[Curiosity77]

I'm feeling a little sick today because i had too much coffee, but otherwise the day was good. My camp got assigned an address for Burning Man, and it's a perfect location. Yay!

[Standup2me]

I feel great
I feel in control
I feel free
I feel so many good things today
Happiness is holding hands with me

[BlackSheep79]

Went cold turkey off of latuda Friday and sitting by the phone waiting to find out what my pdoc is going to do. I'm on med leave and can't waste time with my meds. I keep obsessing about going back to work and not missing work, so much anxiety and it won't stop. The OCD just takes over. I feel like a disappointment and a failure when it comes to going to work. I wake up shaking in the morning before going to work and it's still happening being on med leave. I'm just overwhelmed.

[sarahblue]

I took a shower today!

Also took out trash and recycling.

Sitting here in my yoga pants, hoping to actually do some yoga tonight.

Sarah Blue, I love your posts, you seem to be working really hard at good health. Well done to you! Many on here could take a page out of your book.

Im doing ok today. Finally slept past 4am, only to 5.30 but it was better than 4am! I've got leave to go out and see my horse today. Im a bit worried about how much energy it will take but at the same time I know it will be good for me so I should go. I might discuss it in group today but I had a long time talking about myself yesterday. Thinking positive thoughts, it will be fine.

[Roblovescats]

Sooo hypo!!! Bed at 1:30am up at 5:30... Plus all the other issues besides insomnia for those who know what I mean...

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[Curiosity77]

I saw New Order play tonight, and the show was excellent. They closed with some Joy Division songs, and huge images of Ian Curtis. Love!

[ceramichornets]

Trying not to focus on the negatives today.

I went to the college today and tried to get my student loans and major transition into place. The boyfriend has three possible interviews set up for this week alone. We had six inch subs for lunch. Monsoon season has gently struck this side of the state and the sky is an uneven mirror, with a whirling mass of black lightning-clouds on one side and proud white clouds floating on the mountains like ships gearing for battle on the other. Rain just light enough to require a solitary flick for the windshield wipers. I wanted to go to bed early because I have to get up early, but our friends wanted to go out and prepare Sean for his interviews. I played Skyrim for a while, but it never feels long enough to be a satisfactory stress-reliever.

I've been coughing a lot lately. I hope this doesn't mean I'm getting sick again. I don't want to go back to the hospital.

[Skitz13]

Woke up tired this morning. Lots on my mind.
My daughter has BP as well and now my oldest daughter is struggling.
She is one of the strongest people I know and in the last 6 months I've notice a huge change in her. She now is almost debilitated with extreme anxiety. She is struggling to function day to day. So sad to watch.

I'm really worried. There is such a significant mental illness history in her family and I'm so afraid that she is going to go through the hell her sister and I have gone through.

I've managed to convince her to get some therapy and I'll be going with her today to set everything up with her, including a pdoc. The quicker she acts on this, the better off she'll be.

She told me that I'm an inspiration for her. She's watched me go from the absolute bottom to being able to start to manage this illness and she feels that since services have worked so well for me then it's worth trying.

To her advantage, she has a Mom who truly gets it and she knows that I'm with her every step of the way.

[Standup2me]

I am begining to see the world in a new light
I am learning how to see the beauty and not dwell on the ugly

[sarahblue]

Supanova, thank you! I am so glad to see you doing so much better than you were a little while ago.

Today was therapy day. Also it was get-my-sister-out-of-the-house day. Not in the sense of kicking her out, but she's been staying here a while, and wanted to go to her place and check everything. We had a nice lunch at Wendy's.

Tomorrow, I'm going to my volunteer job for the first time in a while. Looking forward to it!

[Standup2me]

Today I am me

And me is a pretty good person

[Blue_Bird]

I'm just all over the place today.

[charo224488]

Haven't posted for a while- was trying to forget I had this stupid illness but it's always there, isn't it? I feel awful today. I can't pay my bills, and I can't handle this summer and I can't see any hope for anything. I can't do this anymore- I can't be this sick person that is all over the map and is just trying to keep getting through every day. Why? I'll never be well.

