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Maybe think about the here and now, You have a court date coming up, so using "your" type of pot or oil or whatever isn't legal or you would not be in this situation.

Instead of all this focus on how you can buy seeds and supply yourself and how you can't do this or that now for a variety of reasons ( job wise, because you got arrested and now need a lawyer) You mention living off of a very small amount of money a month. Are you on assistance? If so I am sure they will be able to set you on the right track to coping and living a life that does not include worries about police and court dates, But only YOU can decide to improve your life and what direction your wanting your life to head in. If you choose to continue your current path I would assume you will probably just continue to have legal trouble. Why not focus on getting a grip and find a way to deal with your life in a legal manner ?

Not all medications cost hundreds of dollars, Big Pharma offers free meds to many people that just can't afford to buy them.

So instead of the constant talk of what the arrest has taken away from you , maybe you should put even half that focus on figuring out your life and how you can help yourself.

Just my opinion of course.

i was asking ?s about what to do

then it turned into defence of my actions and methods

i just wanted to know the best choices for what happen on tuesday with the talk doctor i had never done anything like that and had that much rage

no i do not get any money from the government and when i asked they called me a druggie and a drunk(3 years ago ssi) .....i had to break down and get medicaid to afford to see the doctors and get the pills now .........5 pills of seroguil 35 bucks plus tax (no coverage out of pocket) that was sept 8 .....money i do have is from family making me feel even more like a failure so i take as little as i can 10 bucks a day for food 100 for gas to get around a month

i did not bring up anything about jail or anything like that until others did ........i stated what was going on and left it at that

i done everything i know how to do including coming here and asking other ppl for points of view since the choices i tend to lean to piss ppl off so much.....i had a out i was willing to drive 90 plus miles a day to work but that is no longer a choice my own state is dragging feet so much it will be 2016

if i could be a data entry person i would but u seen my spelling and how i double on words and skip them or next word i know how to spell ....if i could be the night shift guy at a gas i would but it always ends up in me quitting in a few months because i just can not take it at some point and time someone does something so horrible a reaction is needed (last time it was a guy beating his girlfriend at the gas pump so i dead run tackled the guy to the ground and beat him ....that almost got me locked up but it was in defense of another and she was in fear of her life no charges ) i have even been the guy in mickey ds way past teen years after doing that so long u want to eat a gun still can not eat from there

i am trying my damnest and getting nowhere.............at this point and time i thank everyone that has offered me a hand or view point or kind word ....i wish u the best and hope things work for u if they do not keep trying until something kills yah

i am going to play this out it will kill me or i will learn something out it .....best of luck

thought I posted the other night, but I guess this did not take. Basically what I stated was that I feel it is important for my coach to challenge me and I grow more when I am not feeling all the great when leaving the session. I believe it is the job of the counselor to challenge and not agree with the things we are saying since that only leads to us continuing to do the things we have been doing. I also know that I can be very angry person at times as well. I have come to realize that anger and me being p off does not help me or take me places I want to be. I have been challenged a lot and have learned a lot due to that. I have been exposed to tapping, mindfulness, acceptance, and challenging negative thinking. I believe that if I agree with the counselor then there is no reason to be going to one. I a not growing and all I am doing is spinning my own wheels. I have leaned to be open and straight forward in my session so he can process and work though my thoughts. If I want to call him a name. I tell him that and he works through it with me. I do not rant or become angry about session and carry it with me for days or hours like I use to since it was only hurting me. I say what I want and then move on. I am not sure this is helping you, but this is what I have learned and how I am growing. I say what I need to say and deal with it instead of hiding and justifying the reasons to why I will not say things or approach them. Hope this helps and gives you some insight into things that work for me. if you are interested in more, please let me know. Best of luck

I'm not judging but I was asked at intake how much caffeine I drank , cocaine is grows naturally too. This doesn't mean I'm against legalizing it but I'm pointing out the flaw in that thinking.

SSI is hard to get. My husband attempted twice and got denied 2x. Maryland has a disability program http://www.baltimorecountymd.gov/Age...isability.html that you can get. You can also get food stamps here https://www.marylandsail.org/ Be prepared to get less than $80 but that's enough for 1 person. If you want I can make a meal plan with you because $300 is way to much to spend on 1 person. Medicaid has transportation https://mmcp.dhmh.maryland.gov/commu...0Contacts.docx Since you have medicaid you have to learn the prefered drug list https://mmcp.dhmh.maryland.gov/pap/d...DL_7.21.14.pdf

Crisis/acute centers are a quick ways to get med change fast. You may want to look into vocrehab.

You had entire post devoted to your legal issues, so you were the one to bring it up. Someone asked if you had done jail time in response to your postings about legal issues. You asked for advice and said you would be a moron not to listen. My advice is: take responsibility for your actions. You are going to hear the same thing in addiction treatment, so unless you just want to hear what that you want to hear, consider owning up, getting clean so that you can see what medications work for you, and things will open up for you. Help will be there. Solutions will come to you.

Me personally would give it a few to settle down, after all, I'm bipolar. The next step that I would do is go back when I'm feeling a little better, if possible and try again. If it doesn't go well, then there is a problem and it's not going to work. You're fired is what I would say. They work for me, not the other way around and then try something different like a dif gender pdoc.

I'm sorry you're having issues, good luck with all this