[ACC_gal]

I have had IED for as long as me and my doctors can remmber.. problem is No matter what medicines I have tried.. NOTHING worked it either made me worse so that my temper was totally uncontrolable or it made me half a zombie and crying all the time. I feel like my IED is getting worse as I age and I am tired of busting my own things everytime someone gets me angry... even on the computer if someone says something that I later think is not worth getting all that upset over and have had to replace something I broke or ruined. Or I scream at my poor mother and niece, later regret it and cry myself to sleep. is there NO hope for IED? In therapy now but it's still bad.. like a firecracker waiting to explode

I made an attempt to look it up ...the IED

the first thing that came up was "improvised explosive device"

seems you have unique skills maybe a perfectly overblown perception and this world is just way too fragile for you.

I live alone because I have a seriously terrible temper and otherwise I'm a mouse!...like WTF?

I like to change the abbreviates!...IED

"inventive emotional disaster"

I smashed my bed last night...instead of laying into it as usual I really 'layed' into it!

[BlueInanna]

Good for you being open and talking about it. We all live in these separate houses and tempers have to worse than anyone may know about.

I know I can have a temper, seems to run in the family. We've considered the IED dx for my son, 17. He's been breaking everything in sight for about 6 yrs now. Holes in the walls, doors pulled off walls. But the dx is still just bp right now. He's mellowed out a bit with law enforcement getting involved. Meds really don't seem to do much. Pot seems to help honestly. Therapy helps, talk therapy or REBT where u "abc" stuff to try and catch your triggers and slow down enough to choose your reaction. Will tell u more about that one if ur interested.

[Darth Bane]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

I made an attempt to look it up ...the IED

the first thing that came up was "improvised explosive device"

seems you have unique skills maybe a perfectly overblown perception and this world is just way too fragile for you.

I live alone because I have a seriously terrible temper and otherwise I'm a mouse!...like WTF?

I like to change the abbreviates!...IED

"inventive emotional disaster"

I smashed my bed last night...instead of laying into it as usual I really 'layed' into it!

oh dear ... dont you remember your lows,depression ... i remeber doing things i would have never ever done in my right mind ... i am sure i never cared anything then let alone the spelling mistakes and short forms ....i guess you are in bad mood now

[Darth Bane]

Originally Posted by ACC_gal

I have had IED for as long as me and my doctors can remmber.. problem is No matter what medicines I have tried.. NOTHING worked it either made me worse so that my temper was totally uncontrolable or it made me half a zombie and crying all the time. I feel like my IED is getting worse as I age and I am tired of busting my own things everytime someone gets me angry... even on the computer if someone says something that I later think is not worth getting all that upset over and have had to replace something I broke or ruined. Or I scream at my poor mother and niece, later regret it and cry myself to sleep. is there NO hope for IED? In therapy now but it's still bad.. like a firecracker waiting to explode

watch "Stephen Fry The Secret Life of the Manic Depressive"

read books "The secret" and "Awaken giant within" they will help ..

improve yourself step by step .... and keep saying to yourself "All i can do is to try my best" ... this will help,trust me i have decade of experience with BP

Originally Posted by Darth Bane

oh dear ... dont you remember your lows,depression ... i remeber doing things i would have never ever done in my right mind ... i am sure i never cared anything then let alone the spelling mistakes and short forms ....i guess you are in bad mood now

..I probly was...

[Debi54]

I have found that my temper has mellowed some with age (I'm 43 now). When I was younger, I used to break everything in sight, and rage for hours till I calmed down. Now that I'm on treatment, it takes me a little longer to get that angry. And when I do, I have found the practice of picturing my children's faces keeps me from doing anything really crazy that will wind me up in jail, or anything else I might regret. Then I try to remove myself from the situation until I calm down.