[prepsychmel]

I am experiencing some insomnia at the moment. Doesn't seem right since I take meds at night. The Saphris is really helping me a lot with my racing thoughts, though.

[Hopeful Camel]

Must be the night for insomnia. I've been doing so much better. But actually this doesn't feel like insomnia. It feels like I'm ramping up. I'm just up. And I feel good being up now.

I start living in the night. Living in the day, by necessity. But I truly live in the night. It is my time. I don't want to go back to the day. I want to stretch this place out forever.

[onionknight]

Hey, I managed to mostly sleep through the night last night which hadn't happened in a while! Also, going to see my psychiatrist soon. Last night I had a terrible asthma attack so that was not fun...

[Turtlesoup]

It's raining here today-slept good via the Ambien. Feeling happy & perky-probably won't last but hey I'm gonna enjoy it while it's here. Warned my hubby last night to watch out for me getting too giddy-woke up this morning planning my xmas cards & who to send them to-yikes stamps are like 49 cents-maybe will trim the list & send as many as I can via email.

[Standup2me]

I am doing okay, could be better but have been worse
I stopped doing blue light therapy, but started again today

[Crazy Hitch]

I have swung from being down to feeling just a teeny weeny bit more positive

[onionknight]

That moment when you come out of depression and hypomania and ask yourself, "what have I done?" That's where I am...

[Standup2me]

Gloomy days get me down
I miss the sun

[Turtlesoup]

Having a rough time physically-a little too much manic cleaning has thrown me into a pain flare up-bleh. See my therapist today which I'm looking forward to. Couldn't get comfy last night so sleeping was difficult. It's cold & rainy here again today so that seems to make my pain ickier-on the brighter side I made a big pot of yummy soup so will munch into that when I get back from my appointment.

[Love&Toil]

Catching up on posts. Doing okay, working OT and liking the money. Tomorrow I see my pdoc and ask about nudging up my AD again. I have an uncomfortable relationship with her as she told me from the start she's really too busy to take me on. I am feeling somewhat better than I was but want to guard against lower times again.

[Blitter2014]

As much as I hate not working and the lack of income, the reducing of stress combined with new meds seem to be doing the job. I'm feeling more positive and managing to accomplish my one task a day much to my T delight.

Hugs to everyone suffering, know you that you are cared for, wanted, and appreciated for your input, kindness and support. I hope I can help others as much as this site has helped me

[gayleggg]

Felt a little depressed last night and again this afternoon. It seems like I feel good in the morning and go down hill in the afternoon. I have a big weekend planned, I hope my mood stays level.

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I have been Up, but I thought I was holding it all together nicely. Hiding my symptoms... Not so much I found out today. I was approached by my fitness instructor and it was all pointed out to me in a concerned way. I feel stupid because I guess I'm not so good at hide and seek after all. This makes five people who have mentioned it. I must be wearing a beacon.

[Hopeful Camel]

Sleep is eluding me but otherwise I make it through the days. I'm grumpy and irritable, but my wife seems to ignore that and sticks around. Overall, I think I am slowly but surely making progress.

I am working on a PTSD workbook and am making some progress there. It is hard work.

[tigersassy]

Doing ok. Depression still runs things. I'm afraid. I had a bone marrow biopsy yesterday. My Dr is pretty sure I have leukemia 5 blood tests can't be wrong. I'm keeping it together most of the time. I'm getting blood drawn every few days which sucks. Mood wise I'm just trying to float. Basics are the only things I can handle right now.

[Darvula]

Not doing well. In a depression about my father's state of health and impending death. Haven't had the energy to come on here the past few days. Feel like I am walking around in a coma. Work, sleep,work, sleep. Just an endless cycle.

[lacerta]

Darvula, I have been thinking of you. Sad to hear you are not feeling well.

I'm tired, I have cached cold, just a little, but decided to stay home because it makes me feel so tired I can't really go to work. Feeling guilty for this, but I know I need to go slowly and not overestimate my abilities with BP and everything.

Bit sad that my T has set limits to my upcoming visits, I have to end therapy sometime soon. Well, that needed to end at some point, but it has been so helpful that I don't really want it to stop.

I had to set borders with one of my friends as she is too overbearing and not acknowledging my needs and abilities. I think she got offended, but I'm somehow relieved, too much is too much.

[Darvula]

Thanks, Lacerta. That's a really nice thought. I am on that depression go-slow. You know how everything just slows down almost to a stop. Head feels like it's full of sand and everything is an effort. even being awake.

Don't feel guilty about not going to work. If you went, you'd be too tired to be productive and you would give other people your cold. They wouldn't like that. Better to stay home and not infect everyone.

How come you can't see your therapist any more? Can't you continue?

Sounds like you did the right thing with your friend. Perhaps after you have had a bit of a rest you can talk to her about it. When you have more energy. Some of my friends drain me too and I have to keep away from them for a while. The best friends are the ones that understand when people need to be alone and don't take it personally.

Hope you feel well soon.

darvula

[lacerta]

Darvula
Thanks for support!
It's CBT, I guess it's meant to be short-term. My T said I'm coping well so I should terminate. On the other hand - I'm running short of resources so I have considered quitting anyway. So I did not fight for staying in therapy.
Take one step at a time and you'll progress!

[Dustii7]

I'm feeling mildly depressed, same as I have been for the last month. I don't even know if I should call it depression, I'm just bored. I don't find anything fun but I'm not sad in any way, I'm actually looking forward to college just so it gives me something to do to pass the time.

[Darvula]

Thanks for the support too I love this board! So cool to be able to talk to people who understand and don't ask me WHY I am depressed!
It's great that your therapist said you are coping well and don't need it anymore, but it's nice to have a good therapist. Rare in my experience.

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by tigersassy

Doing ok. Depression still runs things. I'm afraid. I had a bone marrow biopsy yesterday. My Dr is pretty sure I have leukemia 5 blood tests can't be wrong. I'm keeping it together most of the time. I'm getting blood drawn every few days which sucks. Mood wise I'm just trying to float. Basics are the only things I can handle right now.

I am so sorry about your results.
You must feel so numb, and worried
I am sending you good karma
Praying for you

[lacerta]

Originally Posted by tigersassy

Doing ok. Depression still runs things. I'm afraid. I had a bone marrow biopsy yesterday. My Dr is pretty sure I have leukemia 5 blood tests can't be wrong. I'm keeping it together most of the time. I'm getting blood drawn every few days which sucks. Mood wise I'm just trying to float. Basics are the only things I can handle right now.

Sorry I did not notice your post yesterday. Oh, I was so worried about you when you said about the first blood test results. My son had something wrong with his blood tests earlier this year and it was so frustrating to wait for the results, all of the worst scenarios running through head. Luckily he only got anaemia. Do you have a treatment plan yet? Is somebody out there with you to support?

[tigersassy]

Originally Posted by lacerta

Sorry I did not notice your post yesterday. Oh, I was so worried about you when you said about the first blood test results. My son had something wrong with his blood tests earlier this year and it was so frustrating to wait for the results, all of the worst scenarios running through head. Luckily he only got anaemia. Do you have a treatment plan yet? Is somebody out there with you to support?

Game plan depends on which which it is. They've already started me on two meds. If they get the results back by next Wednesday I'll have my follow-up appt and we'll discuss which way we'll go. Yeah I've got more support for this than the mental stuff. But isn't that always the case? Today I'm numb so far. I'm sure I'll feel by the end of today.

[onionknight]

I had a good day thus far hanging out with a friend. I ate too much though