Originally Posted by gillgirl

Not so much depressed today. Have a lot of energy and I'm cleaning. But I'm angry and aggressive. Just feel the need to hit something, looks like Kickboxing for aerobics today.

I'm the same way today. I'm so angry that I don't want to eat because I'm angry at my food though, so right now I can't do things. I need to wait for bf to come home anyway, so nothing to do. I hate cleaning. Maybe someone can tell me what to do?

Originally Posted by Little Me

Feel alone in the middle of the Atlantic without a life jacket and nobody knows I'm out there and there is no search party looking for me.

sorry you are feeling that way....but danged if that isnt one of the best explanations how I feel sometimes too.
I hope you are surprised by the search party finding you!

[Little Me]

Originally Posted by SpiritOfAStorm

sorry you are feeling that way....but danged if that isnt one of the best explanations how I feel sometimes too.
I hope you are surprised by the search party finding you!

No search party sadly. Rough day but feel better now. Thanks for responding. Made me feel a little found.

[Victoria'smom]

I didn't take meds last night I'm Jittery as **** , stressed, want to peel my skin off. Then I found out I was exposed to the chicken pox yesterday... Why can't people keep there germs to them self? At least I slept 15 hrs last night! I'm so angry!!!

[rossiv46]

Depressed and haven't been leaving the house. I need to get out. Wish I was a bit manic help me get some things done. .F$S% depression

[punkypunky]

I am worried about school. The previous semesters I have been an honor student but I am struggling in one class right now. I think I can still get a B if I work really hard. Ugh.

I am frustrated with myself.

[Moreta]

I'm not angry like I was last night. I really need to do something about all the anger. I started back on tegretol last night, since we're gonna wait a while to do the whole baby thing. (which is really disappointing ) Oh well. It'll happen one day.

I am really happy today....could be borderline hypo, not sure...but I was so down the last couple days that this is one hellaciously welcome rebound!

[~Christina]

I am finally sleeping A LOT ! Finally YAY !!!

I'm not getting really restful sleep. I know I don't dream much if at all lately. I take 25 to 50 mg seroquel, but I think it does nothing to help lift me out of a tired depressed mood. Time for a new psychiatrist. What is it about not getting REM sleep, do most of you have this problem?

[Moreta]

I'm bummed. My recruiter still hasn't heard back from the people I interviewed with, so that's probably not good news. Also, I'm getting sick with whatever my husband has. I'm so glad we share germs all the time.

Had a way better day than yesterday. Not as irritable. Wish my son would stop sleeping all day and go to school though....its a constant stressor.

[kala83]

todays been better then usual been fairly happy no swings in mood aside from that which is a welcome change

i've been feeling very mannic.

so much so i've been laughing at all the random crap i've been saying over the past day or 2- very random stuff

[shery53]

feeling better than yesterday so that is big improvement thanks for asking

Originally Posted by kelly4519

I'm not getting really restful sleep. I know I don't dream much if at all lately. I take 25 to 50 mg seroquel, but I think it does nothing to help lift me out of a tired depressed mood. Time for a new psychiatrist. What is it about not getting REM sleep, do most of you have this problem?

I have had trouble with REM sleep for at least a year now. I find I am waking up during the night often; sometimes i just wake up, other times violent dreams wake me up.
I do not dream ecery time I sleep. Sometimes I feel like I am in twilight...not into REM sleep but definitely resting quietly and comfortably.

Thanks SpiritofaStorm, I wake up feeling exhausted and lately having pain too. I think I need different meds. But I've been on seroquel for quite a while. I don't think I'd "sleep" if that's what you call it, at all without it.
I'm glad your doing good

[roads]

I don't know what I need. The drugs are not working--therapy is not working. I'm just empty and I just want to let go. Each minute I have to work to find another reason to hope there'll be something I'll care about ... soon.

Nothing at all suicidal. Nothing like that. But the emptiness is tangible.

[angel24]

Originally Posted by liviacat

Sleepless, manic and probably going to lose my job. But hey, I've got you guys!

I've been getting manic lately, and i've been hereing and seeing things

[rossiv46]

I still can't shake this depression. I don't leave the house and stay in jammies all day. I don't know how to snap out of it. This sucks

I had a good day. Now just trying to stay out of trouble...

[liveforfish]

I had a great day! Very positive and fun day.

[Cocosurviving]

My day was mixed. I had moments of anxiety off and on all day. i tried relaxation techniques. I was in the house all day decluttering.

[Little Me]

Difficult week. Stress, downs , sadness and deep depression. When I get home from work or exercise I feel better. Weekends are better too. The sun helps too. I am despairing and feeling alone. Great therapists but no one else to talk to. My bipolar is from long and lots of trauma and everybody thinks I'm "all better now" so I have to put on the mask all the time. It's lonely under the mask.

[bluewave7]

In a depression...have been for a few weeks. Reading lots of romances. Don't want to go to the store and the fridge is empty, the sheets are dirty, crying a lot...wish I was dead in heaven.