Going to hospital for depression

sugahorse1 · Nov 20, 2012, 01:26 AM

So, it seems a lot easier to decide the cut - off point for mania, but at what point is it enough to go to hospital for depression?

~Christina · Nov 20, 2012, 01:36 AM

Hmmm Good question..

Ill answer for myself personally, It's not the lenght of time I have been depressed. It has always been more of what state of mind am I in or where I see myself going. It's also not a matter of how well am I funtioning ( I have always been able to fake things well). All my hospitalizations for depression have happened because I decided it was time to. Now that said ... If my T or Pdoc or family and loved ones felt I needed to go .. I honestly think I would pack a bag and go right then.

Not sure if that answered the question or not.

Anika. · Nov 20, 2012, 01:49 AM

I think when I start to doubt if i am safe in my own hands. Like really doubt it, but that is rare for me, so I am not sure either.

Tho I know you have been hanging onto threads for long Suga, so if you feel you should maybe you should. I know I worry for you quitely, because I would think you must be extremly tired. Do you think you should go?

hamster-bamster · Nov 20, 2012, 01:56 AM

I honestly think that you should go, if you are asking this question.

sugahorse1 · Nov 20, 2012, 03:05 AM

I'm embarassed to admit to people.
My T has been trying to convince me for weeks
I don't know what hospital will do for me. Some of my friend question the purpose of it. I also feel I have a responsibility to my job, even though I've only take about 3 days sick leave in 3.5 years
Aaaaahhhhh!!!! I don't know how they can do. Tried to take a good few Klonopin to allow me to sleep and it hardly touched sides.

liviacat · Nov 20, 2012, 03:16 AM

I agree, if you're asking, you should go. If your T is strongly suggesting it, you should go. Jobs come and go, this is your life, your health! There is definitely a purpose in it - to get yourself help and to help you get well. Best of luck and take care

Anika. · 05:04 AM

It's Ok Suga!! And ok to feel how you do. I was so scared to go, but when I did,it wasn't really like I imagined. Maybe you can try to look at it like a field trip, you go and find out what they do, how it all works. It could be a really good thing for you I think. And you might walk away in a better place, with more resources.

Doesn't really matter if your friends question the purpose of it. They won't be going there to find out, and when you are doing better you will know the purpose, likely they would see it too. I would also think if you have only taken 3 sick days in 3.5 years.... you need some!! You worked for them, please take them!!

You may work yourself right into a non existence, we can only run on empty like that for so long.

If you don't want to tell anyone irl , then you don't have to, you can make something up if it makes less stress for you. You are the one that gets to decide all that.

I just want you to be on your way to wellness. I know you deserve to be.

Don't worry about everything else right now, do what you need. I know that's probably hard to do for you, but you need your attention.

The other stuff will all carry on for now.

sugahorse1 · Nov 20, 2012, 04:04 AM

I can porb tell my boss I've just been booked off. I have 3 friends I think I can trust. Obviously my bf would know, and all the ppl around him, but I hope he can keep it as hush as possible. And not tell my parents. That's a big thing for me.
I've been to hospital twice. Only for 2 days or so.

roads · Nov 20, 2012, 04:42 AM

Sweetheart, go. It's time

They will cover, it will be okay.
Roadie

Anika. · Nov 20, 2012, 04:47 AM

It will be ok Suga! Even Roadie said so.. she knows about this stuff. She is wise.

Sounds like it will be ok, really. I don't think he would tell your parents, I am sure he knows. All the people around him don't have to know anything, any reason will do to be anywhere.

A simple she went ___ will do. Or he can say nothing at all.

You owe yourself some time to work at you and some rest as well. Make sure YOU tell THEM what you need ok. If they offer what you don't need.. say so. It's important to tell them, and that your needs are met. Since your T wants you to go, that should not be a problem at all. Can she go with you?

sugahorse1 · Nov 20, 2012, 05:05 AM

Yes, T will be able to meet me daily.

Nov 20, 2012, 05:33 AM

sounds to me suga

...you sincerely want some time to heal. Depression causes emotional and mental injury

...sometimes...well it's hard to decide whats better?

to make the self nurturing choice to go while still rational enough....

or to wait until it's so necessary as like forced upon you because the depression has gone and got right out of hand.

..it's something only you know exactly what it's doing to you and you deserve to heal....no-one here wants you to hurt. I hope it works out suga.

sugahorse1 · Nov 20, 2012, 06:20 AM

Thanks everyone.
I'm still confused

06:42 AM

whats the most important thing to you right now?

...and is there a 'least' important thing to you right now?

you might be the first one...

and...

...not the second one

hamster-bamster · Nov 20, 2012, 01:11 PM

Suga, your new avatar indicates that you do not just keep horses, you do... how should I call them?

sugahorse1 · Nov 20, 2012, 01:24 PM

I train and show jump them. When I'm in the right frame of mind. Moscow a magic is special in that he does not ever refuse or stop - he just goes a bit fast because he was a racehorse and a decent one.

I'm 75% I'm going to go to hospital tomorrow.

faerie_moon_x · Nov 20, 2012, 01:25 PM

I hope you feel better soon Suga.

If you need a break, then take it. Better to heal and recover than to suffer in silence.

sugahorse1 · Nov 20, 2012, 01:33 PM

I'm trying not be silent, but my work productivity and my relationship have taken strain. It's not fair. I'm lucky I have 2 close friends to support me through this right now

ishouldbhappy · Nov 20, 2012, 02:14 PM

good luck

Cocosurviving · Nov 20, 2012, 02:37 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by liviacat

I agree, if you're asking, you should go. If your T is strongly suggesting it, you should go. Jobs come and go, this is your life, your health! There is definitely a purpose in it - to get yourself help and to help you get well. Best of luck and take care

I agree w/ liviacat. Plus if you've been at ur job 3.5 years and haven't taken much sick leave it will be fine. U can apply for FMLA and short term disability. U have to take care of u.