[Moose72]

I am hearing my cable tv box play music and talk to me. It's all faint but I can make out most of it. It's telling me things. It saud "talk to me" but it doesn't know I know it can't really talk lol. It likes jazz music.

[Moose72]

He said "obey my commands"-twice. And it's 1920s. Jazz.

[Moose72]

He said "obey my commands"-twice. And it's 1920s. Jazz. "tLk to me. As much as you can. Look at me. Obey my commNds"

it hasn't done anything since I left the room but the desk it's on was warping.

[Moose72]

I feel so weird. And nobody here will reply

[mgran]

Hey Moose,
do you know that the radio is not talking to you... have you heard this kind of thing before?
Do you have a therapist or psych to talk to about this, and are you on any meds? If so, has there been a change recently?

I've had similar experiences, when the radio was "picking songs" to tell me things. It wasn't real, you'll be okay. But do get help.

[Moose72]

I know. It's just that I've never had that before and it's Been firever since I've halucinated. And I knew at the time that it was a hallucination but it was so real that I was facinated and listened. I called the psych er and they seemed concerned and are calling me back. I just saw my therapist yesterday! She knew of stressor on me and gave me techniques to cope. I was also really bouncy last night and going at least hypomanic if not into mania. I knew it but couldn't stop it. :-(

[Moose72]

Oh and it's not even a radio. It's a tv cable reciever. Never makes a sound- ever. But last night that's where the sound was coming from. It had a distinct personality. And nice music.

[mgran]

Sometimes I just get beautiful music ... that's something I miss about manias. But I'm glad that you've contacted your pdoc and therapist. And that you're aware of your symptoms. Look after yourself, and let the doctors help you out. And let us know how it goes... I'm going to have to be off line for a few hours, but I'll check in to see you're okay.

Good luck, you'll be fine. You've done everything right, and will get better.

[BNLsMOM]

You have all the pieces in place with your support team. And you have really good insight. Let us know how it goes, OK? (((Moose)))

[Moose72]

Thanks. I'm still upset. It was interesting at the time but I'm afraid I'll be put on antipsychotics and they all have given me bad reactions. I'm embarrassed. But I was facinated at the time. Still am-thought it was entertaining! Never was scared. But I have not missed meds. This is breakthru- unless we find thY my body ate all the lithium, as has happened before.

[Moose72]

One thing that bothers me is that the er nurse said that my pdoc told her that "this is normal for her". Uh- not it's not! This has never hapoened. Hallucinations? Yes. But they are pretty few between.

[Moose72]

I feel tired and queasy. Zzzz......

[Miss Laura]

Have you heard back from your p-doc?

[Moose72]

Not her but the PER nurse called back and said my pdoc saud this was normal for me and call PER if I'm gonna harm anyone. I find that highly insulting. It's not normal behavior for me! It's been years and I don't schedule these things! Yes I'm bipolar so it's not out of the ordinary fir THAT but I thought it warrentrd a call

[Kymaro]

Maybe you should get your lithium checked? U said this happened before when your lithium was low. U got a smart head on your shoulders, sounds like you made all the right choices. Let us know how it turns out.

[Miss Laura]

Hmmm... thats random huh?!?

I would just keep an eye on yourself and if you feel yourself gettiing worse call them back straight away

Can you not go to see a friend or relative just so your not on your own?

[Moose72]

I am in a bookstore and none oft friends will answer the phone. Except one who was very nice and encouraging. I am keeping my mind on fact reading like national geographic at the bookstore and checking this board. My lithium will likely get rechecked Monday or teusday. But haven't heard. I want to be alone yet I keep checking this thread. I've been crying yesterday (before) and yet I was going manic. I am torn between napping and not- I really don't know. I know enough to catch most things but I was too far gone yesterday. Called pdoc last week , Saw t. Yesterday! Couldn't avoid it. And another friend says i "need yoga good food and meditation". Right. Tell that to the talking cable box. God that was freaky and fun at the same. Ashamed to say so.

[Moose72]

I also had parkinsonian shakes. My right hand would shake all on it's own like someone else had a hold of it and was doing that! My leg was too even while standing. I got into bed and laying down made it stop. (this was last night.). Now..... You'd think that would be too much lithium. But how can my lithium br too high and too low at the same time?

[mgran]

Originally Posted by Moose72

... And another friend says i "need yoga good food and meditation". Right. Tell that to the talking cable box. God that was freaky and fun at the same. Ashamed to say so.

Don't be ashamed of it... good grief, how stupid is your friend to suggest yoga, good food and meditation might stop psychosis? If so this bloody hippy vegetarian tai chi practising nutter in the UK would never have had a problem. They really don't understand what's going on, do they?

It does sound like you need your levels checking... let us know what happens with that. I know we can't practically help you, but you are in our good wishes and prayers, etc, and everyone here wishes you well.

Stay safe, and we'll keep checking how you are.

Sorry your psych said, "this is normal for her", he might just have meant "this is normal for people with her diagnoses," or that he'd been expecting it... but it still doesn't help you feel confident, does it? Hope the shakes etc stop.

And don't feel ashamed of enjoying your hallucinations. Sometimes I've enjoyed mine.

[BNLsMOM]

Moose, you did all the right things. If you really feel that you need to be hospitalized, you could just go to the ER and maybe explain in more detail what is going on. You sound troubled by what happened and amazed at the same time. You could say at the ER that you aren't feeling safe, and you would have a better chance of being admitted.

[Moose72]

Thank you! These posts today are actually making me smile a bit!

I tried my best to prevent this- I could see it coming a mile away. But it was a train so...

Bad part though- two oft very good friends are not talking to me now that I told them this! I thought one w'S my best friend and the other very good. I am still tearful. And at aids what to do this evening.

[mgran]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Thank you! These posts today are actually making me smile a bit!

I tried my best to prevent this- I could see it coming a mile away. But it was a train so...

Bad part though- two oft very good friends are not talking to me now that I told them this! I thought one w'S my best friend and the other very good. I am still tearful. And at aids what to do this evening.

I'm sorry that your friends have let you down... I know some folks I thought of as very good friends... who had actually come through for me in the past when I needed help, simply stopped talking to me. Hurts like hell. But I also know that some folks I thought had abandoned me hadn't in fact done so... they just had their own things. Hope that's the case with you...

I agree with BNLsMom that you could go to the hospital and tell them what's going on. I've never actually done this myself, so I don't know what it entails, but I do know others who'v'e done so in an emergency and it's worked out fine.

I'm glad we made you smile. (hug)

[BNLsMOM]

Originally Posted by mgran

I agree with BNLsMom that you could go to the hospital and tell them what's going on. I've never actually done this myself, so I don't know what it entails, but I do know others who'v'e done so in an emergency and it's worked out fine.

I'm glad we made you smile. (hug)

I've gone I to the ER when I knew I wasn't going to be safe at home. The counselors come and talk and try to figure out what the best thing is to do. For me, I don't generally get hallucinations (although I think I have had a few) but I end up endangering myself with my thoughts. I have been admitted each time although last time they wanted to send me home. I had to speak up for myself, though.

[Moose72]

I just thought maybe my pdoc didn't reccomend any treatment or even to call Monday is because I refused any more antipsychs. I just feel horrid on them. Or I get tardiv diskinesia. Or whatever. It's an actual reason she takes me off. But it was geodon I refuse d becaise if how I felt. And some other med by my primary so it may seem that I'm uncooperative but I'm really not. I do remember our conversation and my having to say I didn't want them- I was making a calm decision. *shrug*

[Moose72]

Ps friends had their own things but one said I could call right back and she forgot so I thought she was ignoring me.