Just want them to go away

I am going to be 44 on October 4th. I was diagnosed as being bi-polar quite a few years ago and around the year 1994 ended up with a hospitalization that lasted for almost 2 months. At that time I was a very rapid cycler and my cycles have slowed down a lot since then. I was on Abilify but the side effects outweighed the benefits and I was taken off of it. I have been in a depressive state for about 3 days now but my head still will not turn off. My thoughts jump so quickly from one thing to another that at times I could not even tell you what I am thinking. I have much worse racing thoughts during Hypo-manic and Manic phases but this is still really bad. Is there anyone out there with this experience who has some advice for me? I really need help badly. My counselor has not returned my phone call and my appointment with my psychiatrist is not for another month. Please Help Me.

I tend to find things to do that REQUIRE me to use my brain a lot (sudoku is one of my favourites). It doesn't necessarily stop it, and it might take a while before I can get myself engaged... but it'll help use up some of my brain power because I will be trying so hard to focus.

Other than occupying my brain... not much else helps when I get the racing thoughts.

I just discovered Pinterest. It can keep my brain occupied for hours.

Call your pdocs office and see if there is an emergency number or an on call dr that can help you. If you can't reach them today, try to do something that will occupy yourself, pinterest is a good suggestion, then call your pdoc tomorrow. He may want to see you or may be able to call something in to the pharmacy to help. Depressed with racing thoughts is miserable.

I am so sorry. I know what you are going through though. I was on Abilify a few years ago but also had to be taken off of it and now can't afford any medical care at all. What I notice helps my thoughts is trying to keep my hands from being idol. While the amount of thoughts at once is still present, it tends to help slow them down a bit. Also, calming soft music helps, especially at night. I would also recommend that you remind yourself, no matter how small the accomplishment, even if it is just showering, or getting out of bed, that you did SOMETHING, even just looking on here for help, is better than doing nothing at all. That might help from feeling so down =/ I wish you the best of luck!