to put them in my mouth and swallow them....
but I am sooo grateful for them, particularly my friend lithium....
it's a love/ hate thing.....

I totally agree with that statement....I don't want to be on meds! You couldn't have said it better. But I don't want to have an episode either, so to me anyway, it's the better of two evils. Tired of popping pills but, and tired of side effects too.

This is one of the many reasons why I don't want to see a psychiatrist...I don't want any meds!! A lot of them have scary side effects, I like my dysfunctional brain the way it is.

If you can deal with it and can live with it... than go ahead and live your life... there are people who live just with coping skills and some lifestyle adjustments. It is sometimes very hard though.

I don't want to be off meds. I just wish there was a way of figuring out EXACTLY what meds I need!!! It's been a year since my diagnosis and I haven't settled yet (although I know that for some people it takes much more than that even to be diagnosed)...And even after settling, there is every chance they'll need tweaking and/or change!

So I wish I didn't have to develop such an insight and such in-depth knowledge to how my chemistry works. (Because now I am convinced that I'm the only one who will ever get the closest to 'knowing' then ins and outs of my condition....And that scares me.)
But I am grateful for the progress that has been made

I did without meds for 35 years after my first depressive episode (except for a brief period on citalopram to pull me out of blackness once).
But what started as a volatile temperament (we thought) and a very unpredictable class clown has grown into a chaotic spiral of social destruction and inability to work. I hate the stupifying effects of antipsychotics, but I am crying out for some way to get this terrifying mania under control.

While I hear you on the idea of staying off drugs as long as possible, there is a school of thought that argues the prognosis is far worse for people delaying treatment.

i dont want to be on meds either. i went off of the for a while (for a year and 8 months) and now i'm on just a mood stabilizer. i refuse to take anti-psychotics since i dont think being a zombie that deveolps diabetes, heart disease and all the other serious health problems that come along with the meds is a fair trade off for reducing mania.

so, i'm trying lamictal now it hasn't started working yet and probably wont for a while but hopefully it does.

The meds I'm on are for pain.....they did surgery with no success & now my only relief is the pain medication I'm on. Luckily for me, there are no horrible side effects & I can tolerate the high dose I need to be on just to be able to function. Before I could only lay in bed in a dark room with no sound or smells & even then the pain was horrible.....bad part is that is was constant without any relief other than with ER visits.....so for me even though they aren't psych meds, I will never have a time without the need for meds to have a functional life.

Don't like being dependent on the meds especially when the manufacturer is having problems with production or some reason problems getting the meds distributed to the pharmacies....not knowing how that will end up is scary.......but can't imagine going back to what life was like before I found the right amount so I could finally have a quality life back again.

Not much different than a person with diabetics who needs insulin to keep the body correctly functioning. Sometimes we just have to accept our life as it is & go on from there.

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Yagalada....it depends on which anti-psychotic it is, and the dosage you are taking, in terms of turning or not turning into a zombie with the anti-psychotic. Zyprexa was a killer for me, but I'm finding that a low dosage of abilify doesn't have the zombie effect at all. Is your doc OK with you doing that?

I don't like knowing that I'll be on meds for the rest of my life. I don't like all the scary side-effects, especially the ones that can be permanent (tardive diskenesia). And I hate how my day revolves around when I take my pills.

But I also don't want to end up in a suicidal depression again. I love my family too much to get back to that point. And I don't want to spend $7,000 on a manic spree or have affairs like I did when I was manic, before getting help.

Right now, I just want OFF the antipsychotics. I truly don't think I need them. I'll take all the other crap, just not that.

In fact I'm considering going off them on my own (without permission) just to prove to my pnurse that I can be stable without them. But she'll be pissed at me for doing so.

Until 3 yars ago I really did not want to start on meds and continue my life on them.
No reason to complain, though, only an antihypertensive, Ritalin and Lamictal - no side effects. Still -.
But I were exhausted from a life of struggeling.
With meds life became so much easier - I became the person I want to be, and want to stay there.