Bipolar letters

Dear Bipolar

You have robbed me of everything I once had: healthy relationships, intelligence, a sense of humor, a job, hope, creativity, patience and replaced it with anger, frustration, hopelessness, dullness and self-hatred.

Please go away and let me reclaim what I rightly deserve - a life.

Me

Dear Bipolar,

I hate you so very much today. And not for me this time. Why must you make people suffer so much? What have we done to deserve your torment? We have families and friends that we want nothing more to understand what we are going through. But they will never understand us. So you force us to suffer in silence, in a degrading silence that no one will ever understand.

**** you.

Bipolar,

I need you to stop your **** ! I have to much going on for you right now. You already making me put off school yet again. I've lost track of days and at times flipping ****. I need you to let me have a break. I have so many things going on I need to feel mostly sain. Don't mess with my family so we can get our heads above water.

Grr,
MM

P.S. don't **** with my son after his surgery.

Dear meds,

You have definitely changed my tolerance of alcohol. Although I was not really DRUNK last night... I could actually feel the 4 rather small and relatively weak drinks I'd made for myself. They were delicious and I don't really mind having a lower tolerance as long as I find out what the limit is so I can keep track...

But to wake up this morning without any hangover but an ANNOYING STOMACHACHE?! This is not tolerable! No! I even had toast before I went to bed so what do you think you are doing?! You had better solve this issue...
-Me

Dear depression side of bipolar:

Can you go on vacation too please? I'm on vacation, and I know that it is going to be a fun time. But you are sticking around hogging valuable space in my heart and brain. I don't really need the reminders that this is just a vacation and that life will go back to it's shi**y normal at the end of the month. I don't really need a third wheel, you see? So please. Go on your own vacation. Go anywhere you wish and for as long as you wish, with a minimum stay of a month! Just please stop hogging my thoughts, I'd rather have them used for happy things.

Thanks for your (in)consideration,
Me.

Dear Bipolar,
Speaking of vacations....

Bipolar we don't belong together. I don't accept you nor our relationship or that you are a part of my life. Like a bad Vegas vacation, I go to some Pdoc and come back married to you. Till death do us part yeah right. It's a mistake, it didn't happen. Heck it was just a trip to the doc and now look at this. I won't tell a soul about it because as they say what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas.

I don't' belong with you. I still believe we don't fit together. There must be some mistake.

To my dearest hypo,
I had a blast with you last night. And the past 2 months. You seriously blow my mind with how sexy you are... I want it all night every night. You are so much fun we don't even ever need to sleep. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your magic is intense, a cosmic collision of destiny, stars pulsating with love! I worry you don't feel the same about me and I'm getting too obsessed & needy. I know you don't want forever with me, and I fear I may die without you. Please don't leave me I will make you so happy I promise!
Love always your soulmate forever,
C

I want my depression to be treatable without going manic

Dear Bipolar
Please give me some respite without the constant swinging from depression into mania with no break of "normality" It is so exhausting and I'm getting too old for this.

Dear Bipolar-

All of my life, you have tried to define me, all the while I have been trying to be unpredictable- but not in the way you have made me.

When you are undecided, I become mixed up and this is the greatest hell in skin. When you fuel me higher, I am like Icarus and burn my wings...then come crashing down. I love you and hate you. I want you and want you to leave.

Can you be a dear and help me to learn more about you? That way I could prepare a little bit better on how to deal with you. Be more direct and clear when you are ready to swing, that would bet he coolest thing.

dear bipolar, please get out of my head, you don't need to be in it 24 hours a day, with thoughts I cant control. The constant obsessive thoughts, never end

Dear Hypo,
Sorry but I've changed my mind. I don't want to be with you anymore. You're way too unpredictable and honestly I think you need to get your head checked. Don't get me wrong, you were a lot of fun, but I don't like your mood swings, your unhealthy habits, the way you get angry and flip out on people. I'm looking for friends who contribute to the relationship. You just use abuse and drain me, come & go as you please. You probably have a commitment phobia. Find someone else's head to mess with. Bye.
C

Dear Depression;

First, I actually want to thank you. I know that you don't get thanked very often, so I feel that I will show you that caring. Thank you for being mild right now. Thank you for only making me feel sad, and not destroyed. I can handle sad.

