[moonbeam2]

i never get a break its taking everthing i have to do this,just 3 days ago i was ok ,i was aleast abel to smile at my boys i had that for just 3 days then i wake up & no motivation sad i wanna go hide in fact i do in my bed room i hardly see my husband cause im always hiding this life sucks i just recently found this web sight hopping it was the answers to all my prayers it was gonna take my depression away,the mind is a powerfull thing its just gonna do what ever it wants &i dont beleave there is a cure im stuck with my depression comes pain my leggs hurt to the point i wannna cut them off & now my teeth its like phantum pain i guess im sorry i gotta go i just cant do this anymore !

[BlackPup]

I'm really sorry that your are struggling and that life is so hard. This website can be a help: a place to talk to other people and to get good advice, but it is not a miracle cure, I really hope that it can still help you. I'm really sorry that you are in pain right now, but please remember that it will get better, it always does with BP, the depression will go away. Is there someone in real life that can help you, your pdoc or
T? Please get some help.

[SunAngel]

Originally Posted by moonbeam2

i never get a break its taking everthing i have to do this,just 3 days ago i was ok ,i was aleast abel to smile at my boys i had that for just 3 days then i wake up & no motivation sad i wanna go hide in fact i do in my bed room i hardly see my husband cause im always hiding this life sucks i just recently found this web sight hopping it was the answers to all my prayers it was gonna take my depression away,the mind is a powerfull thing its just gonna do what ever it wants &i dont beleave there is a cure im stuck with my depression comes pain my leggs hurt to the point i wannna cut them off & now my teeth its like phantum pain i guess im sorry i gotta go i just cant do this anymore !

WOW moonbeam2, I am so sorry to hear you are experiencing this. Come onto talk to us. We can help you out. That sounds like too much for one person to deal with.

Come back online and talk to us, please!

((((HUGS))))

[Forgive77]

Originally Posted by moonbeam2

i never get a break its taking everthing i have to do this,just 3 days ago i was ok ,i was aleast abel to smile at my boys i had that for just 3 days then i wake up & no motivation sad i wanna go hide in fact i do in my bed room i hardly see my husband cause im always hiding this life sucks i just recently found this web sight hopping it was the answers to all my prayers it was gonna take my depression away,the mind is a powerfull thing its just gonna do what ever it wants &i dont beleave there is a cure im stuck with my depression comes pain my leggs hurt to the point i wannna cut them off & now my teeth its like phantum pain i guess im sorry i gotta go i just cant do this anymore !

I also want to hide from my family very often...I drink to take the edge off. I love reisling wine. I have had the tree trunk legs and often feel as though I carry one demon on my back, and am fighting another inside of me. The cycles suck. Mine come at very least every two weeks and lately I'm more on the depressed side rather than the manic side...boy I miss mania. Sigh....Here has helped me quite a great deal. It helps to know others go threw the same things, and struggle with the same things. You gotta call you're psychiatrist...sounds like you need to switch meds, or upgrade. I was on lexapro when I was really heavy like you...now I'm on pristiq...it's better. I can still break through with the depression...but they are going to add albilify. We're all a work in progress, and it just keeps going. Sometimes learning to accept that helps with knowing things aren't forever. Much love to you hon...I know what that place feels like.

[Phoenix_1]

(((((moonbeam)))))

I'm so sorry you're depressed and in pain. Please post some more on here so we can get a conversation going. The people here are really nice and very helpful.

I've had ongoing depression and hypomania since I was 14, and I'm no stranger to pain either. I have lots of drugs for my BP, but nothing for pain - I have arthritis and you can't take NSAIDS with lithium.

I hope you come back and post some more here, we'd like to "talk" to you and see if we can help you feel better.

[manicminer]

I feel your pain. I'm a 23 year old man and have mood swings worse than a woman going through menopause. I can go from gung-ho about life to curled up in my bed crying like a baby. But I guess this is all part of dealing with the disorder and I'm up for the fight. Just live it day by day and keep on truckin' Here's the biggest hug you've ever gotten (-----------------------------------------------------------)

[beauflow]

MoonBeam. At times i feel lost but i found this site last july and it has helped. Keep posting even if you find others may not fully understand. The other day i was great then just a few words said in the afternoon with an uncomf visit i was crying that same night with i guess some what "delusional" thoughts about others. You replied to one of my posts the other day whigag helped. I hope you find support here you need either in real life or on here. I do art or try to when down it's hard some times but what do you enjoy to do?
I know at times i will say i don't want to live how it is for me, mood swings with paranoia thoughts and swings from love to hate from joy to dispare. But we all just have to keep holding on and keep trying our best with thing hugs to you MoonBeam i wish you happiness soon that will stay

[jk2833]

Originally Posted by moonbeam2

i never get a break its taking everything i have to do this,just 3 days ago i was ok ,i was least abel to smile at my boys i had that for just 3 days then i wake up & no motivation sad i wanna go hide in fact i do in my bed room i hardly see my husband cause im always hiding this life sucks i just recently found this web sight hopping it was the answers to all my prayers it was gonna take my depression away,the mind is a powerfull thing its just gonna do what ever it wants &i dont beleave there is a cure im stuck with my depression comes pain my leggs hurt to the point i wannna cut them off & now my teeth its like phantum pain i guess im sorry i gotta go i just cant do this anymore !

Hi moonbeam I've just read your post and it is how I feel,I never get a break from these stupid cycles,but I'm also physically disabled so after the high I also have extreme pain throughout my body.
I always say I exist I do not live but then I look at my children and think how lucky I should feel,but some times I feel the most un luckiest person in the world,I think why me? I've never hurt anyone.
Thankfully they are good kids and they like it when my high episodes are here as they think we have good fun,and when I'm low I try and hide it as best as I can.
I'm not just saying it but this website has literally saved me as no one I know has any sort. Of depression or mental health problems,stick with it and read some of the posts then you will see there are so many people in the same position as us,post threads or you can always send me a private message if that's more suitable for you?
Your not alone and as time goes on you start to know people,I don't know many but I will look out for you now.
Hope your a little better
JK

[CjnGyrl74]

Hi moonbeam, I'm new here too and I know how you feel. When I'm manic everything's good...I can smile and I am pain free, I feel like I have all the energy in the world. I'll clean this house from top to bottom, even mop.
But when I'm depressed, as I am now, the pain is literally devistating. I have carpral tunnel in both arms and severe back issues. I even went to the ER Sunday night because I couldn't even walk, I haven't been to work this whole week because of it. Neither my doctor (which is my boss) nor the ER doctor new what was wrong. The only thing they can figure is sciatica. When I was in my 20's it wasn't necessarily pain, it was stomach issues. I've spent a fortune on all kinds of procedures to figure out what was wrong and no one had a clue.
We all are here for you, if you need anything just let me know. Please do.