I drank the equivalent of 10-15 cups of coffee in the morning (basically saying I don't care if I get a heart attack) so I felt sevearly depressed, at the end of the day i tried to work out for the first time in two years, lasted 15 minutes to the point where I needed to throw up (not because of coffee.) I had given up all complete hope, was about to quit my job and maybe skip school tomorrow.. Then out of no where, I had something of what someone with bp would call 'slight mania'. Completely incredible as if I were drunk. I immediately took advantage of it by dancing, getting really exited, went for a walk with my iPod in -15 degree weather.

However, this is not some sort of recovery I would bet. Take a look at this paragraph on the effects of caffeine;

"If a person were injected with 500 milligrams of caffeine [less than the dosage in some 16-ounce brews], within about an hour he or she would exhibit symptoms of severe mental illness, among them hallucinations, paranoia, panic, mania, and depression. But the same amount of caffeine administered over the course of a day only produces the milder forms of insanity for which we take tranquilizers and antidepressants."

The reason that I feel that I should not get diagnosed is because I'm starting to accept who I am. whether it's teenage hormones or bipolar or even acute antisocial Behaviour, I would just rather not know at this point.. 3 years of fluctuating happy mood swings with mostly just sevear suicidal depression, and now I can't even sleep. (at this point the caffeine should have been long out of my system).

I'll wait until I'm older. If depression occurs I'm not sure maybe it'll change again but I'm ok with what it is now. Not quite sure actually.. Very confusing.. I have no desire to have friends. Although I did during that weird time of happiness today as if I were going to night clubs 2.5+ years ago. It's embarrassing and make me really think.. How different my life would be without depression..

I've heard that caffeine definitely causes mania in Bp. Any experiences?

[cocoabeans]

If I drink a certain kind of energy drink, the formula was recently changed and isn't available in its proper form in Canada anymore, I will not sleep and find myself quite excited.

I have no idea how much an ounce is but, a cup of coffee (250 ml) has between 90 and 120 mg of caffiene. You may need to double check your sources there.

15 cups is ridiculous and would keep you up even hours after drinking it. Would also cause plenty of nausea and mood changes.

Diagnosis is a waste of life unless you want to take the medication and concern yourself with your ups and downs worrying that you're going crazy when you're really very happy or experiencing something that would have been meaningful otherwise. When you're diagnosed, inspiration is disease. Insight is psychosis.

[Darth Bane]

its your choice to wait till you are older before thinking about taking meds.... i don't take meds and it is constant struggle with me and negative thoughts... when you are young all those hormonal chemical changes are going on and adding meds into them is not great idea... but you can at least get diagnosis.... when i was diagnosed with bipolar 2 i was kind of relieved... i understood whats going on with my brain... lots of questions were answered...

Yeah I feel awful today.. Not taking meds.. Wise choice but maybe not. We will struggle together. (not saying that people that take meds don't struggle either..)

[Victoria'smom]

Whether you accept who you are or not determent whether you need/want help. Medication is not the only option. It's an option worth investigating. Please don't cancel your appointment. Usually when I want to cancel it means I need to go. Meds come with there own issues so options need to be weighed. One of the biggest "side-effects" are learning how to adjust to the medicated you. The biggest problem I seem to handle is thing crash down differently.

[Moose72]

That sounds like a crash waiting to happen. I hope you have kept your appointment.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by Wired wrongly

I drank the equivalent of 10-15 cups of coffee in the morning

What was the purpose of consuming so much coffee in one morning?

I drink lots of coffee because it just.. I don't really know.. Something to do while I'm depressed I guess..

I'm moderately depressed again.. (instead of mild..)

I might as well go.. It's just that, the guy I have to go to says that "he only does adults" but then. Decided to do it but my mom can't call.. I have to do it for some reason.. Should I still go? Is that normal?

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by Wired wrongly

I drink lots of coffee because it just.. I don't really know.. Something to do while I'm depressed I guess..

I'm moderately depressed again.. (instead of mild..)

I might as well go.. It's just that, the guy I have to go to says that "he only does adults" but then. Decided to do it but my mom can't call.. I have to do it for some reason.. Should I still go? Is that normal?

No, adolescent issues are specific and you should go see someone who at least specializes in adolescents if not treats adolescents exclusively.

Coffee is considered a mild AD, but it is no reason to drink so much of it. Can you limit coffee to, say, 3 cups a day?

[BlueInanna]

I don't know how old you are, but if you're 16 or 17, I think that's close enough to see the adult pdoc. I have a 17 yr old son, there are certain instances where they require he talk to people, like I can't do it all for him anymore. One hospital would not release his records to his therapist with my signature, they needed his signature. Another hospital said that was bullcrap, so I really don't know. But try to go to the appointment, it's just an appointment. You can then decide what to do next from there, even get a second opinion if you don't agree with this one. I think it's good to get information and education about options. Good luck with it.

[aquaman]

I don't know if caffeine makes me manic, but it puts me in a good mood and gives me lots of energy. If I drink too much though I begin to feel sick and have digestive issues. Once the caffeine wears off I'll settle down into whatever "default" mood I happen to be in.

All my weird thoughts and rituals explained! There is with out a doubt that I have OCD. My mom actually pointed that out for me. I know that it started in early to late childhood before the depression. And there Is a cure. No more putting my back against the wall while I sleep in fear of a dead rotting corpse in my bed, no more always having to check the bathtub every time I walk into the bathroom so I don't see either a dead corpse of murderer, or even not being able to leave the house without touching my cat.

Odcs usually suffer from depression as well but need 2-4 times the initial antidepressant dosage apparantly.. Imma see them.. Yes I am almost 17.

Did you find this out at your appointment? Or did you read something that set off bells? (Trying to figure out time...Is your appointment scheduled for Friday? I can get very mixed up, so don't mind me -- could be way off! )

No no I'll be finding out today when my appointment is.

I'll be writing up my symptoms on the OCD thread later. I wrote over six pages of the symptoms yesterday. Weird weird disorder. Very relieved.

Although it's starting to get worse now because I'm thinking of it..