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#976
Apr 17, 2014, 07:36 PM
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Think depression is grabbing and pulling me down. Crying randomly, negative thoughts wanting to sleep all the time, life just seems to be beating me up.
Tig
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PTSD possible bipolar Meds: propranalol 20mg 2x's(blood pressure), lamictal 300mg, seroquel 100mg, effexor 75mg, sprycel 100mg (CML, chronic myeloid leukemia), iron supplement, multivitamin  |
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#977
Apr 17, 2014, 11:27 PM
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Getting maaaaaaanic...
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#978
Apr 18, 2014, 12:46 AM
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Feeling kind of bored right now. I don't have a lot of plans for the long weekend, and I can't really think of much I want to do anyway. I've been wanting off of saphris, but I haven't been able to successfully come off it. I have 4 days off now, so I think I'll skip it tonight and see how I feel, and maybe skip it again tomorrow. I'm on 10 mg, so it's probably a bad idea to stop it cold, but I only have 4 days off to play around with it. I don't mind if it causes hypomania, but I really don't want depression. I know this is a bad idea, but I want to do it anyway. I'm skipping my dose tonight, and I'll decide about tomorrow later. I'm going to stay on my lamotrigine and wellbutrin. It's just the AP that I want off of
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#979
Apr 18, 2014, 01:24 AM
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You sound resilient. I hope you are able to find a new job soon.
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#980
Apr 18, 2014, 01:29 AM
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I'm suffering. I love someone with whom I can never be. My T says I'm in love with just the fantasy. But I cannot stop thinking about this person.
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| Anonymous100104, happywoman
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#981
Apr 18, 2014, 08:40 AM
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I'm glad it's Friday, but mainly because during the week I'm stuck in a boring rut of activities, feeling powerless to change. Not sure what will be so different tomorrow (not much will change activity-wise) but at least Sunday we'll be going to Easter mass and to my brother's for a meal and Easter egg hunt! I'm still feeling distant from my husband. Not sure if this is real or imagined. He says he doesn't feel distant from me, but I sense we're not as close. Maybe it's just my depression and poor self image making it seem that way.
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#982
Apr 18, 2014, 09:25 AM
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Yesterday was crazy hypomanic. I flitted from one chore to the other eventually after hours of cleaning and organizing everything was actually done! I've never really finished everything I started when I'm hypomanic, but I actually completed some things. Happy about that today and feel like I'm way up in the clouds. Definitely euphoric like feelings going on. And my husband giving me the best goodbye before work makes it even better. Even though my brain is racing a million miles a minute and I feel like going skydiving or something g right now (and I'm afraid of heights) this is probably the most productive and positive I've felt in a really long time. I hope it's not fleeting...
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#983
Apr 18, 2014, 09:44 AM
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Dx: BP2 with GAD and OCD Seroquel 100 mg Risperdal 0.5 mg Clonazepam (Klonopin) 1.5 mg Buspar 5 mg Lamictal 200 mg Coversyl Plus for high blood pressure Crestor for high cholesterol Asmanex Ventolin  |
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#984
Apr 18, 2014, 10:33 AM
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The horrible pain from the depression has morphed into emptiness. I feel nothing now. Every day lasts so long, feel like I'm watching my life on screen and not really living it. I see no point to my existence.
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#985
Apr 18, 2014, 11:00 AM
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#986
Apr 18, 2014, 12:55 PM
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Charo & new, I feel what you are feeling.
A pit of nothingness is swallowing me up |
| Anonymous37807, charo224488, Curiosity77
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#987
Apr 18, 2014, 04:08 PM
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Turns out 2mg of klonopin is all I needed today to quiet my mind for a little while. I hope this feeling of calm and peace lasts longer than it did last time... I'm always the pessimist. Good feelings come and I'm waiting for that moment when it's all gonna suck again. I need to learn to enjoy the calm when I get it.
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#988
Apr 18, 2014, 06:07 PM
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I finally made it to Safeway for groceries. Now I have food. Yay! I also went to pick up my new glasses and they f****d up the prescription, big time. So I argued with the idiot girl for 1/2 an hour and they're making new lenses. For $700 you think they could do better than that. Grrr. I'm still wondering if I'm stable. I'm not quite sure what stable feels like - it's been a while. One day a time.
