[flipenzeeflop]

Hi all first post and my thoughts are so muddled and tangled i will pre-apologize.

I was diagnosed Bipolar 1 a few years ago and its not really that much of a suprise really. When i looked back at my behaviours over the years it CRUSHED me to adnit that they were probably right.

Anyway, the reason i am here is because i feel like i am just going to "lose it" these days. I am embroiled in a BITTER divorce, just moved, started a new job that is RIDICULOUSLY stressful.

On Friday of this week i was on my way home from work and i was mugged. 6 guys threw me down some stairs into the basement of a building and beat and robbed me. They stole my wallet, watch ,phone some money and get this ....my glasses for godsake.

Besides the physical pain of which i have PLENTY...i am freaked out and scared even NOW in my home. My boss at my new job is also my best friend of the last 25 years. He is one of those VERY driven and successful types. Today he asked me how i was feeling and i just told him the tinyest bit of how i am. I am a bit shaken and very nervous still. "Yeah gotta nip that in the bud " he said. He then invited me to his house for dinner at 7pm. He lives a block away from where i was beaten and robbed. I feel like i am being asked to return to "normalcy" after less than 2 days after being threatened with knives etc. It really made me feel much worse.

I dont know even what i am trying to acomplish here...i just had to tell SOMEBODY.

Thanks for listening

muddles and tangles happen alot here so it's ok and no need to be sorry.

...unbelievable getting mugged like that!! geez! what the hell? I hope you are ok. so sorry to hear about that. what else can I say?.... something extremely good must now come your way if there is any fairness at all

I'm not much into chit chat but I just noticed you had not been here before and wanted to say hi at least acknowledge what you wrote up there...

...as for your main question..."I hope you are OK....but if you are not?...then I hope you are OK about not being OK" ...if you know what I mean?

James

Welcome to PC- Sorry about your frightening experience. Take care

[missbelle]

Wow, you have been through a lot.Anyone just mugged would definately not feel safe especially in the same neighborhood, and even at home .Can you take a week off, and go visit friends somewhere just to get away for a while? I know this is a new job, but that mugging was very scary for even the strongest person in the whole world. Maybe a note from a Dr would get you some needed time off. Now would be the time also to find a therapist if you do not already have one. You need to get some support on your side with all you went through. A divorce is stress enough without all the rest thrown in!

I am so sorry that mugging happened to you. Your boss sounds like my father years ago......Oh just get over it....! Nip it in the bud! Of course you can't get over it!!! Not now anyway!! He should go thru a mugging..he would indeed feel different about what he said. People try to be helpful by trying not too make it such a big deal but it IS a big deal... a very big deal!!!

Hope things get better for you. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing!!!

Thinking of you!

Hugs;
Dee

[~Christina]

I am so sorry you have your plate overflowing with divorce ,moving .new job and then ON TOP of that freaking mugging !!!! I hope you called the police.. I know that doesn't always lead to anything.

I hope things get better for you fast !

Welcome to Pc

[Trippin2.0]

OMFW! How terrible! And like DM said, its ok to not be ok for now, you've been thru hell, are going thru some other hells as well! Nip it in the bud is useless and insensitive! So glad you came here, emotional purging is very therapeutic. I agree that you should get a doctor's note to take few days off. Just to recuperate and let your mind know it doesnt have to be in 'armed' mode all the time... Oh and a warm we're glad to have you!

[flipenzeeflop]

Thanks guys, this really made my morning. I have to go to work today and walk RIGHT past where the incident took place. I went to my boss/friends house for dinner last night. I am POSITIVE he invited me so i would have to walk in the same neiborhood where it happened and after dark. Its just his way...he is VERY kind but yes, also a bit insensitive.
It really helped to have some input guys....hugs to you all.

[BlueInanna]

Hi flip, welcome

I think you would need a pair of large pruning shears to "nip it in the bud" in that neighborhood. But that would get you arrested!

It's just horrible what you're going through. I'm glad you're here and hope you'll find great supportive people like I have.

[faerie_moon_x]

Oh, it's no wonder you're all shaken up. I would be exactly the same way! I think what you're feeling is 100% normal and your boss friend is just one of those people who disconnects. Like, unless it happens to them they can't understand.

I hope you put in a police report. Hopefully those thugs can be caught and put away so they stop terrorizing your neighborhood. What a horrible thing to have happen!

[flipenzeeflop]

Ok at work now...heart is pounding so fast i am actually panting. There is an audit today, so i HAD to come to work. I dont wanna sound paranoid but it feels like the universe is testing me here.

I would gladly give up my eye teeth for a Valium. Had a meeting with my boss/friend, and he had me write things into my appointment book that will keep me here at the office FREQUENTLY after dark. Sigh....i hate my life so much

[BlueInanna]

Do you have a psychiatrist? Or regular doctor even, and call up and ask for a valium rx?

[flipenzeeflop]

I do have a therapist...THANK GOD. I had to call her today and talk a while. But she ISNT a Dr just a Psycologist. I would give my eye teeth for a Valium today. Not Ativan or Klonipin a real live genuine Valium ....sigh.

[dillpickle1983]

Welcome to PC, hope things improve for you soon!!

[~Christina]

I believe in self protection items.. Mace or ummm other items Most police departments offer free self defense courses / classes. Maybe that would help you work through such a tramatic event ? Give you a feeling of power and control. Just a thought.

[flipenzeeflop]

Thanks all, it REALLY matters to feel like SOMEONE is actually listening. It has been made pretty clear to me that i am expected to be "right as rain" immediately if not sooner.
I feel like i am just gonna self destruct....i really do. I have an odd thought that i might become so scared i might just have a stroke or a heart attack, and that idea isnt exactly unappealing if that makes ANY sense.