[Phoenix_1]

Still stuck at home. Fear of falling on the ice or social anxiety? I think both. Depressed.

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[Curiosity77]

I'm feeling OK today. I'm at work and I can actually concentrate. I'm worried that I'll feel depressed again when I get home, but for now it's better. I'm trying to motivate myself to go to the gym tonight, which I've been neglecting in the past couple months of depression. That feels a little ambitious, so I'll have to see how it goes.

Originally Posted by Curiosity77

And I'm also embarrassed about the thread I started about my therapist not believing in bipolar. It got a lot of responses, and it looked like the solution is obvious when I read the responses, but it's not that simple in real life. Anyway, I like this forum and I feel guilty for taking up too much space here. So I want to focus on supporting other people more. Hopefully that will help.

I've been embarrassed about plenty of posts and threads. Luckily most people here wont hold it against you, so please dont feel uncomfortable. Sometimes the advice is not what we expected, and sometimes its not correct. I saw your thread but once the arguement started I was not going to get involved. We know things arnt that simple in real life. Can you do some research into people who have tried that style of treatment and how much success they have had? Results speak for themselves, but I'd be looking for bad experiences as well.

Today is alright, triggered by an extremely graphic post on FB... Now Im obsessed and cant get the image out of my mind Im so sad that people just assume that everyone can handle that kind of crap. It has no place on social media. I dont want to block that group as it was really fun, but the image keeps showing up in my newsfeed despite getting rid of it 3 times.

[Roblovescats]

Having a bad evening now...

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[Cocosurviving]

My day was so, so. I'm working on taking my hair down, it in really small braids. I was stopped to when asked to do a favor. Picked up my daughter then I called to bust some bxxxs. I'm
helping my attorney get crap together for my disability case. I'm not going to lose this damn case! This judge has me fxxked up! I'm in it to win it! Agency acting crappy about giving up documents not a problem we'll just subpoena them. LOL

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[tigersassy]

Not doing well. I can't focus worth a hoot. When I do focus it's on made up perceptions in my head. I can tell you they are made up yet if I don't keep reminding myself they become real. I need these meds to work. I don't like this feeling. I've got a therapy appointment on friday and it isn't getting here quick enough. So many things to talk about. Work is so scattered since I can't focus.

Tig

[Roblovescats]

Guess I didn't check in today. I usually check in several times and feel guilty for blabbering. Getting manic and having to deal with what comes with it. Both good and bad that I am off this week because I don't like being home alone all day and hypersexual. Oh well. Didn't get much done today I don't know what happened to the time.

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I feel amazing. I've been doing what scares me. Stupid stuff like sleeping with the closet door open, but it is building into bigger things like getting out everyday. It's good, very good indeed.

[tigersassy]

Overwhelmed

Tig

[Phoenix_1]

Still depressed

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[Curiosity77]

I had kind of a hard day at work today, conflict with coworkers and an ethical dilemma about a patient, which isn't totally resolved.

But then I had a good therapy session after. I clarified with my therapist his take on not believing in the bipolar diagnosis. He believes in the existential experience of bipolar, but he doesn't believe it's biochemical. Personally, I think it's a combo of biochemical and existential. He told me he thinks I have a broken heart because I can't understand why people don't care about each other. I think that's pretty true. I'm still feeling a little down, but maybe starting to come out of depression.

[Moreta]

i seriously need to go on a diet. Went to put my pants on today, and they didn't fit. ugh. I need to find something healthy to eat for breakfast. That's a major part of the weight gain. I used to not eat breakfast b/c I could take lunch at 11, but now I don't get to go on lunch until 12:30, so it's kinda important that I eat.

[Grindstone]

Originally Posted by tigersassy

Overwhelmed

Tig

You are not alone. I think even 'normal' people feel overwhelmed much of the time. Thank you for sharing this; I feel less alone.

[Roblovescats]

What the funky town is with my brain. I'm all over the place lately. Mixed right now. No motivation but can't relax.

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[JoyDivision7680]

From 7am to 3-4pm I've been in a sad state, followed by half an hour of anger and then hypomania, woo-hoo!!!

[x_BabyG_x]

Highly IRRITABLE. Can't stop moving I want to sleep. The bad energy is back

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[Alone & confused]

Like HELL IN HUMAN FORM!
I'm sad
I'm PISSED OFF BEYOND BELIEF!
I'm hurt
I'm TIRED......
YOU NAME IT, IF IT'S NEGATIVE I'M THERE!!!

[Curiosity77]

I'm feeling pretty tired at the moment, but doing OK. I had a pretty good day at work, some good interactions with the patients and no conflicts with coworkers. I'm going to see David Foley from Kids in the Hall perform tonight, so I'm excited about that. Mostly a pretty good day.

[robosuplex]

just upped my dose of lamictal (docs orders). feeling indescribable and moody again after two days of starting to feel like everything was back on track.

can't stop thinking about society and how unfair it is. i just want to be seen as a human being... is that too much to ask? i wish i could get over it or find a way to make a difference but i don't know how.

[Notnrml85]

I'm angry for people expecting so much of me when I'm having such a hard time. I'm feeling guilty for being so angry, especially at family, for never understanding. I'm going through what I think is a mixed state and I feel like screaming in the face of the next person who tells me that I seem perfectly fine. I am very high functioning most of the time so usually my husband is the only one who really knows what's going on with me. And even he doesn't really understand how I feel. He's the most understanding patient guy, yet I still leave him cursing under his breath and walking away from me when I'm literally yelling at him telling him I need help. He says I'm the only one who can help myself, he can't help me. But sometimes I could just use some silent comfort. So tired of trying to explain myself to people who will never understand and getting those responses like "well, everyone had mood swings sometimes. You should be fine." Or my personal favorites "stop being so dramatic" or "you're overreacting."

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[Axiom]

Really depressed and extremely sensitive to sounds, lights and touch.. tired of this now.

[Phoenix_1]

It's official. I have cabin fever. I go back to physiotherapy on Monday so I'm hoping they give me the Ok to go out.

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[x_BabyG_x]

Anxious. Nervy. On edge. Irritable. Guilty.



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[Cocosurviving]

I spent a little time with my youngest daughter, youngest niece and nephew. My nephew (5 yrs old) works my area. He just whines a lot more than his sister (2 yrs old). I'm so glad that my meds are extended release. I can only deal with him in small doses. The highlight of my day is I finally got to talk to my bf since he's been re-stationed.

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[Roblovescats]

My eyes hurt. I'm tired. Feel like I got nothing done today...

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