Feeling so lost...

Not sure where I am at or where I am going anymore. It feels like a blur right now. There's just no enjoyment to life. Just feeling like i barely exist somedays around here.. not here but at home. Was invited to go to a craft show this morning and didnt go cause again of my back problems. I get so down , And then my bipolar acts up more.. the stress of everything I am feeling feeds that . I kinda invert and dont want to socialize. I feel like I am a burden to everyone anymore. I have no idea what my purpose on this earth is. What good am I doing here? I see nothing. Ive got nothing to offer anyone .. I know you guys say I do. But I just dont see it. I"m sorry I sound like a broken record lately. I am sorry that I drag everyone down. I am sorry for anything bad I make any of you feel. I'm just sorry.

I am feeling this with YOU....................... Sigh!! Why bother some days? - that is my motto.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

You are important to us. I see so many threads where you have been an important part of this place. Its a struggle sometimes and we just have to ride it out. Yuck! Heres a froggie hug (((((((((((ttbm))))))))))))

Hang on, Bethy...things will get better. Remember, you're really important to a lot of us here!

~Smiles~
DJ

hey tryin,I'm really sorry to hear you feel so down,I do understand all of how you feel,someone asked me how I pulled out of depression and honestly I dont know,but what I do know is I'll never go back there again,and am learning to block the demons by having a few good memories and thoughts and ambitions in my mind,it's hard work but when the bad thoughts jump in think of the good stuff and do that as often as you can.Excercise is really helpful,it releases or accesses the endorphines that help make you feel good,walking is good cause you don't have to talk to anyone if you don't want to,usually ppl just smile and keep going,it clears your head and gives you something else to stimulate the brain.It's a hard fight but you need to believe you can pull up and out of it,and you can,you need to want to be happy,dont let them keep you down.You need to control your mind,not the demons.Hang in there mate,I think you are a nice person,we have chatted often and you are one of the ppl in my list that I like.Be strong,fight hard and win.Get as much sleep as you can, it's hard to be strong when very tired.luk,hang in.