However. I really shouldn't be feeling even a little bit sad right now, because I am with friends who I know care about me very much. And I'm in a lovely big city. So why can't I really decide what to do? And why am I so tired? I slept 9 hours last night, and yesterday I had a nap. I did not do much yesterday because I was so tired.

I know that it's just a little sad, but I don't want to even be feeling that right now. I really need this month. You've been around for most of my life, so I know that asking for this one month to myself isn't too much in comparison to the time you spend with me. It really should be a month where I can be without you, alright?

Please take this plea into consideraton!
-Me

Dear Bipolar:

Thanks for finally sending that depression away! Let's make a deal to keep it away for a whole year yeah? Please?

Thank you in advance!

Dear Bipolar,

I despise your lows, I am destroyed by your euporic highs. I wish you would leave me alone. I love the way you can make me feel but you have to take it too far everytime...and then you leave me crying and in desperation. Why are you so misleading? Why do you hate me so? I crave you, then I hate you. I hate your meds; I hate your destoyed relationships; I hate the way you make me hurt the people I love sometimes and destroy my life. Please leave.

With hatred,
Me

Dear bipolar,

Why do you **** with decent people? You let us get comfy let our guard down long enough to forget the rules of engagement. Just to swoop in and **** us some more with no actual way to cope. I understand your sole purpose is to torture us but stop being so damn good at it. We're good people, go away or stay just make a ****ing decision so we can plan around you.

Thank-you,
MM

Dear Bipolar,
I really hate what you have turned me into.
I hate you for causing so much pain for my family.
I hate you for causing so much sin in my life.
I hate your friend, Satan.
I hate you for ruining my relationship with my children.
I hate you for all the times I messed up morally.
I hate you for causing even more worry and stress for my family.
I hate you for all the times you made my loved ones the "bad guys".

You disgust me and I will always hate you,
Me

Dear Bipolar,

Because of you I make irrational decisions that seem completely logical at one point in time. You have robbed me of my closest of friends and dearest of family.

i started something like this on another forum... think it's a great idea for a thread

dear bipolar,

when are you going to learn that it's because of you my life is so screwed up, and that i've lost so many things in my life- such as good family and friend support, or most importantly my stability

i wish you would make up your mind about weather you want me to be up or down- because it is so draining to keep switching

SS

Dear SI,
I hate you and wish you would go away forever, from me and everyone else.
That's all.
Bye.

Dear bipolar,

Can you let me know the destination please? You are being very inconsistent with sleep and energy right now, and I'm not sure if I should be worried about it. Sometimes I'm tired, sometimes I'm wide awake, and the sleep isn't the best this past week. What are you doing?!?!

Please stay baselineish!

Dear Bipolar,

Thanks for ruining my life 3 years ago and taking 2 years to recover. Still not fully recovered thanks to you, and you do your damnedest to try to make me not function in the real world. So thanks a lot.

I hate you.

Dear Bipolar,

I'm not really sure you exist...but i've been told you do. Does that mean I should continue acting like you don't or take steps to figure out where you show your ugly head? I'm not really sure how I feel about you. I managed to ignore your existence ever since that psych visit many many years ago ... what's the rest of my life?

Dear Bipolar, please stabilize yourself already, I'm tired of this depression. I need you be at baseline, not manic, not depressed. I wish you were something that could just go away, you've wreaked so much havoc in my life.

Dear Bipolar,

You invade every aspect of my life. I never know what I will wake up to or face during the day. Right now you're winning, but I will get you under control one day.

Also, I wish people understood you more. It'd make life with you a little more tolerable.