[r010159]

I am here in San Diego on the first day of my respite from the care of my mother. I will be here until Sunday. We went to Old Town and ate at a terrific Italian restaurant. My mood has been lifting since my departure. My daughter is with me for help. I feel confused and strung out. I really really needed this time off.

[Curiosity77]

Today was a better day than yesterday. Yesterday sucked. I went for a run by the ocean tonight after work. It's always hard to make myself go, but i feel better after. Hopefully i can sleep tonight.

Yesterday started out fun and silly. I want that back. 'Cause by the end of the day, the hip acted up so badly I could only drag that leg (ie., not walk) I was NOT in a good state. Mentally either. Then this morning overslept, was sobbing (mental, not physical reasons) all the way to work. And was late. Only to come into a pressure cooker. Barely held it together. Yeah. Right. Together wouldn't be the word. Didn't walk out. Yup. That's more accurate. (Things eased up later.) So. Guess who it turns out missed some of their meds this past week? Yeah. Going to try to not do that, because it never goes well… (There were, in addition, incidents before these.)
(Things are pretty ok now. Time for shower, MEDS and bed.)

[r010159]

I am in a flea infested hotel room. Nobody home until morning. They are all booked up so there are no other rooms. So I found another nicer (read: more expensive) place. I am going to have to cancel out on that hotel, and if I cannot stay here for my remaining vacation, I need to find another hotel. Life is just FABULOUS! LOL

Im going quite well in here. So well infact Im worried they will kick me out. But they have to see the hormone change and just how insane I get. Plus my support network keep saying its a respite stay for their sake too. Groups are good, we get side tracked a lot which frustrates me but somedays when we actually do the proper work it is really helpful. I wish I didnt live so far away so I could come in a few times a week for it but on the other hand I dont want to come in for a useless session (which a good part of them are). Its nice to support others struggling though. No group on weekend so I'll be out to ride my horse which always lifts my spirits.

Hope you are all coping ok.

[Standup2me]

I feel positive
Positive that the world is art
Positive that I am a part of it

[Skitz13]

Feeling better today. Yesterday was just too intense for me. I ended up meeting a friend for about an hour last night, just to get out and distract myself, and had company this morning. It helped my mood.

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by Supanova

Im going quite well in here. So well infact Im worried they will kick me out. But they have to see the hormone change and just how insane I get. Plus my support network keep saying its a respite stay for their sake too. Groups are good, we get side tracked a lot which frustrates me but somedays when we actually do the proper work it is really helpful. I wish I didnt live so far away so I could come in a few times a week for it but on the other hand I dont want to come in for a useless session (which a good part of them are). Its nice to support others struggling though. No group on weekend so I'll be out to ride my horse which always lifts my spirits.

Hope you are all coping ok.

I'm really glad things are looking up for you. Good work!!!

[tigersassy]

It's 1am and I'm still not asleep. I've been up technically since yesterday at 4:29am. And I'm still not tired. Have plans for tomorrow unless I decided to buy something for me online. I really want to, but I am supposed to be focusing on my wife. But don't I deserve something I feel powerful in? Decisions Decisions. I should try again to go to bed, but I have stuff I want to do. I'm not sure if this is a result of my antidepressant or if this is all me, but no sleep is going to get me in trouble. My wife is asleep before me. That never happens! Any way, all in all yesterday was good had therapy cried a bit, didn't go off on my boss. All good things had some grumpy moments,but that could be attributed to the 5hours of sleep the night before. Meh... wish me luck getting to dream land.

[exclamationpoint]

It's 3:00. I can't sleep. Not because I'm hypomanic, because I let my sleep schedule get out of whack. Now I'm up most nights between midnight and three, then sleeping the rest of the day because I have no energy. A month ago I was feeling up up up. Now I'm feeling so down, so lethargic, so lonely, so empty and unfulfilled.

Feeling pretty solid. Some things are still sucky, but I did some other things for the good to balance it out.
Making some cool-looking stuff in the process.
Had an appt. Also, got to read my psych notes. Enlightening. But not in the expected way. (It's fine. Seems I'm way more guarded than even I think I am. And that's saying something, lol! I've got questions, that's for sure!)