[Bill3]

(((((Darvula)))))

[ScorpGal]

slept most of the day and night. my "controlled high" is coming to an end. Woke up this morning and talked myself into facing the world today. Hoping to have a "controlled level" instead of sinking.

[Hopeful Camel]

Took two naps yesterday and still was able to get a full night's rest last night. I am still having bouts of anxiety, but I am dealing with them in a much better way. Less with pills, and more with breathing [yes, I forget!], reading, distraction, etc.

It is the first snow of the year, I slept all night, I'm alone this morning with my thoughts and feeling very peaceful. to you all.

[onionknight]

I cried a significant portion of yesterday, but today I have to brace myself to face reality again...

[Standup2me]

Still feeling needy

[Haffidha786]

Feeling awful, tired but don't want to sleep because I genuinely don't want to wake up to another day of feeling crap! I cried a few times today, it's like I have no control of my emotions at all and I super sensitive to any sort of criticism.

Hoping so badly that I see some good in trying to attempt on approaching to apply for some volunteering work. Hope everyone else is feeling better then me!!!

[Pikku Myy]

I have been a lot calmer today like at piece.

[Turtlesoup]

Originally Posted by Haffidha786

Feeling awful, tired but don't want to sleep because I genuinely don't want to wake up to another day of feeling crap! I cried a few times today, it's like I have no control of my emotions at all and I super sensitive to any sort of criticism.

Hoping so badly that I see some good in trying to attempt on approaching to apply for some volunteering work. Hope everyone else is feeling better then me!!!

So sorry you're having a rough time-I hope tomorrow is better-I wanted to share with you that your polar bear avatar absolutely cracks me up so thanks for that

[Haffidha786]

Originally Posted by Turtlesoup

So sorry you're having a rough time-I hope tomorrow is better-I wanted to share with you that your polar bear avatar absolutely cracks me up so thanks for that

Really, yay!! I made someone laugh.

And thank you, hope so too. Was feeling quite suicidal not long ago tbh. I just want those thoughts to go away you know. Thanks for responding, it's nice to know someone reads my post.

[Blitter2014]

Busy start to week. Had appointment with T at 9am, did some deep and meaningful which left me feeling drained. Got given homework for week. I hate it when I get homework. Got home and did a few chores before getting a phone call from Pdoc asking me to come in this afternoon. Not sure what that's about. Great. Then got phone call from No1 son stating he's feeling suicidal and needs to talk. Feeling overwhelmed and its only lunchtime on Monday!

[onionknight]

Monday morning, 13F, need to go meet with a professors to see how much trouble I'm in.

[Sinking Feeling]

totally weird. I had 2 mg of klomopim and 10 mg ambien and was only able to sleep for 2 hours, I have to work until 4:00am tonite. Long day, Garage for car, hospital for physical and flu shot then work. I wonder how long I can hang on to normality.

[Standup2me]

First day back at work after a week off
Stress eating
Argh!!!!!

[Hopeful Camel]

Originally Posted by Haffidha786

Really, yay!! I made someone laugh.

And thank you, hope so too. Was feeling quite suicidal not long ago tbh. I just want those thoughts to go away you know. Thanks for responding, it's nice to know someone reads my post.

Don't worry, there is an entire group of someones who are reading your posts here. This is a good group. We may not always say a lot, but there are hugs and thanks, and I can tell you that the first thing I do every day when I log on is read up on how everyone is doing. And I think about you all.

Hope you are feeling better and that you have a good day.

[Hopeful Camel]

I'm in a pretty peaceful place this past week. My meds seem to be working. I'm doing well, tapering off of the Saphris. Sleeping better.

All in all, my mood has been pretty stable. I've even gone back to reading books, something I had given up because my mind was too scattered. I'm really enjoying reading!

[tigersassy]

Anxious. See hemotologist today to find out why wbc is so high. My wife is coming with me but right now I'm at work. Can't focus. I don't know what is a symptom of my bipolar and what's a symptom from my wbc count being so high. I just want to go back home and go back sleep. I'm scared of what this could be. An autoimmune disorder, cancer, or something else. My Pcp doesn't think it's an infection because I'd be really sick if it was. But I feel fine. I don't know, but I want answers.

[lacerta]

After week of making myself to go for 3-4 miles long walk each evening my depression starts to back off.
Stressfull weak ahead, need to prepare my son for tonsil surgery - do blood tests, cardiogram, etc, but surprisingly I'm not very anxious.

[Haffidha786]

I am feeling quite sluggish today, managed to go for a shower after getting out of bed quite late. It seems like I all I feel like doing is disappearing. Scared of applying for jobs and I truly think i won't be able to communicate with people at the workplace. Don't imagine doing well at an interview at all anymore. Where as, before bipolar I use to be good at interviews.

Hope everyone is having a good day!

[onionknight]

Stupid Lamictal makes me have trouble staying asleep, lose me appetite and feel all shaky.

Otherwise I'm okay, I guess. The hell that was last week may have been a turning point...

[Haffidha786]

I am feeling quite sluggish today, managed to go for a shower after getting out of bed quite late. It seems like I all I feel like doing is disappearing. Scared of applying for jobs and I truly think i won't be able to communicate with people at the workplace. Don't imagine doing well at an interview at all anymore. Where as, before bipolar I use to be good at interviews.

Hope everyone is having a good day!

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Haffidha786

Really, yay!! I made someone laugh.

And thank you, hope so too. Was feeling quite suicidal not long ago tbh. I just want those thoughts to go away you know. Thanks for responding, it's nice to know someone reads my post.

I like to read everyone's posts. We are a family and we like to
take care of each other

Reading posts lets us do that

[tigersassy]

So I've got to get a bone marrow biopsy scheduled for Thursday. My hemotologist thinks I have a form of leukemia. I'm falling apart slowly...

[Blitter2014]

Originally Posted by tigersassy

So I've got to get a bone marrow biopsy scheduled for Thursday. My hemotologist thinks I have a form of leukemia. I'm falling apart slowly...

Hugs tiger, thats terrible news and I hope your hemotologist is wrong. Its ok to fall apart, as long as you can put yourself back together again......and for that we're here to help

[Blitter2014]

I'm doing ok all things considered. Not that I would ever consider myself normal, but I'm closer to it than I've been in months

[Crazy Hitch]

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