Bipolar daily check in thread #7

Darvula · Nov 13, 2014, 09:20 AM

Had a good day today. One of the benefits of being an ultra-rapid cycler. Managed to sleep for 6 whole hours last night, and I could eat properly without feeling sick. The world looks like it has colours in it again. When I am having a bad episode, the colours around me seem flat, but today they are buzzing again. Bright colours. And I feel calm. So, I am going to make the most of today because tomorrow I could well feel like **** again.

tigersassy · Nov 13, 2014, 09:29 AM

Antidepressant is changed stepping off viibryd and onto effexor. We'll see how this goes.

gloamingone · Nov 13, 2014, 09:54 AM

Bad dream early this morning is dampening my mood, as is the cloudy sky. Hoping it gets a little better, because I have a lot to do today before my sleep study.

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tigersassy · Nov 13, 2014, 12:15 PM

And bloodwork got marked critical. My white blood cell count is really high. I feel fine though.

tipper1492 · Nov 13, 2014, 12:22 PM

BP II I'm doing well and have been, however, had an sudden annoyance when the wife asked me to do something. Recovered well, but wife did ask me later how I was doing. Before medications and knowing I was BP, I could be bad to be around all day long if not longer. I was an JERK and I thank God my wife never walked out on me.

Turtlesoup · Nov 13, 2014, 01:06 PM

Slept pretty good last night-med changes seem to be agreeing with me so far. Not too much on my agenda for today so just going to play it by ear. It feels good to feel good for a change if you know what I mean.

Pikku Myy · Nov 13, 2014, 05:59 PM

I have felt a bit more optimistic today as well

Not so darn depressed, worried, sad, mad... what ever. Hoping this will continue, because these constant changes wear you out.

Blitter2014 · Nov 13, 2014, 08:50 PM

Feeling good today even though in pain from on over enthusiastic chiropractor. World seems like an ok place to be, and I feel a part of it rather than watching. Makes for a nice change.

Standup2me · Nov 13, 2014, 10:51 PM

It is so cold here today (30 below) all I want to do is curl up in my blanket

Made the mistake of getting groceries today...I could not do it..too much noise, too many people,...argh

Hopeful Camel · Nov 13, 2014, 11:37 PM

Realized today that I must give up my health insurance and go on Medicaid. This will result in a multitude of medication changes, but One Day At A Time, right?

I'm carrying the weight in my relationship right now. In a variety of ways. I feel alone and sad. Also have to give up therapy, due to loss of insurance at end of month.

Just was a sobering day. This too shall pass. I will come out on top. Keep positive.

onionknight · Nov 14, 2014, 11:19 AM

I went to class and made a whole bunch of obnoxious, sarcastic comments because hypomania.

ScorpGal · Nov 14, 2014, 11:36 AM

Today is good. I had a bit of a down day yesterday (after about a week of a "controlled high") but today is better. Am I the only one that has a problem taking meds... not that I haven't set reminders, just it doesn't seem like more of a priority to me than what I am doing when the alarm goes off... then it is too late for that dose... then later, well I forgot a dose so I will start off fresh tomorrow.

RavenStark · Nov 14, 2014, 11:43 AM

Getting ready to see a substitute pdoc. Nervous. Regular pdoc on maternity leave. Maybe he'll listen more than my regular pdoc and give me some answers. Im worried that i could have more of a personality disorder than bp. Ive always been quite disassociated from people and feel much more like the invisible observer.

lacerta · Nov 14, 2014, 11:53 AM

Therapist told that she thinks I should be leaving therapy after few more sessions. Anyway I have been thinking about quitting soon as I cannot afford it anymore, but I feel so abandoned now when she initiated it. It's cold outside, I feel cold both that and cos of being depressed. Eating too much cakes. Having hard time breaking all those dates with friends set up while hypo.

RavenStark · Nov 14, 2014, 12:03 PM

I hear you lacerta! Season changes set me off too. Especially winter. Can you start going back mid-winter if you have the seasonal blues?

lacerta · Nov 14, 2014, 12:14 PM

RavenStark
Thanks for understanding. I'm not self-aware for that long to know if I'm on seasonal blues. Usually I rather like winter, but it's not winter here yet, it's typical dark, gray, wet autumn. Too little sunshine- dark when you wake up, dark when you walk out of home, and dark when you get out of the office. It should get better when the snow comes, at least some activities do outside, like skiing.

Turtlesoup · Nov 14, 2014, 02:15 PM

Soooo tired today-didn't sleep well lots of icky bad dreams. Have to go out & run some errands-bleh. Going to drag myself to the shower-think it's going to be one of those days where I have to push myself to function-feel like it would be easy to go from zero to incredibly irritable-will tell my spouse to hope for the best & prepare for the worst.

tigersassy · Nov 14, 2014, 05:43 PM

Not doing well. Wbc count was up yesterday and went to see reg doc today to get answers. Didn't get any. She's as baffled as I am. Ordered more blood work, ultrasound of my kidneys, x ray of my leg because I still have a knot where I tripped over a chair 3months ago, wants a CT scan of my head, and have to see a hemotologist on Tue. This is kicking the depression up major time. My reg doc is thinking it's something autoimmune. I just want fixed.

Crazy Hitch · Nov 14, 2014, 05:50 PM

I've been at it again.

Eating more Nutella.

Damn you seroquel.

Standup2me · Nov 14, 2014, 08:58 PM

I am feeling needy today

Hopeful Camel · Nov 15, 2014, 05:30 AM

Sat down with the medicaid formulary and found out almost all of my current psych meds are on it. Whew! Things aren't as bad as I thought [they most never are]. I'm awake at 3am, but feel pretty good.

I'm not manic. I just like being up.