So frustrated

I am so tired of having Bipolar symptoms.

They are driving me mad.

I am afraid to die - I want to die - I cry - I can't sleep - anxiety takes away my ability to function - I am irritated - I am very angry - I am so sad - my mind is so noisy with constant chatter - no relief.

This is not a quality life. I don't want to be ill any longer. Why am I not getting well? Why do I have this terrible gift in the first place?

Will there ever be a treatment that works?

I am so tired, I don't even want to try any more. Wellness can be achieved - but it seems I won't ever get to that point.

I am very frustrated. I am so sleep deprived. And nothing I am writing makes any sense. I am sorry PC community.

I hope to be able to think more clearly to post something sane again soon.

I'm feeling similar to you too, especially a couple of weeks back And it's okay to be tired of trying. Take a week off and just indulge in nothingness. People don't realise how HARD it is to have this thing sometimes, so don't worry if you need to take a break from trying to get better. It doesn't mean that you've failed, it means you're human.

I'm also in the process of trying to find a treatment that works... Waiting for meds to kick in etc. It can be a long process for some of us and others they find something right away. It can be a real pain in the ***

Hang in there! We're here for you

I feel so very frustrated that my life seems hijacked by my mood instability. I am at my wit's end. It also doesn't help how impatient I am, but I feel it is going on forever. I am envisioning my mood stabilizing and trying to focus on that and what that will feel like. I don't know what else to do. Hiding and sleeping certainly doesn't help. People tell me I don't look, act, seem too different except for those who know me well.

Screaming for relief for us all!

we all go through this frustration but it's important to stay on meds, keep in touch w/your pdoc (if you have one), communicate w/loved ones & it's helpful to go on this message board (for me). I like reading books by people who have bipolar disorder, like Patty Duke, Kay Redfield Jamison & others when I'm able to concentrate on reading. Then that info' stays in my mind during bad times, as encouragement.

Hang in there. Talk. Share. Review your meds. Change Therapists. Stop work, change jobs, reduce stress. Anything that increases overall quality of life and is less drastic than death is worth considering as a possible choice of action.

I wouldn't believe I could feel like I do now after changing meds a month ago. This time last month I was ready to give up. and ive had a bipolar diagnosis for over 14 year's..... Don't give up.

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Bipolar goes in cycles it will always change .

It's often helpful to stop trying to fight so hard to go upstream and just let yourself float and allow some of the pressure to relieve that way.

Good luck

Thanks Christina, that's really good advice. I have been fighting my mood for a while- perhaps it is time to just "float"!