[faerie_moon_x]

So yesterday afternoon my focus was on fire! Like I sat in one place and did the same repetative task for 4 hours without a break and then had to force myself to move on to a different task because it was the end of the day. But I also completed that task which I often also struggle with...

So... I have no idea why it was different? I've been trying to track my triggers and things. And yesterday otherwise was completely stressful. So I have no idea what caused me to switch on and be able to focus like that.

Today it seems to be gone again.

[Trippin2.0]

I perform much better under stress, providing its an agreeable amount of course.

Too little and I feel unchallenged, demotivated and unfocused, my mind starts wondering to god knows where because I dont even daydream (dont remember how to) and things just drag along way too slowly for my liking.

I dont know where the switch is though, I'd prefer to flick it at will.

I wish I had definitive answers for you sis

[faerie_moon_x]

It makes me sad you don't remember how to daydream.

I daydream all the time. Or I go on little tangents. Or I get distracted. Or... so many or things.

I found a free cognition brain testing site... Welcome - Cambridge Brain Sciences

[Trippin2.0]

Thanks DH:
Cognitive abilities plays a huge part in how stable I am, because cognitive decline sends me spiralling immediately!

[cool09]

My switch has permanently gone haywire. Been trying to get it under control for 35 yrs. I have no idea how I'm going to feel five minutes from now or what my concentration is going to be like.

[faerie_moon_x]

Sometimes I wish I could just let go and let the tornado in my head carry me. Maybe it's trying to take me somewhere. But because I have to be here, I can't go with it. You can't keep a tornado in a box, but we all try.

[Trippin2.0]

Mahn do i know what you mean!

Sometimes I just wanna follow the crazy as if it were the pide piper going down the rabbit hole!

But my life does not condone such untoward irresonsible behavior....

[H3rmit]

> I've been trying to track my triggers and things. And yesterday otherwise was completely stressful. So I have no idea what caused me to switch on and be able to focus like that.

Maybe having a stressor that you could safely block out gave you the pressurization to do something else with focus. My best music practise was always when I knew there was a deadline like having to leave to go out or having the house to myself until people came home, and then I could concentrate fully knowing there was an end to it. In your case, knowing you could safely set the stressors aside and be free from them by being absorbed may have been the draw. Just an idea - of course I have no idea what went on in your mind.

[NuckingFutz]

I can relate Dark Heart... I love those moments of focus and clarity, I really do appreciate them when they happen. I chalk this up to my nurons working well with my meds. Otherwise, like you, I don't know what my day will be like or how I will feel and how many feelings I will feel.

I just embrace those focused moments, cherish them and look forward to them in the future...whenever that will be.

[faerie_moon_x]

I am actually looking into taking some vitamins but maybe especially some B12, D and some Omega 3 and some DHA (that stuff they put in baby formula to help their brains grow.) I don't know if there's a multivitamin that does all four that doesn't cost an arm and a leg. And we all know how I forget to take any type of pills. But maybe if I even just remember once or twice a day it will help.