Need the courage to get up tomorrow

I have been down crying and depressed for about a week now. Tomorrow, I absolutely need to get up, take a shower, and have lunch with a friend of mine.That's all I need to do. Please send me some encouragement. I'm trying to take this one hour at a time.

Hi Lylypup, I am sorry your aren't feeling good. Are you seeing a Doctor or a Therapist ?
Regardless of your present issues, you may find great help in a good treatment for your depression. I know the feeling you described also know that If I was you am going to look asap for professional help. One week crying is a lot for you to go on with out help.

About getting up, waking up writing a big note to myself about why I need and want to waking up helps. You can do it!!!!!
Sending all the encouragement your way
Alexia

Did you make it out for lunch?

How are you doing lilypup?

"That's all I need to do". That is huge in my book

I so understand the hour by hour thing, even minutes by minutes. I hope you made it out to see your friend. If not, today is a new day and we get to put all those previous hours behind us as well. If you did good for you! Even setting up a meeting is good when you we are going through tough times.

thanks for the responses! I actually did get the shower and went out with my friend. We had a blast! It was awesome. I felt better the whole day.
My goal for today is to take my husband's 72 YO cousin out to have tea.....you know, the kind with the little sandwiches and desserts and all. My shower from yesterday is still good, so all I have to do is get dressed. My husband is driving us. I'm pretty sure I can do this.
Tomorrow is tougher. I would really like to go to church. It's at ten o clock, so realistically I need to take a shower tonight so I don't have to get up early. We are also celebrating my husbands birthday at a small restaurant nearby tomorrow night. Obviously, I should try to be there. It's only my three kids and my daughter's boyfriend...so the stress level is low. If I get a shower tonight, I'll be good to go both to church and the little dinner. So I need to focus on the shower thing.
I know someone asked if I have professional help. I have a pdoc and I see him once a month for a med check. (I can always see him more often if needed.) I have a T I talk to every two weeks. I am also in a live BP support group through NAMI. (meets once a week). Plus I am on here and have learned and been helped so much. I have great friends who understand and a wonderful husband. I have three young adult kids who are successful and good to me. So you can see my situation is pretty positive. But I am coming off a horrible 2 year depression. I am getting better but it keeps wanting to drag me back down. I am on six medications. I just have what I consider to be a bad case of BP 2...lots of depression with some hypomania...only a bit of nonproductive wild mania.
I've fought this my whole life and know it is a continual battle. But I am trying to be successful one hour and day at a time, hence my original post.
I really appreciate all the support. It helps so much to have this forum in my life. It takes the pressure off my family and friends.

well, I made it to tea and had a great time with the cousin. I didn't really have to but told her in a positive way about my bipolar. She told me about a severe depression she had after a divorce. She said she is there for me if I get down again or really at anytime. So hooray, I am on a roll. LOL. Now I need to focus on getting a shower tonight so I will be ready to try to go to church and my husband's small birthday casual dinner. One small victory at a time. Thanks for all of the hugs. Doesn't it help so much to know we are not alone?

Congrats for talking about it. It's always a great feeling when you open up to someone and they open up about similar experiences back.

You can do this! There's so many here that will be pulling for you. Stand straight, be proud and just be what you need to be for a couple hours. Will be thinking about you.

Got the shower tonight! Okay, now its get out of bed and get to church. Then I can rest till the little birthday dinner. I feel like am on a little roll here. At least I am not stranded in bed crying. Thanks to all you poor souls reading this. I realize its a tad dull.

Made it to church. Felt good about that as I enjoyed the music and people saying hello. It is a new church so don't know anyone there yet. If I do make any new friends there or get involved I want to reasonably disclose my bipolar, so I don't have to lie or make any excuses during my depressive cycles. So tired of lying and making excuses when I am down.
Need to make husbands small birthday dinner tonight. Will come back and edit if I do it. I think I should be able to. Thank you for all the support!

You can do it!! And seeing your friend will help you feel better!!

Feeling anxious about going to this dinner tonight. Daughter's new boyfriend is coming too. I likw this guy okay, but when I am down it feels like he is intruding into my family and my space. I know that is terrible and I need to get some sort of relationship with him. I normally get slong with most people.Please keep fingers crossed for me.

Boyfriend was nice and polite. I liked him. He talked a lot with my husband and two sons and fit right in. I had a good weekend. A little anxiety but no crying. It helps a lot to come here and write. Is keeping me on track.

Made the birthday dinner yesterday. Have a calm week planned until Thursday when I go out of town to see a friend. She has a baby staying with her so I am anxious about maybe getting triggered by a baby crying or screaming. I'll have my Klonopin on hand. I like babies but haven't been around one in a while. a bit "wobbly" today but am hanging in there.
Thanks to all who have encouraged me.

You are doing great!

Good for you!!!!

Fee;ing pretty down today. I let my 20 YO son down by not going to the gym with him. I am just to down. I also am probably going to ditch my support group today as I have to take a showere and thaat causes so much anxiety. Sometimes i feel like a piece of crap.

Excuse typos. shaky hands