[Corrupted Angel]

I haven't posted in many forums on here, but I am really in a crazy depressive episode right now, as with days following this I had mixed episodes, along with really fast rapid cycling. I'm utterly exhausted, and on top of that, my BPD is also "flared up" so I'm also dealing with that and my PTSD as well. Sounds fun huh? I'm just really down after my therapy appointment, because I came to the realization that there is no fast and immediate help, even though I've always truly have known this... it just sucks! She is really concerned, and making sure that I follow up with medication and psychotherapy. She's trying to keep me from going to the ER... She upped the dose of Abilify to over double of what it was (from 2mg to 5) Then possibly upping the dose of my Lamotrigine from 200 to 300mg. So, we shall see how that goes, I'm pretty much withdrawn from society, and it's growing more intense. But anyways, Anyone else in the same boat? What are you doing about it? I'm also looking for as much support as possible! *huggles all* ~ Angel

[~Christina]

I hope your med changes kick into gear quick!

Do you have any coping skills you can use while waiting for the meds to do something? Are you sleeping enough? and on a regular schedule? Sleep is so important for stability for us.

Just use every coping skill you have , just keep flinging them on you until something sticks.

I hope your able to feel better and not have to hit the ER

[kaliope]

isn't it bad enough having one diagnosis? but to be cursed with multiple...I have five of my own so I know where you are coming from. it is a real struggle to get balanced out on meds. it took me years and a lot of patience and tons of med changes but we finally found the meds that stopped all that rapid cycling. life seems relatively normal now...just have to deal with anxiety and ptsd which i feel can be a breeze without having all those mood swings going on. so hang in there. be patient. really advocate for yourself when the meds aren't working and insist on change. and things will get better. hang in there.

[Crazy Hitch]

Not fun at all when you have dysphoric mania (mixed episode with more depressive features). It's uncomfortable and feels horrible.

You've withdrawn from society for the time being, which can be a good thing, just for now while you are passing through this phase.

I tend to be angry impulsive when I'm in a mixed phase. I have to try really hard not to respond to someone if it's not going to be a very nice thing to say. Which doesn't always work if I lack the insight.

I also have to be careful in any form of communication with others. I usually use the 1 day rule when I'm like this. If someone emails something I don't like, I'll wait till I'm calm and then respond. If someone posts something ridiculous on facebook I'll try ignore it.

Your change in meds should hopefully help you.

Get well.

[Curious651]

Hope you feel better soon. Can relate to the rapid and the BPD. It is hard to accept there is no immediate cure or fix. All I can suggest is to keep working the tools and DBT. They work if ya allow them to,

[Corrupted Angel]

Me too girl!
I don't have much coping skills at all, and no honestly I don't sleep enough, I have a type one diabetic daughter so I have to check her blood sugar at night, I do try to have a routine schedule, but it's nearly impossible lol
Thank you so much! I will do so, and I hope I don't go to the ER either lol

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I hope your med changes kick into gear quick!

Do you have any coping skills you can use while waiting for the meds to do something? Are you sleeping enough? and on a regular schedule? Sleep is so important for stability for us.

Just use every coping skill you have , just keep flinging them on you until something sticks.

I hope your able to feel better and not have to hit the ER

[Corrupted Angel]

Oh yes, it's quite grand having more than one diagnosis lol So far I have Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, & ADHD. I'm trying to hang in there! Thank you so much!

Originally Posted by kaliope

isn't it bad enough having one diagnosis? but to be cursed with multiple...I have five of my own so I know where you are coming from. it is a real struggle to get balanced out on meds. it took me years and a lot of patience and tons of med changes but we finally found the meds that stopped all that rapid cycling. life seems relatively normal now...just have to deal with anxiety and ptsd which i feel can be a breeze without having all those mood swings going on. so hang in there. be patient. really advocate for yourself when the meds aren't working and insist on change. and things will get better. hang in there.

[Corrupted Angel]

So true!

Very true, I'm kinda trying to socialize but it's rather hard to at this point in time, so maybe you're right! That it's a good thing!

I'm all over the place when I'm in a mix state! Hightly depressed yet excited about it lol But it really sucks though no matter what point of view you're looking from! =(
I have extreme troubles trying not to explode on my family members at times (sometimes while in mania) So that's a good idea of holding back when irritated!
Thank ya so much!! I really appreciate it

Originally Posted by Hooligan

Not fun at all when you have dysphoric mania (mixed episode with more depressive features). It's uncomfortable and feels horrible.

You've withdrawn from society for the time being, which can be a good thing, just for now while you are passing through this phase.

I tend to be angry impulsive when I'm in a mixed phase. I have to try really hard not to respond to someone if it's not going to be a very nice thing to say. Which doesn't always work if I lack the insight.

I also have to be careful in any form of communication with others. I usually use the 1 day rule when I'm like this. If someone emails something I don't like, I'll wait till I'm calm and then respond. If someone posts something ridiculous on facebook I'll try ignore it.

Your change in meds should hopefully help you.

Get well.

[Corrupted Angel]

Thank ya so much! Yes it is, and I will do my best! Thank ya for your advice!

Originally Posted by Curious651

Hope you feel better soon. Can relate to the rapid and the BPD. It is hard to accept there is no immediate cure or fix. All I can suggest is to keep working the tools and DBT. They work if ya allow them to,

[ozzy1313]

I can relate- especially at exploding at family members.

Hang in there- post here as much as you need. I've been posting way more than normal but the people here have been so helpful and bc of this board I finally called my pdoc to tell her I'm not ok.

[Darvula]

Hope you are feeling better. It means a lot to know your therapist really cares about your health.

Dravula

[LastQuestion]

Sleep can be very stabilizing in my experience. Getting regular sleep, alongside darkness therapy, fully addressed the rapid cycling I had been experiencing. I haven't had an episode of hypomania/depression since I've been making regular sleep a priority. I sincerely recommend darkness therapy, it's been very helpful in keeping me stable. Sleep, diet, exercise, and some supplements now address my treatment resistant depression better than my AD ever has.

[Corrupted Angel]

Yeah, it truly sucks! I don't really mean to but it's like something goes off in my head and I explode on the simplest things!
Thank you so much! And I have issues doing that lol, maybe one time I will do that when I'm feeling bad or out of wack again!

Originally Posted by ozzy1313

I can relate- especially at exploding at family members.

Hang in there- post here as much as you need. I've been posting way more than normal but the people here have been so helpful and bc of this board I finally called my pdoc to tell her I'm not ok.

[Corrupted Angel]

I'm actually feeling somewhat better, when I took the upped dose of Abilify last night I felt high! LOL, but I'm feeling less down than I was yesterday!(I'm sure more sleep played a role in making me feel better too!), and I totally agree!

Originally Posted by Darvula

Hope you are feeling better. It means a lot to know your therapist really cares about your health.

Dravula

[Corrupted Angel]

Yeah, I can totally agree, I'm going to my first psychotherapy Nov. 4th so, I can't wait to get started with that! I'm glad that you're doing better! And thank you so much for suggestions!

Originally Posted by LastQuestion

Sleep can be very stabilizing in my experience. Getting regular sleep, alongside darkness therapy, fully addressed the rapid cycling I had been experiencing. I haven't had an episode of hypomania/depression since I've been making regular sleep a priority. I sincerely recommend darkness therapy, it's been very helpful in keeping me stable. Sleep, diet, exercise, and some supplements now address my treatment resistant depression better than my AD ever has.