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Dx: BP2 with GAD and OCD Seroquel 100 mg Risperdal 0.5 mg Clonazepam (Klonopin) 1.5 mg Buspar 5 mg Lamictal 200 mg Coversyl Plus for high blood pressure Crestor for high cholesterol Asmanex Ventolin |
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#990
Apr 18, 2014, 07:25 PM
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#991
Apr 18, 2014, 08:14 PM
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Today is a good day.
emomom, why do you have a fox in your signature? Just wondering, foxes have special meaning to me.
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#992
Apr 18, 2014, 10:13 PM
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Feeling used, worthless, ashamed of who I am, good for nothing, unworthy of real love, just someone's "friend with benifits", last choice, P.O.S.!!
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#993
Apr 18, 2014, 11:42 PM
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 Just checking in. After a couple of months a with some very low times seem to be feeling mostly positive. Spending too much time adapting to work changes and I have made self care a lower priority which I have to watch! Sleeping well though. Sick of my meds... (Losing my hair) or maybe it's just due to getting older.
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#994
Apr 19, 2014, 01:39 AM
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Skipped first dose of Saphris last night, and I'm skipping tonight's dose too. Now it's almost midnight, and I'm writing a paper and feeling very wide awake. So far so good.
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"Does the body rule the mind, or does the mind rule the body?" "Those who feel the breath of sadness, sit down next to me. Those feel they're touched my madness, sit down next to me. Those who find themselves ridiculous, sit down next to me." |
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#995
Apr 19, 2014, 04:57 AM
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I had therapy yesterday wasn't too bad. We talked about my fear of going to the psychiatrist which is monday thank goodness. I think the mix of meds/doses I'm on right now are making me rapid cycle and mainly appear mixed. I've been cycling on two weeks (hypo) manic two weeks mixed 3-4 days deppressed then recycle. I'm excited nervous and anxious about the psychiatrist. If the weather cooperates we are going hiking in a national park today which normally helps when I feel like this. Need to go back to sleep.
Tig
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PTSD possible bipolar Meds: propranalol 20mg 2x's(blood pressure), lamictal 300mg, seroquel 100mg, effexor 75mg, sprycel 100mg (CML, chronic myeloid leukemia), iron supplement, multivitamin |
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#996
Apr 19, 2014, 08:20 AM
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Feeling a little overwhelmed today by all that I have agreed to do: laundry, visit my friend in the hospital, stop to pick up dessert for the family gathering tomorrow, walk the dogs with my husband, - - and ESPECIALLY picking leaves out of the rosebed. And then there's the pizza afterward until it's finally 5 and I can go up to my bedroom. Overwhelming, but I will give it my best shot.
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#997
Apr 19, 2014, 08:43 AM
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#998
Apr 19, 2014, 12:05 PM
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People are arseholes. I'm at a 3 today
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~ HEY! I run a site on mental health called The Manic Years. I'm looking for some brave souls to share their own personal encounters with mental health. Are you up for sharing your story? Please get in touch on themanicyears@gmail.com. Thank you  ~Follow my blog here; http://themanicyears.com Lola Olivia ~ 7/11/11 ~ my reason for breathing Bipolar Affective Disorder type 2 - (2013) 'Borderline traits' Dissociative episodes |
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#999
Apr 19, 2014, 12:06 PM
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Also, the consultant has requested to see me
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~ HEY! I run a site on mental health called The Manic Years. I'm looking for some brave souls to share their own personal encounters with mental health. Are you up for sharing your story? Please get in touch on themanicyears@gmail.com. Thank you ~Follow my blog here; http://themanicyears.com Lola Olivia ~ 7/11/11 ~ my reason for breathing Bipolar Affective Disorder type 2 - (2013) 'Borderline traits' Dissociative episodes |
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#1000
Apr 19, 2014, 05:31 PM
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I'm getting a dog
I'm getting a dog! I am so happy. Yay!!!! |
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