Hi I am new here I have been diagnosed with bipolar haven't started my meds yet due to breastfeeding my son I am weaning him if I don't start soon I could lose my marriage my bipolar is getting so out of control I have constant mood swings my life Is a constant roller coaster I need support I need to talk to people who understand what I'm going through my husband doesn't understand me I don't even understand me sometimes I'm up and down constantly agitated I can't sleep almost every night I stay up I have to take sleeping pills and such if I want to sleep I just am so desperate for help and support that's why I joined I am hoping to find good advice help and support here it's hard to sleep when my mind is constantly racing

[UpDownMiddleGround]

Has your husband educated himself on the disorder? Are there support groups in your area for families of individuals with BP?

He told me he has but I don't think he has looked into it enough I really need to take my medications I haven't started yet bc I am trying to wean my son first but I think the mediation will help me I don't have any bipolar support groups here not that I know of

Yeah it can be really difficult unmedicated. I am on quite a few different meds for sleep. Just realize that it won't last forever. Last late August/September/October I ended up in the hospital bc I could barely sleep even with all they were giving me. I changed my mood stabilizer and that's what did it.

My family wasn't really interested in learning about bp but I sat them down and explained to them that it would greatly help me if they would learn and to look at it as any other illness.

When can you start taking all the meds needed?

Originally Posted by Stargazer_1110

Yeah it can be really difficult unmedicated. I am on quite a few different meds for sleep. Just realize that it won't last forever. Last late August/September/October I ended up in the hospital bc I could barely sleep even with all they were giving me. I changed my mood stabilizer and that's what did it.

My family wasn't really interested in learning about bp but I sat them down and explained to them that it would greatly help me if they would learn and to look at it as any other illness.

When can you start taking all the meds needed?

I can start when I'm not breastfeeding I have the meds it's just not safe to take while breastfeeding my son I am trying to wean him my family has made it clear and the doctor that I must get him weaned soon!! Bc my marriage is falling apart and there are days I can't take care of my son bc I can't get out of bed

Originally Posted by Sky101

I can start when I'm not breastfeeding I have the meds it's just not safe to take while breastfeeding my son I am trying to wean him my family has made it clear and the doctor that I must get him weaned soon!! Bc my marriage is falling apart and there are days I can't take care of my son bc I can't get out of bed

How much longer until he's weaned? Just hold on til then.

[Blitter2014]

I feel for you, it can be so tough when you can see what you are doing to your relationship and yet feel powerless to hold it together. I know when I am hurting I tend to hurt others both intentionally (as a cry for help) and unintentionally as I struggle through the day. Communication can be a really effective tool. Try to tell your partner every day how much they mean to you, how much you appreciate their support and love, and how it is not their fault for the way you are feeling. And let them know how much you are trying. You could also tell your Pdoc how you are going and see if there is anything they can do to help. Are you continuing drug free Therapy? Do what you can, Then give yourself some time.

Being a bloke I have never had a baby, but I can imagine that Bipolar and recently giving birth would put an awful lot of hormones out of balance all at the same time. It's not always going to be like it is now. Things will settle down. You will stabilize. Then you can start to really enjoy that beautiful baby and the new family that you have created.

I wish you the very best for you and your family

Thanks everyone for the support once I start my meds I believe it will help a lot I am gonna start today my family is really trying to be supportive they think it's time I'm gonna pump it out till there's nothing left and substitute formula for now it's best for everyone in my family for me to fix my problem so I can take care of my son hopefully things will get better once I start my medication I'm kind of nervous bc I never have tried it before something's definitely had to change I have to help myself to be able to help my baby and keep my family together

I need to learn to be nicer to my spouse my husband sometimes the things he says makes my bipolar mood swings worse and we argue and it gets scary I feel like it's not me sometimes bc some things I tell him I don't really mean and later when I am not Manic anymore I apologize they say you can control what you say is that true bc half the time I don't feel like I can control my emotions how I feel and say things I don't really mean

I don't want to get a divorce but lately it has been leading to that I need to learn how to cope with all this and getting on meds is the first step possibility counciling