I hate this..........two good days and then boom. Then two more good days and down again. Bipolar is so hard. I think part of it is the move. But I can also feel the physical part. So......I'm taking the meds and trying to stay busy............p

[darkeyes]

((((((((( fayerody )))))))))))
It may not all be the bipolar thing,the move and stress can do this too.
But naturally, having bipolar is never a help to us under such situations.
Just take care of yourself,
Roe

thanks, roe......it's that pissy feeling that you already have enough on your plate and then the bottom drops out....you know? i stayed up really, really late last night reading so that didn't help my mood today. i did findout who the serial killer was though.

being a bipolarbearian can be a trial.....love, pat

Pat I am going through the same thing right now.

Up one day, down for three or four. then up again... It is hard isint it.

Yeesh.

I wish i could take a vacation from it. This time I know the culprit though I had to go without meds for two days due to finances, and it threw me about.

I know your under alot of stress right now. Could it be triggering you?

i do think that situational stuff is affecting me a lot. Bill, the $ and just being in a new place......i'm just far enough from my daughter to not burn the gas to drive in.....you know all that stuff. but she may come out here tomorrow.....xoxoxp

[darkeyes]

((((((((((( Pat ))))))))))))

Well at least you know its situational, in a way.

i find it is even harder for me when there is no good reason to be low and Im low. Feels icky and blah.

I am rootin for ya girl.

[TXMeme]

I have been manic for a few weeks now...mainly my mind is convincing me somehow that I do not need to sleep. I literally fell off the deep end and went nuts I guess. I ended up going to my doctor to get some help to straighten me back out. I'm starting to come down from the mania but I'm finding that instead of stopping at a somewhat normal state of mind I'm heading straight for depression. I would love to stop somewhere in the middle instead of this up or down thing. It gets on my nerves so badly. I get so angry and tell my husband that I'm not mad at him or anyone else,,,,just angry at my bipolar disorder. I end up taking it out on everyone around me and then have to go behind myself and clean up the messes I've made. I just want to scream!!

it is far too easy for me to go off when i'm shifting. i try to step back and realize that it is the bipolar that is causing so much strain on my head and body. it is a physical thing with me too. i can tell almost before it gets started good.

i've noticed that i'm even short with my pets. and that makes me feel like ----. they, of all, shouldn't have to listen to me yell. being bipolarbearian is the pits, isn't it? but, at least we can come here and find a shoulder.......

[darkeyes]

(((((((((( fayerody )))))))))

Thank God for our pets, they really have patience with us, eh? LOL!
They are truly a blessing.
Roe

[Rebound]

Ok, so it's a little late in coming, but here's my 2 cents....

I hope you're doing a bit better by now Fay. The up and down thing can be a real drag, I know. I'm having a similar sort of time lately. Up just long enough to start making plans and try to get stuff happening and then it all goes down the tubes when the low hits.

There're two things I've found which can make a difference. First, try not to rush anything. No matter what it is, good, bad, pleasant, unpleasant, pace yourself. Second, take time for yourself to just sit back and recharge. I dunno if it will help, but it does for me.

I know I haven't been around much for a while, but I'm still checking in on you mooks now and then so you better keep on taking care of yourself

rebound, you're a honey. i'm trying to handle it, but the added stress of moving and haivng a deadline is eating my lunch. i was great saturday, nothing yesterday and good today. tomorrow is the day to pull the trailer to texas...............pray hard, please. xoxox pat

[darkeyes]

Rebound,
That is excellent advice/suggestion.
And it is true, it really can help.

DE

i made it back............the advice was good. xoxox pat

[darkeyes]

That's great. Isn't this forum supportive and even fun at times?
Take care and be sure to put some time aside for yourself.

Roe

if you could only see how much unloading and unpacking i have.............................eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. but my mood is so good because i'm BACK in Texas.......i am a different person here.

as soon as i got about 100 miles from Lawton, i had a severe panic attack in the truck. i thought i was going to hyperventilate and vomit.......i had to stop and take a xanax and walk around for quite awhile. that's how much that town affects me. i expect my creativity to really soar here.

[Rebound]

Wunnerful, wunnerful

I'm glad to hear you are doing well. Here's to lot's more of the same.