Another doctor!!!

So I went to the dr today, coz I just cannot go back to work yet, figured I'll tell him the long sad tale of my back, and get him to gimme a benzo, but didn't expect actual help..
He checked me out says its fibro, says my symptoms sound alot like his and he was studying it in the states coz not alot is known about it here, its even called something else, Fibrositis... He wants to do bloodwork to rule out auto-immune stuff tho... Ugh, idk how to feel, its atleast some kind of answer right... Gawd what next.

Well, we can only take it a day at a time!

I heard that fibro and bipolar like to play a dance together. Wishing you luck! Hopefully it's an answer that will give you some relief.

geez Lia...!

wow!...what to say?
you talkin' fybromyalgia?...poor thing it's so bad in the back ...
I don't know what to say

Nothing to say Jamesy, guess its just one of those things I have to take in stride, altho looking back, I had a delayed freak out reaction, as with every major change or news in my life... Weird brain of mine huh. Anyway, he said I could go back to work Monday, and he says mine probably flairs up when my stress tolerance is depleted, so with that info, it looks managable in the least... I'm going to be ok Jamesy

"...you gonna be ok"....I will just keep repeating that...."Lia is gonna be ok"....

and if maybe she not maybe not she be not so ok?....

..."then she be ok about it"...

repeat repeat....

And rinse and repeat Could be worse you know, could have that thing my aunt has, her immune system eats her bones, and all docs can do is slow it down,but she knows she's inevitably headed for a wheelchair and I cant even imagine what that kind of knowledge must do to you... Counting my blessings Jamesy

some knowledge?

finality!

some things are chronic some things ailments things like that bad things that cause suffering in perhaps the finality of them...when they are

terminal!

...life is precisely terminal...and living it is a chronic condition!

...so it's all ..."backed up against the wall of reality"

...and we do what we do best...questions?...desperate for answers to fight the pain..inside and outside it's always inside we hide.

pain is worse than death and so life goes on...until the chronic hurt equals the terminal reality...then we fly off gently with the angels!

oops I drifted again

Oops? Dont be silly James, you know I enjoy your drifting immensley, you do it so eloquently years ago, I once said to my older sister that life is a disease that eats away at us until we die... She told me I was way too young to be pessimistic, I thought it was kinda poetic... Ugh, you obviously get it tho

yep I do...
you too...

aint it funny how love is to live...without the i...and instead an o!

..like oh! wtf?

and loving has nuthin' to do with living!....like..umm life can't be loved!

...and death can't be hated!

life happens to us only once ...implicated at before birth...we just stay that way...until death interrupts....and loving can be a feature of the living but it's equally effective as the nothing in between...

and hating death for taking the life?...does not love life anywhere enough to make it last....life and death are active regardless how we feel about them will not make a difference.

which brings us directly not swerving or skidding away ...to JOY!

...it's the first expression of life....in any form...from a baby screaming air into it's empty lungs....to a tiny germinating grass seed..

the eruption of awakening....self awareness the ultimate overwhelm of all time it's happening all the time...

...and we move along to NEED!...and immediately to WANT!...
and LOSS!...and then FEAR!

and wtf?....HATE!...

and we just gotta LOVE it all better...

and we got no choice...

Googled the pills he gave me... 2 state- may cause extreme happiness why don't they give these to EVERYONE??? Will keep an eye on the one he gave for panic attacks, and sleep, its a mild (so they say) AD, but nothing I read says DONT take if you're dxd bipolar, and from my experience should be fine if I watch my chocolate and caffeine intake... So here's to happiness I guess

See!!! You know LOTS about love and life, you understimate yourself far too much!

here's to happiness...

...like a mental bubble bath....

I know riiiight! Definitly hope its a side effect

hehe what??..

hehe...you snuck up on me real good with that one..
sneaky sneaky

....on tip toes she goes on tip toes she knows....

too

...sometimes...like the warrior....so used to battle!
can lay down in the SUN...right in the middle of the war...

who will attack her?... she has defeated everything already...

put her weapons aside...and just slide....

some call it relaxing...some are right too

Lmao! You should see me in person! Everyone says I creep them out coz they dont that I'm right there until I speak! Bwahahahaaaa this ninja's got skill!

re-lax-ing... I'm slowly but surely learning tthis one

...remember that whispering thing you got?

hehe

pssst pssst!...tiny chitter chatter....psst!

...i remember it....

now thats very cool I reckon....such deliberate perhaps clumsy audacity way too cute!...brilliant!

hehe

so very cool

Lmao! I remember all too well. Now whatever that was, it was DAMN hillarious

hehe

yep!...it somehow really was

Steroids ROCK!!! My back doesn't feel so tensed up and burny! Love my new Dr, even if he says I have fibro

way cool!...

Steroids are my new best friend, except Dr said to stay away from germies on them coz my immune system mightbe flakey... Its worth it Jamesy

yep ...understand ...germy little bacterial clowns from the microscopic underworld!....nasty!

...see.. the steroids they got an alternative cellular structure to your body...and despite this have a powerful and sudden 'over-ride' ...

so scare the crap out of all the personal pain and will repair you it's quite marvelous...

...and yet ..?

the body don't recognise the steroids so good being super-efficient...

sorta thinks it's ok anyway and oops maybe get a little overconfident little body in overdrive...

so flakey happen sometimes...

but you will be ok...cos...oooh!...we aint' even got to the mind yet...and yours be awesome!

All will be well, sis. My aunt has fibro and she's had it pretty much my whole life. She had it before they even knew it existed and was constantly told she was making it up.

Anyway, I don't know what she does for treatment but it's help her a ton and she is doing really well. She retired initially at like 50 years old because of it, but then went back to work. She was an art teacher and went back as a substitute teacher, but she worked steadily up until just last year. And, she also paints Icons, which is like old style Catholic art. Anyway, it takes a lot of patience and focus which is impossible with pain. So, I know it's 100% treatable and life back to normal.