Just diagnosed as bipolar

I'm new to this site and I was just diagnosed as being bipolar within the last week. I am trying to cope with all of this and always knew that there was something wrong with me. I knew that I wasn't like everyone else. Now I know what is wrong with me and why I've been doing some of the things I have been doing, but feel lost and helpless and guilty of the things I have done. I have lost the most important person due to the things I do while I am in a manic state. My boyfriend he won't speak with me anymore he kicked me and my three year old daughter out without any notice due to what I do while manic. I talk to other guts inappropriately but never do anything with these guys. I want him to understand why I do these things and know more about my disorder but he won't even speak with me. I don't do it to hurt him, I now know why I do it. At the time I am doing it I don't feel it is wrong because it makes me feel good about myself and when I am out of manic mode I know it is wrong and feel so bad about myselg.

hi mumamoose
that is exactly the thing about bipolar...it never feels wrong when you are in that manic phase...everything feels so good....until you come down and then you are embarrassed and ashamed and regretful. I wanted my boyfriend to understand too...I never did things like that, my emotions were just out of control, but he didn't believe in mental illness..pull yourself up by your bootstraps kind of guy he was...thought I was weak for taking meds...give it some time....maybe he will talk to you later and you can explain then..write him a letter explaining...give him some literature..find a good website...if he cares, he will look into it..if he doesn't, he isn't worth it anyway. Welcome to Psych Central. You will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. You will get a lot of support here. Again, welcome.

Relationships are challenging when you are bipolar. As much as we would like those we love to understand the disorder and why we do the things we do it's a pretty tall order. I've been married to the same man for 23 years. It is very difficult for him to cope with all of the ups and downs that come with this life we live. If he loves you and is able he will stay with you and help you through it. Good luck and hang in there. It does get better (at least they keep telling me that).

Welcome to PC , Lots of support here

well my wife is schizoaffective and I am Bipolar also. We make our relationship work being there for each other when we need a helping hand. She recognizes when I'm in a bad way. as well as me comforting her when she needs it. It's a two-way street.
I am sorry your boyfriend won't speak with you. If you write a letter do you think he will read it? Just a thought.

Anyway welcome to the club

Welcome to PC and the bipolar thread mumamoose6. Bipolar does effect our relationships, but if someone REALLY loves you they will go through it with you. I couldn't imagine doing the dating scene again especially being bipolar. It is hard to open up about the illness with someone you know and love, I wouldn't know how to cope with telling a potential spouse. The good thing about being bp in a relationship you get a better idea how much someone loves you because it is hard for them as well. A letter does sound like a good start and I hope he will be forgiving, but if he ain't, as much as it may hurt, how can he be the one if it is not willing? A new diagnosis brings a lot of mixed emotions so take this time to educate yourself as well.

It takes time to know this illness and to know yourself having this illness. Ive found that keeping a journal very helpful. I write when im having an episode and can look back and process later when im not so that next time maybe i can avoid. Doesnt always help but it does feel good to purge.

Welcome Mumamoose!

I used to do that - talk inappropriately/flirt. Caused so much unneeded conflict. I don't anymore and am back with my ex. Never thought I would be. I still make decisions without thinking of consequences, and that cause conflict. Fortunately they are nowhere near as hurtful or often.

Now that you have a diagnosis you can get help & things can get better. For yourself, your daughter and future relationships. Maybe that will include your bf. I hope he comes to understand.