[feferock]

In serious pain. The hospital gave me a scrip for norco with the other stuff but since it wasn't their clinic workers comp won't cover it. Their clinic prescribed me ultram which is a joke. I'm not sure how well the muscle relaxer works either because I'm still in pain. Ugh

Fefe(28) -bipolar II
Hubby(28)
Son(8)-aspergers and possibly ADHD and odd
Daughter(5)

Pdoc today, cannot get SH out of my head. Feeling a bit low too, but Im hoping that it is situational. I dont know how the appointment will go, Im nervous about it but thats not unusual for me. I just really really hope I dont give into the temptation of SH before I see my pdoc, that'll be a ticket back to hospital. Money is a real issue too, at this stage I cant afford to see my T on thursday. Im stressed about that, which perhaps is what is fueling the need to SH.

[Curiosity77]

Difficult day at work. My supervisor was questioning me about how I'm doing and my affect. I've been depressed for 2 months, and my affect is always flat unless I'm hypomanic. I lied and told him I was feeling sick today, and that was probably what he was seeing. I'm trying to decide whether to him that I have bipolar, but that I'm stable, or if I should just keep hiding it. He is a psychiatrist, and I'm a nurse practitioner. He supervises me clinically, so I review all my patients with him twice a month. I think that if he knew it might help him in giving me supervision because my personal experiences affect how I relate to patients, for example I very rarely have people certified. But it also might make him see me as fragile and question my judgment. The program I work at uses a recovery model, so there shouldn't be any shame in being in recovery from bipolar, but I'm worried. I want to tell him so that I can be more authentic, but I don't want it to hurt my career. I got some great feedback from this site already, but I'm open to hearing more if anyone has an opinion. I have an email written that I could send to him, but I haven't made up my mind if I should send it yet. So I've been pretty anxious all day.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by swheaton

Coco, you did a great, brave thing. Your daughter is safe.

Thx. I spoke to her today and took a few items to her.

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[Roblovescats]

Why am I so lazy? Ugh! I have too much work to do. No energy. Hello pillow!!! Aaah. Zzzz drool

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[Cocosurviving]

I'm feeling a little better today. I had a few crazy dreams last night. I got to sleep since school was closed. I've been having major probs with my iPhone 5 I basically learned all the 5 models suck axx. As I mentioned in a prior post I spoke to my daughter who is in-patient mental health.

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[Phoenix_1]

Originally Posted by feferock

In serious pain. The hospital gave me a scrip for norco with the other stuff but since it wasn't their clinic workers comp won't cover it. Their clinic prescribed me ultram which is a joke. I'm not sure how well the muscle relaxer works either because I'm still in pain. Ugh

Fefe(28) -bipolar II
Hubby(28)
Son(8)-aspergers and possibly ADHD and odd
Daughter(5)

Fefe, are you on an SSRI or SNRI? My Epocrates app, which is a drug app used by R.N.s says that ultram with those drugs can cause serotonin syndrome. Maybe go back to the clinic tomorrow and check it out or phone your pharmacist.

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[x_BabyG_x]

Up for the day at 4.30 am. Don't start work until 8 I am ready for today!! Happy Tuesday!!

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[Crazycatlady82]

So sad today, feeling very lonely, wishing for companionship in a physical sense, like hugs or someone to hold hands with. Stupid feelings are so annoying, they get in the way of real life.

spent most of yesterday helusinating. 1 intense helusination to another so i'm pretty drained today.

on the plus side, it's pancake day so later maybe a few pancakes with sugar and lemon for me

mmmm

[feferock]

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

Fefe, are you on an SSRI or SNRI? My Epocrates app, which is a drug app used by R.N.s says that ultram with those drugs can cause serotonin syndrome. Maybe go back to the clinic tomorrow and check it out or phone your pharmacist.

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No I'm unmedicated in the bipolar aspect. Since about September October. So no worries there. Thank you though. My pharmacy would normally catch that but I had to use my works pharmacy.

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Hubby(28)
Son(8)-aspergers and possibly ADHD and odd
Daughter(5)

[vjdragonfly]

Curiosity77, how are you standing on the decision on whether to tell your boss about your bp?

Crazycatlady82

Feeling, a little bummed. Maybe from the gray, drizzly weather. Trying to evaluate my moods lately. Not so sure I am together as I thought I was. Problem is, there are a lot of situational factors (mainly with my 18 year old daughter). Stomach is a mess right now and feeling a little wound up. Hopefully it is just the weather. Wish I could get some constructive input on how I have been acting lately.

[Curiosity77]

Originally Posted by vjdragonfly

Curiosity77, how are you standing on the decision on whether to tell your boss about your bp?


Crazycatlady82



Feeling, a little bummed. Maybe from the gray, drizzly weather. Trying to evaluate my moods lately. Not so sure I am together as I thought I was. Problem is, there are a lot of situational factors (mainly with my 18 year old daughter). Stomach is a mess right now and feeling a little wound up. Hopefully it is just the weather. Wish I could get some constructive input on how I have been acting lately.

Hi vjdragonfly,

I sent him an email telling him last night. He got back to me within an hour, and said he had only been checking in with me because of a difficult patient situation last week. He apologized if it felt like prying, because that wasn't his intent. He said he has suffered with depression and anxiety, and he thanked me for telling him and said he would keep it secret. This morning he invited me to an important meeting as one of the people representing our team, so it seems like he still trusts me. I feel relieved that it went ok, and also it's good that he knows now in case i destabilize in the future and need time off. I don't think he was thinking there was anything up with me, it was all in my head. I'm glad I sent the email, because i don't have to feel anxious about it anymore. Thank you to everyone on the message board who commented, it really helped!

