Im Back

Well I am back I am done with treatment and have successfully come off all medications for bipolar like I had been wanting to do. I do still take zoloft for ocd but i would drive everyone around me crazy if I went off of that. I am starting to feel back to normal again after the terrible six months of treatment I went through. All of my blood and everylthing is getting back to normal and mentally I havent felt this good iin a long long time. My mind is very clear. I believe its because Im not on medications. Does anyone else know anything about this? I mean this is the first time I have felt like myself in years. My husband even commented said i seemed like the old crystal again. Im supposed to stay on meds and go to the psychiatrist and psychologist or they will take away my disability. I feel like the meds make me worse.

Congrats Your success. Where you in the hospital 6 months? I sounds like your where you want to be now. Good to hear.

wow that is great for you! I would love to not have to take meds and feel great. I need them to function in life, however. My doc told me I will have to stay on them for life. I noticed you were on abilify. How did that make you feel?I had a bad reaction with heart palpations, nervousness, insomina at only 1 mg!

When I first started taking abilify it pullled me out of a very deep depression.
But when I started my treatment the medications didnt mix well with it the abilify then caused me to become extremely agitated to the point that I wanted to hurt someone. I quit taking them immediately.

I think it is a very powerful drug. It took me out of my depression within 3 days which was great. I could tolerate the insomnia, I could sleep some just not great, and I could tolerate the headaches and take an ativan for the nervousness but the day I landed in the ER with my heart rate up to 160 that really scared me and I cant deal with that, so I am back to feeling depressed now. At least I am sleeping I guess!

Moremi

I am so glad to hear you are doing fantastic Enjoy Enjoy Enjoy !

Crystal, dear, how lovely! I have been thinking of you. And with such great news!

It's a tough choice. I'd stay on the meds.

So glad to see you back!!!! Thought about you lots. I am so happy for you! I have to keep it real short right now. But that was my experience as well. If you are doing well, have the right tools in place for you and a plan I see no reason to look backwards. Just go forward. I'd seriously try to continue on what you are doing. Things change, people change.. and the meds can actually make things harder ..chasing a circle of symptoms with meds that create more of the same. And that is a bit crazy as well. If thats how you felt that is valid.

I will come back tomorrow and catch up with you. You should not be bullied into medicating yourself. Thats not really ok and is wrong on several fronts, there might be a way out of that. I have the same issue.

Crystal!!!! I've been thinking about you and wondering if you were OK. Thank God!!

Glad to hear you're so much better. I wonder sometimes what would happen if I stopped meds, but then I remember what I was like before I started on them and realize that's just the BP talking. Some people can manage this thing without meds, and you appear to be one of them; I'm not that lucky. Congratulations on your new-found health!

Hi Crystal, I'm so glad that you are checking in and updating us! I am glad that you are feeling so well off of your meds. I guess if you are taking at least one med that qualifies you for your benefits. Do they rely on med reports?
Stick with us and let us know what is going on in your world.
Bluemountains

Hey! Good to see you again!
Glad to hear it's going well -- yea!

So good to see you on PC Crystal!
Happy to hear you are happily off your meds they really are not for everyone, but doctors are not in the habit of warning us, because they gotsta keep the crazies off them streets!

My mum's friend also has to be med-compliant to keep her disability, so she collects her meds and sees her pdoc, but she flushes them down the loo

I felt worse on meds too, too many side effects, too little personality. I rediscovered Ophelia some months after quitting mine...

So happy for you and hope you go from strength to strength on this new path of yours

that is all great to hear... and hope you continue to thrive. Just rembember... you can get through a lot.

this so many times.

Also, i don't think it's mere "lucky". I am sure you are working hard to get where you are.

Thank you all for your support. I think I am going to go back to see the pdoc and just flush the meds he prescribes so that it shows that I am being compliant for my disability. You are all wonderful. Thank you so much

I think you should trash them so they end up in the landfill instead of contaminating municipal waters. Or give to a pharmacist (at a different pharmacy) for proper disposal.

Flushing them couldn't be much worse than flushing the poop made after taking the meds

Very happy to see you Crystal!

Probably a higher amount.

Glad to see you back.

Thanks everyone for your comments, they all mean a lot to me. You guys on this forum are in fact the only people who truly understand me. I dont have to hide anything with you and you accept me and build me up and make me stronger for it. In real life people are stand offish about bipolar. The once popular girl in high school who everyone wanted to be is now being whispered about behind her back about how shes crazy and blah blah blah...who gives a **** right? life goes on and I still got the guy so all in all its not so bad right?

Hey you! Your back! Awesome! You know what's best for you. I'm happy that you are pro active and doing what is best! You were totally missed here, and once again, WELCOME BACK!