I hate LOWS!

I hate the fact just a couple days ago I felt awesome and feel like crud today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know that feeling, it sucks. The best we can do, is just tell ourselves, "this shall pass".
It does pass, it just seems to take so long, I know.
I'm in a funk right now, and have been for a few months, I'm trying to just keep looking for when I'm out of it,ugh
My being in the begining of menopause isn't helping, the hormone shift,moods,fatigue, make things suck more, but we shall survive that, women have for centuries.
Hang in there, and hang out here and vent, we can all join in, even turn some of this negative stuff into dark sarcasm,getting some laughs in to replace the time.
Just a thought.

Roe

((((((((((((( cherybery )))))))))))))

BTW
I get a kick out of "Stewey", and like your little pic here.

((( cherybery )))
Sorry you are feeling cruddy. I also know that feeling. I hope you feel awesome again very soon. Yes, it does seem like it will take forever for it to go away, but it WILL happen. You are in my thoughts.

it is a sucky situation!! i'll have two "top of the world" days and then three "lower than a snake's belly" days........i know it will pass, but why do we even have to have this disease?????????????

Lows suck. They just suck.

I hear ya last week I was on top now well I cannot get anything done

missy,
I know that,damn feeling, it absolutely sucks!!!!!
I've been spiraling since late Feb., I think, due to my caregiving (mistake,I should of just had her put in nursing home) has really excelerated my plummeting.
I do see my pdoc for my once every 2 months for maintenance soon, so I will have to tell him that I am not doing as well as I had been . . . need a lifesaver tossed?
I have no answers,at a loss, but try to just hang in there, with meds.,pdoc appts. and/or therapy, we can get through this and know the "upside" will come.
Too bad, though, not as soon as we would like to see that
"upside" come.
Just hang in there, hang out here, and things can be "softened" in some ways.
Just my personal take on this, so please excuse me if I am way off on your post.
Please take care,
DE

<font color="#00088">I suppose I must have jumped on here at the right time... It appears that we're all 'cycling' at the same rates - to an extent maybe? Any agreement out there

... And yes, these 'lows' are just HORRIBLE... I'm now going into a low, after a week-long battle with the 'high'... I destroyed my laptop the other night, in my sleep, and didn't know it.... I'm basically on 24/7 watch with my partner and whomever else comes in this house... It's BS that I have to be watched like a little kid, but i can understand why......

Hell I'm probably looked at as "Stable Mable" who is going to end up with a knife over someone's head as they wake up... That is my greatest fear and to ensure it doesn't happen, they've put an alarm on my door so if I DO get up during the night and do not know it, it will wake up the whole house.....

It went off this AM at around 2:30 AM and NEVER woke me up - but they did when I was fighting them to get back into my bed... I thought they were my good ol' 'head friends' and did not realize they were the people I lived with... My BP crosses with several disorders, and this new cocktail I'm taking is apparently NOT the answer.....

But as we know, more than 5 minutes with the P-Doc is considered a luxury!!! All I do is wait until the next appt's... all I do, all I know, all I live for......

If this is what I'm in store for the rest of my life, this is hardly worth it - period... At age 28, I don't even want to see age 29.... I don't care anymore bcuz I am SICK - very SICK of all of this... And I am not alone with respect to having to fight the social security system... I haven't got the denial yet, but I'm not too positive about getting it.... So much paperwork and so much red-tape.... It overwhelms me/us and just adds to the whole BS situation.....

Well, I'm just a "debbie downer' today and time for me to shut up..... I apologize to all of ya... I'll ensure I keep my mouth shut (or fingers tied up) the next time I decide to just let the words flow onto the screen..... I do have ya'll in my thoughts/prayers.... and I do thank u for listening to this......

~Niko </font>

Niko, you are not a "debbie downer" (I get a kick out of that skit) you are doing what you and the rest of us need, talk it out,vent, etc. I agree about the Pdoc's spending just a few minutes, the more minutes the more money, for 15-20 minutes I pay 140 dollars, our new insurance plan is paying a portion, but it is high, heck 140.00 for a few minutes? Adds up to a lot of money earned per 8 hours. Then the rest of the monies earned at the hospital when he is called in there.
I know you can't see it now but don't give up, it's the depression demon, it tries to steal you away, but don't let it. 6 yrs ago I was at the exiting point (suicidal thoughts with a .357 in hand),I put it down,left the house, and called my former T, he called pdoc and they had me sign myself in for a 10 day stay, started me on meds and observed how I did with them before discharge. It took me a few years to lose the resentment I held towards my husband, who's cheating triggered (no pun intended) the whole thing,before his cheating,I was doing great,going to college part time, in my early 40's and raising a kid (he's the main thing that kept me wanting to live)but I guess I just forced myself to hang on, cause all things must pass/change. Since that time, meds and therapy has saved me, they have made certain changes with meds, but since my change to Lamictal things are alright.
I was your age, about 20 years ago, don't let depression make you think you will always feel this way.
Hook up with a good pdoc and or a behavioural health department at a local hospital, something to help fight off this, and work with some treatment plan, it helps to.
Take care and vent any time,
Roe

for you niko and darkeyes......for your shoulder, N and for you..darkeyes...what a lovely and thoughtful post. thank you very much.........ethel

Thank you ALL! Sorry it took me so long to get back to this thread. I hope everyone is hanging in. Niko, I too hope things starting going your way. You too are in my thoughts.((((((((((((NIKO)))))))))))))))))
((((((((((((((Roe))))))))))))))))))....your awesome! Thank you for your positive post. Your right, it has gotten better in the last 24 hours. My cycles tend too rollercoaster so fast for me sometimes.
(((((((((((((((Missy))))))))))))))I hope you are feeling better as well.
((((((((((((((((((ethel))))))))))))))) what can I say, you rock!
(((((((((((((((Mental Pollution)))))))))))) Thank you as well for your uplifting words!

((((((((((((((((((wifighter)))))))))))) hope you are doing ok! Have not been on for a couple of days.

((((((((( cherybery ))))))))))))



Roe

Anytime Cher - ANytime.... Despite my extreme hellish "LOW" right now, I still am able to muster up the strength to give some positive notes others' ways... It is the least I can do..... Now if I can only do that for myself, we'd be in a good position.....

I have some more bad news that I'm posting in another separate thread.... It just goes to show how this disease has NO mercy on us.....

Love ya and hugs to u too hun... N