Today is a much better day. No anxiety

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[Phoenix_1]

Still down. I've been waking up in the middle of the night for the past week. I can go out now just with my cane but last weekend was just too cold: -51 on Saturday with the wind chill. I need to go to Safeway but can't make myself go there. Social anxiety? I'm buying food at the little store 2 blocks from home instead. I'm probably paying way too much for the food but I feel safe going there.

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[LadyShadow]

A bit manic today. Excited about this new guy on Eharmony I have been talking to, Still haven't managed to get out of bed yet to start exercising, but I'm hoping tomorrow can produce better results.

My mood log shows normal for three days in a row. Not super-fine, not horrible, just okay and that's okay with me. My goal is so-so for the whole week.

Eating on the other hand is all over the place. But, I'm not going to stress about it for the first time in my life. This week is too okay to ruin.

[feferock]

Kinda fuzzy from the muscle relaxers and painkiller. Jittery from the steroid but also in a decent mood. Spent the day with the kids at my moms. Then hubby got out of work and picked us all up and we all went out to eat. Then I came home and took a relaxing bath like the doc suggested and got a message from a lady wanting to buy my clothes and she didn't even haggle the price. So yay!

Fefe(28) -bipolar II
Hubby(28)
Son(8)-aspergers and possibly ADHD and odd
Daughter(5)

[Cocosurviving]

1). Watched a few kids and survived
2). Survived being around my nephew. That whiny kid arks the hell out of me.
3). I worked more on my SSA case. I'm trying to submit as much evidence as possible.
4). Ate dinner.
5). Did a little light cleaning.
6). Tackled my youngest daughter's long tangly hair.


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Day started down and feeling altogether pointless, but worked up to getting stuff done. Tackled the car emissions place today (and passed!). Brought some stuff to browse through to deal with the waiting lines. Got worked up on the way there (exasperated shouting at the universe alone in the car, anyone? ), but was calm in line. Bored, actually. Back home, had new registration stickers to put on, so might as well clean out the car, right? (Wha?) Then did a bit of garden stuff. It shouldn't have been the priority, but the weather was perfect, so… Later dealt with an actual priority, but never got through. Also made overdue psych appt. Was getting frustrated later working on projects. It got slightly better as it went, but BF pulled me off one. I was going to say, "not literally", but I was sitting on the stove at the time, and pushing against it, so was "on" it. Haha. "Step away from the project." "No!" "YES." Kind of hot/tired/cranky tonight. Shower and bed will be just the ticket if I can get my butt off this (uncomfortable even!) chair….

[LadyShadow]

I am feeling a bit manic and can't sleep. Its 4:30am and I am up watching tv and posting on PC. Feeling a bit anxious too. Wish I could get a handle on this.

[feferock]

In pain. What's new right. Dreading having to clean this house. My sons case worker is coming tonight. She's his new one so we are hoping he does okay with it. But because of being injured I haven't been able to bend over to clean up. Apparently my kids took full advantage of that. I'm just gonna lay here, pet the cat and try to calm myself down

Fefe(28) -bipolar II
Hubby(28)
Son(8)-aspergers and possibly ADHD and odd
Daughter(5)

[Notnrml85]

I hate it when my kids have a half day at school. 11:30 is just too early! I need more time to do laundry and try to keep calm despite the little things that make me wanna scream, till after 2 when they normally get out. I hope I don't lose my f-ing mind having to listen to them bicker and argue for hours until my husband gets home. Then I get to listen to them bicker while he yells. So I'm not looking forward to the rest of my day. I just want to lock my bedroom door and make everyone stay away from me for the next 48 hours. Not possible though. Ugggg!

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[vjdragonfly]

Curiosity77 it is great that all went well. I'm sure it took a major load off. Doing the happy dance for you

((((((Phoenix_1)))))), if going to the little store brings you comfort, it is good for at least a little while. Sending you uplifting vibes .

PlatinumHeart hope you level back out soon.

RR18 congrats , hope the mood stays with you.

Cocosurviving that is a lot accomplished, or at least in my book .

Innerzone way to go on getting things done. Hey, the gardening can be a priority, we do have to find time for some joy in our life and what better way then to be out in the sunshine on a beautiful day.

feferock hurting to the point you can function is awful. I understand how debilitating it can be. I hope you can find some relief some way.

Notnrml85 I also hate cleaning with ppl under foot. Maybe a time out in their rooms for a couple hours while you finish is in order. All that chaos makes me anxious. Maybe you can maybe find some time to take a relaxing bath later. Sounds like you need some you time .

Doing fairly well today. Actually got to work despite the rain (woohoo!!!). Hours have been cut and the weather has been awful so I welcome the hours. Plus it fills time in my day (unoccupied time is my enemy ). So far I haven't been quite so restless today and anxiety seems to be giving me a break for the time being. Might actually be chill enough to catch up on Supernatural.

[Notnrml85]

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Notnrml85 I also hate cleaning with ppl under foot. Maybe a time out in their rooms for a couple hours while you finish is in order. All that chaos makes me anxious. Maybe you can maybe find some time to take a relaxing bath later. Sounds like you need some you time.[/QUOTE]

That sounds like a good idea! Thanks.


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[vjdragonfly]

Originally Posted by vjdragonfly

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Notnrml85 I also hate cleaning with ppl under foot. Maybe a time out in their rooms for a couple hours while you finish is in order. All that chaos makes me anxious. Maybe you can maybe find some time to take a relaxing bath later. Sounds like you need some you time.

Originally Posted by Notnrml85

That sounds like a good idea! Thanks.

Your welcome, glad I could help.