Intense rage and impulses

Hey y'all. I can't believe I'm about to write this but I've been insanely angry/bordering on rage since this afternoon when I went to see my douschebag of a PCP. I went in for 2 refills on meds both of which he's prescribed before. Sooooooooo, I saw no problem. Well, needless to say I was wrong. He refused to give me my birth control. I nearly stormed out without my stuff when his assistant who had just broke the news to me asked if I was taking my stuff. I went back in the room and got my stuff and walked out. Needless to say he was right at the door when I turned around to walk out asked if I wanted to talk and I said get out of my fu**ing way and left. I was having "visions" of seriously hurting both of them, so I knew I had to get outta there with my impulse control issues. Though I don't think I'd have managed any serious harm.

Anyone else have issues with their anger and impulses? Or maybe this issue is entirely different from bipolar?

Thanks all for being so wonderful.

~~delusionsdaily~~

My med regime:
AM:
500mg Depakote ER
150mg Seroquel
PM:
1,000mg Depakote ER
150mg Seroquel

the massive urge to knock them out grab ankles and swing them head first into a corner of a brick building .........yes ****s should be punished so they learn not to be that...... if nothing happens then they think it is ok to be that way .........but u are in the same boat as the rest of us u have to wait until the world goes crazier and all order breaks down before u can feed that beast

as for your PCP u have the right to change doctors at anytime just call your insurance ppl and get a list of local doctors tell them u want to change ........i just got my packet it saids that on the letter with the card on it

I have issues sometimes with my impulses and anger. I quit a job by saying to the manager of (a retail store), "I quit, f**k you and your rewards cards!" Not my best moment.

But the urges to hurt people that I'm really worried about. I mean myself is one thing but others, errr....that is just not right. I mean I really wanted to strangle my PCP regardless of any consequences. Thankfully I was able to get my a$* out of there before the impulse took over completely.

Thanks all for being so wonderful.

~~delusionsdaily~~

My med regime:
AM:
500mg Depakote ER
150mg Seroquel
PM:
1,000mg Depakote ER
150mg Seroquel

I recently learned that I have a good aim with a shoe to the back of a head from across a room..... and THAT'S me using some restraint! If my abusive ex hadn't have moved out from in front of my truck one night, ok more like three times, I'd be in jail right now.... sooo, yeah, I guess you could say I've got some issues. There's plenty more *****fits I could share with you too but that's just off the top of my head.

the trick is to find a method of outletting that anger in away that does not get u in deep ****

all kinds of methods to be used
go to a gun range and rent a gun buy some bullets and shoot some targets
go and play a video game where u can unleash hell on something
hit the gym and heavy bag
rock climb........it takes alot of energy
go out in the middle of no where and scream your head off yelling everything that comes to mind
getting into a boxing fight (set rules and both ppl want to do it for release and fun)

then u got the zen stuff turn rage into peace ........or u can go slow burn anger use that rage to make yourself get goals done when u are in depression mode

Oh hell yes I complete relate!!!

I told my ex boss I was going to ****ing punch him in his face.

Yikes

Yep I remember literally snatching my I.D. card back from some fellow at a science centre where I took my toddler, and hissing at him. I was medicated but in the thralls of postpartum exhaustion and moodiness. I actually received a letter from the science centre discussing my behaviour and the appropriateness of the employee asking me for the I.D. card. Oops. LMAO!!!!

One hallmark of my moodiness is the rages I can get into. It's not nice. I smashed a lamp in my kids' room one evening in a rage. I have to bang the walls with my fists sometimes to get out the anger that is a very physical visceral feeling.

So yeah. You're not alone.

ETA - good on ya for walking away OP!

Rage...I have that intense feeling that I just want to maim, hurt, destroy or kill. It comes and goes. As a child my parents taught me to never hit anyone and so I never did and never had. Problem was that I thought I suppressing anger was the correct thing to do. Now I'm stuck trying to find a happy medium between pacifist and homicide. I hung a heavyweight bag in the basement and use that as a source of release. It helps quite a bit if you picture the persons face on the bag. Just use gloves and don't break your wrist/hand in the process. Hitting the bag with a baseball bat also feels wonderful! Impact and release is what I was taught. Need to do.

Bumping this thread because anger/rage discussion interests me. Lol

I have punched refrigerators and gone after people with garden implements. I have slammed TV dinners against walls and broken glassware. The only reason I don't do these things anymore is medication.....it dulls the rage and gives me time to think before I act. I don't feel I'm an angry person anymore, although I can be pretty irritable when I'm heading into a manic episode. Otherwise I'm pretty much in control of the anger rather than it controlling me.

You sound like me, except I don't brake things (as much) anymore because I'M the one who has to clean up the mess when I calm down! Lol.

.........but u are in the same boat as the rest of us u have to wait until the world goes crazier and all order breaks down before u can feed that beast

Best advice I have heard for a long time